Slower and sadder,
Jealous and envious.
Happier and brighter,
Loud and raucous.

Looks like waiting seemed better,
Hopeful heart setter.
Looks like I saw an illusion,
a needed delusion.

An option was made,
A second choice created.
Time might have fixed it,
Waiting might heal it.

It's been some time since we've spoken,
I don't mean a one word greeting...are we broken?
I've tried everything there is
gave my pride up for this!
Are you saying it's all for nothing,
That my efforts are simply rotting?
How quaint of you to think that,
How kind of you to say
that all that I've done
will be forgotten, washed away.
How the heck do you think I feel?
That all I had been working for was never even real?
I trusted you so much,
and then you started to change.
When I made my decision,
We were still family.... Just estranged
I didn't give up,
I still cared
I couldn't stop!
But all of it
fell on deaf ears not attempting to hear,
unseeing eyes not willing to try,
dying souls not daring to live,
closed mouths not striving to speak,
shattered hearts not struggling to be made whole!
My efforts were in vain
and yet why can't I release myself from this?
Why do I still freaking care?

It's a haunting feeling...
Knowing there's nothing I want more in this world than to be huddled under yours blankets right now,
breathing against your chest,
Your touch coaxing me to sleep

Here it starts,
Another journey beginning,
I had no idea
A surprise was in store.
When I was to open that creaky old door.
All was pitch black and I waited to see,
If there was possibly a person to scare me.
But when I peeked through,
In the middle was you.
In hand were flowers and a chocolate I see
You started the song and played it for me.
I was overwhelmed couldn't take it all in,
All I did was gasp and wait for it to sink in.
After all that was done I didn't even know,
You still had friends to join the show.
"Will you be my Valentine"
Burst through the door
while in your hand you still held more.
Forever? A lifetime?
I still couldn't speak.
All my these feelings left me so weak.
I had to choose, I was red as a rose.
So the best and happiest one I chose.
Yes I say and yes I will.
I'll stand by my choice until time keeps still.

I feel so happy,
Light-hearted and free
Of all the things this was one,
Very much I thought might not be.
Each moment I remember, each second I recall.
You were there standing in the midst of it all.
Oh, joy my King sing me that song.
Under which I fell,
Much a victim to your spell.