My heart
Imprisoned in reason
Fluttering
Like a butterfly
Entangled
In dreams and memories  
It prays
To the one who commands it
To come free it
In exchange
For a life time of service

So let me redecorate myself then

With your love

To see why you look at me

The way you do

I don't know who I am
They tell me I am fire
I don't quite agree
I think I might be a lamp
That burns with all its might
Not that the winds aren't cruel
And the sun doesn't shine
It's magnificent light on me
But its in the dark night
That I keep burning
And it is the travellers
In search of their self
And the madness in their eyes
That keeps me going

It hurts too much

I thought what I asked, was small

But now I know

Why love is precious, after all

Let me love you,
               here and now

In this glorious
               summer haze

And sweet goodbyes,
               we will say

When we go our
               separate ways

It took me seven years
to realise
the words in my mind
were too deep for
my mouth to dig up
I thought it was easier
to open my skin
and let the truth
pour down my arms

It took me seven years
to realise
nobody should be allowed
to touch parts
of your home
or hold pieces  
of your heart
that you don't yet understand

It took me seven years
to realise
I will wear these scars
forever
I'll carry them
through every smile
every kiss
every concerned gaze
I'll carry them
to my grave

It took me seven years
to realise
the pain carved
into the walls
of my castle
etchings of
attempting to disappear
are not a story of weakness
but a tale of
how I survived