I am silent,
I have given up,
It's useless.
As long as you don't realise what I am going through,
There is nothing left to fight or argue about.
You never understand,
You present me with examples of other people's lives,
I am not them,
I don't have the energy to cry on deaf ears,
I am silent.
Now, I have come to terms with my life,
Adapted to  changes,
No more complaints,
I am silent.
I am healing at last,
I have no more expectations from you,
I have learned to live with Grace and faith in my Creator,
For He is never going to abandon me,
He will  listen to my silence through my tears.
1/6/2019

August burned quickly, incipient nostalgia
prematurely vanished, mellow and gentle
sea stone on the tiled table, cedar plank
with fish, sunset through the eye-slit window

thigh high in life and riding wherever life
takes me like a hopeless romantic

He was everything
that I was scared to become.
I hope he's okay.

What I think and feel in my head is very clear.
It's the truth.
But when I say it, it always comes twisted out of my mouth.
It always comes out als lies.

Please don't spoil endgame...