She was appealing
With scars still healing
She was curvy.
Men love that ****,
*****
stared and gawked
“Hey let’s just talk”
Which translate into
“Let’s just ****”

She was a worker
After all she had demands
She didn’t like to ask for help
She didn’t need a man
Yet, she suffered every day
Longing for a hand
To guide her
And make her understand
Maybe, even be her biggest fan
Motivate her, man!

He cared, So he said
Possessive
Manipulative
Narcissistic
I belong to him
An object he was obsessed

Took him for granted
Maybe he was not that bad
I didn’t realize what i had
Until someone else
gave him a chance
For her,
he is the best
She has ever had
For me he is my sad
Past

Trust is greater than love
You can easily love anyone
But to trust them,
Is vulnerability

It was about an hour train ride
One to relax
Reflect
Think of past regrets
& stress about future ones

Woke up today
Grateful
Even for the pain
Tears
& swollen eyes
A new day
New adventure
Convincing myself
It
Will
Be
Okay

Everyone wants to be a
super hero,
But only for validation

Compiling life  events
In one day
Live with no regrets,
The old folks say
However, i regret you
Everyday.

Confused between loving myself
Or hating it all
Between loving my body
Or changing it all
Nip & tuck
So i could simply be a good
****

I restored
What she destroyed

Wishing a knight in shining armor
would save me
From my fears
Wipe my tears
Years of pain
& Sorrow
Longing for a rescue
Fairytale, yea,
It does not exist

From the outside looking in
Everything is alright
But on the inside if my organs could talk
They would spew
Of the most pleasurable poisons
Drugs, alcohol, ***,love
Things You would never get.
So i just shake your hand
Pretending normalcy,
Just like you.

Love day
A.k.a
V-day
Lonely
In bed
Wake up start the day
love yourself
How you wish others would
Today and Everyday

She wondered
daily
Is she learning from her past
Is she repeating the same mistakes
Was this going to last
Was this the non-traditional
Storybook ending
Or was this just a harder lesson
Than the past
She wondered

She was in search of something
Other days
Whatever was  
But she was afraid
He didn’t want the same
She wouldn’t lose herself
Like she once did
Falling for someone’s
Potential
Is a great mistake
Yet his kind heart
& fatherly ways
Made her question should she go?
Or should she stay?