I was sad for a long time
They gave me magic candies to fix it
I think they mixed them up with love potions
Ever since, I've fallen in love with everyone who sees me
I have fallen for the moon
for the stars
for the clouds
the birds
I have fallen for the entire sky
and everything under it
I have fallen in love with the melancholic
the strange
the broken
and even the dead deer by the roadside
I've fallen in love with life itself

All I talk about is love
I need to find another thing to write about I fear...

I still have everything you gave to me
every word you´ve ever spoken
held in reverie
violent little letters from last year,
stories of lovers I envy.
screenshots of every time
you admitted you loved me
I inhale your scent every night
and I feel rather crazy
Your name floods my mind with every breath,
I doubt you ever think of me
Wynn, my personal nicotine

You kiss me
and I am sobbing
I adore you so
You tell me you love me,
you'd never let me go
and it rips out my lungs
An attack of the cardiac
You say I am beautiful
and it tears me apart
Because after you are sweet
you always depart
I know it already, but it will always repeat
You kiss me, your lips are bitter and ****
Your spit tastes like my skin and my blood, oh my heart--
I am sobbing
and you will leave me as such
A crying mess on the floor of my bedroom in the morning
and I will still run back

But a pleasant tragedy
And limerance galore
Benefited by onlookers many
Yet always yearning for more

Die for the one you adore
Over and over
Name them the matriarch
, of your very core
Tie them close and hold them, forevermore

Hurl yourself into the sea
Unfurl all of your walls
Ram yourself into the rocks
Till sirens pull you free

Most of all, a gentle ache
Eagerly giving pain for the sake of another, is what loving means to me.

Am
I
wrong

to
love
you

Every man
I meet
is nothing
but a shadow
of you

Every laugh
every touch
every word
reminds me
I can’t
I won’t
I don’t
have you

It’s not distance
It’s terror
If you see me
really see me
I’ll destroy
us
before you can

I want you
so much
it hurts
it twists
my chest
my stomach
my head
into fire

You deserve
everything
I can’t give
anything
I can’t
I won’t
I shouldn’t

So I watch
I wait
I rot
I burn
I ache
I bleed
quietly
alone

Even in silence
I burn for you
Even in stillness
I am empty
Even in the ache
I still want you
I still need you
I still love you

And it
kills
me