Heather

Heather Jan 2023

Why now?

Why does your beautiful face just flash across my mind
It's been years since I've thought of you
Why now do you appear back to me in my mind
With the image of your face, came the ways that you once made me feel
It's like the feeling never left my body, all so very familiar
All your touches became so real instantly
And that smile, that beautiful smile of yours
That I always can't help but return
All of the beautiful memories we shared came crashing down making me miss you instantly
Wishing we were still there in that moment
But
You shouldn't be here in my mind so randomly
You're in the past and I've moved on
Right?

Heather Jan 2020

Kisses

Have someone ever kissed you
And everything around you both just stopped
The rain that was falling
Can't be heard anymore
The drops rolling down the car window paused
In that moment is just felt like
Only the two of you were the only people in the world
Time felt like it literally stopped
You felt safe, calm, happy, excited, a bundle of emotions
Your heart stopped beating yet it was all you could hear
You couldn't breathe but wished for this moment to never end
They pulled away and you were still trapped this haze
Only when you opened your eyes
The world continued
You heard the rain hitting against the car
And you guessed the drops continued rolling
Because you never took your eyes off the person
That just stopped your world but guess what
They did it again

#kiss #kisses #world #stop #happy #calm #safe

Heather Jun 2019

For Anyone That Needs It

You wake up
With your mind full of positivity
Ready to take on the day
With the mindset that today is the day
Everything will change
You feel good
Spirited
A spring in your step
But guess what
Somewhere deep in your mind
You know it isn't going to last
And you're right
Something happens that just takes all that spirit away
You're back to your usual self
The down sad one
What do you do
Allow that mishap take you back
Or do you learn from it and continue
I know it's easier said than done
But for ourselves we gotta move on
We can't let these little bumps keep us down
We get back up and keep going
Even if you don't feel like it
And you rather just stay hidden
But no, let's move on and get better
Because we owe that much to ourselves
We deserve to be happy

Heather Feb 2019

?

You're looking in the mirror with a big smile
The biggest toothy smile you can muster
You're looking at your reflection and telling yourself that you're happy
Very happy
But why are there tears of sadness streaming down your face

#sad

Feb 2019

Eyla

A confession.

most people see me as
a happy person because
i laugh easily,
i smile a lot,
i joke a lot.

but deep down
in my heart,
i am fragile,
i can get hurt easily,
but i choose to not
show it to the world.

instead of being sad,
i choose to laugh to cover it.
maybe you can call me
"the queen of the mask"

by this,
you can tell
that most of the time
when I'm laughing,
I'm not really laughing,
i was trying so hard to hide
my sadness.

#feelings #sad #broken #depressed #fake #smile #hidden #thought #sorrow #hurt

Heather Feb 2019

What to do?

You've been leaning on a shoulder to keep you strong
That person's been there for you
But what happens when the person leaves
And it's all your fault
You've driven away the rock you stand on that keeps your feet from touching the lava
What to do when it's gone
The only strength that was keeping you up
Your strength came in the form of a person
You loved that person and wanted to give them nothing but the best
But you only gave them the worse
So what do you do when they leave
Cry your eyes out because they're gone
And they're probably not going to come back because you pushed them away with your negativity
How to be strong from now on I don't know
But for now, I'm just going to cry

#love #hurt #old #strength

Heather Jan 2019

I wish

I wish memory erasing exist
Because forgotting memories isn't easy
Especially the good ones that just leaves your heart broken
Or you just wish you could leave this life behind and start over
But life isn't that easy
And life isn't that fair
But you just wish so so much
That all the pain go away
That everything just goes away
But they always say be careful what you wish for
But at this moment I don't really care

#love #forget #hurt #heartbroken