In many ways we are so close
yet always out of reach
Defenses we both put in place
that neither one could breach

Though put in place to keep us safe
from pain and fear and doubt
They have the added side effect
of keeping others out

When finally I crossed your path
and wished to set you free
The gates were locked so long ago
you could not find the key

And so this space between you and I
remains unto this day
I sit and wait while you decide
if there’s another way

In the depths of my mind,
Everything was figured out
And I was sure of how we would be:
A typical couple infused with happiness,
With lives that were worry free…

Is this how it is meant to be?
That when one finds true happiness,
The struggles begin to run deep?
That the little things begin to grow in power,
Causing everything I imagined to simply be devoured?

Can it be true, that I was wrong,
That love does more than set your heart free?

Well…as I lay here and
Await for the answer to strike from above,
I will continue the path I've chosen,
And refuse to believe in the dark side of love.

Life can be hard when your thoughts are messier than your bed could ever be.
Sentences, phrases, words, anything just racing around my mind.
Sometime I can sort them, catagorise them in a way that makes them easier to perceive.
But sometimes, that's not the case.
They twist and manipulate as if my mind is a kaleidoscope and every new thought just adds another fragment to the broken picture inside my head.
Maybe it would help to understand, or maybe it would just add to the confusion.
I wish I understood why my mind works like this, in these confusing an mysterious ways.
Perhaps one day I'll understand why they behave this way, but for now I'll continue trying to organise my racing thoughts.

when life let you choose between time or money, which one will it be?

for me it will be time. people will say I'm stupid or crazy but you need to remember that money doesn't buy us happiness.

when we have a lot of time we can do anything, literally anything. just think about it, we work and earn some money. someone people work hard earn a lot of money but does not have a time for their love ones.

just think about it, maybe we won't be rich but at least we have someone to be by our side and not feel lonely. in the end you will die and money won't be there at your grave

Life is long
Then suddenly ding ****
Your time is up
You look back at all you've done
As you go up
The memories you've had are long
Some make you laugh
Some make you cry
But then it hits you
You ran out of time
Then you try to pry down but you cant its too late
You wanted to at least make one more memory before it was too late
Then you see all you left behind and you start to worry
But this is your fate
How sad it ended this way
My lesson to you is dont waste your time

Do you know how hard it is to watch the person you love, love someone else?
Do you even see the pain in my eyes when I look at you?
I am so close, I can touch you, I can feel you
but I can never have you.

There were queries left unanswered.
Excruciating pains that my heart felt when I am with you
and you're thinking of her.
You kiss me like I was her.
You made me her replacement but until the end,
I can never be her.
You can never love me.
I can never feel your love.