The pain I feel I don't know how to explain
I'm always sad, or wanting to die
I'm tired of trying bc inside I'm dying
I wish I could tell you but I don't want you to hurt
I know you need me that is why I stay
But hey that is what I'm for

Everyone calls me a *****
A ****, a mistake and many other things
But yet all this pain I feel I don't know how to explain
I wish you could help me I know you try
This pain is overbearing so why not just give in
Everyone wants it even you but you just hide it
Maybe this is goodbye instead of see you soon
Maybe you could visit me
You have waited for me for 2 years
Now it is my turn to wait for you but......
On the other side

It comes in many different ways,
How will it go today?
Will I cry, Panick, or just curl up?
Anxiety what have I done?
Why do I have you?
Will you go away?
But all I ask is what will happen today?

It doesn't matter how you feel on the inside,
You are always told that your worthless, a **** up,
You are told to give up.
No one ever wants to listen to your pain,
They always push you away,
They make you feel like you have worth, then turn around and your worthless,
Just give up....

If you just hide you will be fine,
No one will ever hear you wine,
You thought they cared,
You were wrong,
All they say is...
Just give up, your a worthless c*nt

Why does life have to be this way?
What happen to the people who swore they'd stay?
They gave up on you.....
They told you that NO one cared,
They want you to shoot up, throw up
Man just give up.

Give up on your dreams they say, give up on life
Who the hell cares that he banged your wife,
No one will love you the way she did,
But man just give up.

You think on that thought,
It flies through your mind,
But then you stand up and cry.

You say to your family that this is "Goodbye"
Then you grab that knife...

But before you end it you think again,
That thought you just had made you grin,
You think of your friends and then your family,
You cry some more then drag the blade,
But you forget that it was homemade ,
You try again and again but nothing works.

Your heart hurts an all you hear is " give up"
But you wipe your face,
Then go downstairs,
You see your family sitting their,
They look at you with bright smiles!
Hunny why won't you stay for a while?

I tired of many things
One of those things is bullying
I'm tired of the pain
I'm tired of everything
I don't know how to live on this earth anymore
Used to it was so much simpler
Nothing went wrong but now it is like a bomb in the face
It blows up and you don't know what to do
All of a sudden its like BAM your a **** up
Or BAM you need to die and many other things
I don't know how life is still going on at all
Nothing is going right there is so many things that are wrong but not enough things that are right
I'm tired of the fact that nothing gets done about the bad things that go on
This world will destroy itself and we will watch it burn down to the non existence ground beneath it
All we will have to say is I'm tired bc deep inside we know all we are is murders or the **** that people say we always were
I'm just so tired of everything right now I'm numb
But no one cares  do they NO they don't they are to busy destroying the very thing that cares about them and the very thing that feeds them waters them and provides them air but nope they don't care who else they destroy do they?
Not even themselves or the friends that thought they cared
But I'm so tired

You are the very air I breathe,
You are my other half,
You are the one I think about,
Day and night,
We may fight but you are still mine,
I couldn't go by without your shine!
You are my sunshine

Rain falls in the dark night,
The person she seeks falls out of sight,
Her heart aches and moans for more,
But she hears it's not what she looks for,

She acts out but still...
Nothing,
She wonders if he will ever do...
Something,
She yells and screams while kicking a lot,
Hoping she won't get shot!
She wonders if he will ever punish her,
But it seems like he never will,
She hopes for spankies...
or just a little spat,
And yet she receives nothing,

So she hides that side of her away...
So that he'll stay!

Depression is like a parasite that comes to you in an hour of aloneness. Depression is like a demon that wants to be fed and isn't satisfied till your dead and it isn't alone. It has a friend and its name is anxiety, anxiety is a demon that is afraid of everything and feeds off your soul.  They aren't satisfied until your dead. They won't stop until they get what they want and they start out as a small maggot then they slowly but rapidly grow. They become so big that you can't hold them in on your own and you don't ask for help because they have convinced you that you are alone and all you can say is "I know". People want to help you and they try but you have pushed them away and gave into the demons that are slowly killing you. Once they have devoured every inch of you, you realized that they did care and the demons move on to their next victim and you know you can't stop it. No matter how hard you try the demon, parasite, virus, just keeps killing and devouring innocent people. They are like villains with no weakness, virus with no cure, and they feed off pain and sorrow, and they will eventually get what they want and that's a place to themselves. With NO people, then they die.