Lonely a phase,
Quiet shells of assumed comfortable silence saddened by thoughts, memories flooding the mind at rest
Questions of, "What if", "If only..."
It's all faded little joy
Now a territory of awkward behavior
If only the heart could speak, you'd tell how lonely everyone is
Amidst quiet tired evenings comes the silence, then again I'm reminded, it's okay to not be okay
If it's not yours, you'll lose it forever, if it is yours, it will come to you
Either way you're not settling for anything less just don't be afraid
You're only human
Impatient Imperfect Impulsive, yearning for tiny kisses, greetings and beautiful smiles of what you'd call home
It's no place, It's she
Art like human a soul
I Love you! Always do Miss you.

He was a shadow and she was his light
That much he knew
That much he still knows
She's not just any girl!
She's thee girl!
She's her own woman
Beautiful, kind sweet & ****!
He prays for her everyday
He hopes everyday she's out safe
He's hurt her before
He's sorry for the hurt he brought
He loves her dearly
She showed him real love
A kind he never thought even he was capable of
He holds onto that for forever
She's his girl
He's hers.

From all I say,

You can tell where I'm at
Whether or not am sincere
Whether it's all pretence
You could easily find the lies and the truths from all I say to you!
I'm an open book before the one I love
And that much control you have over me
You know me enough
You know where my mind is at.
I accept it all.
I don't fight at all
It's all okay.
I'll be fine.
I allowed it in the first place
I have to deal with it.
I just hope it all fades and...  
and we get back to normal or the awkward new normal
I don't know what it will be
But I hope it's the good kind
One that blossom
One that subdues the gray area we in
So we both live in peace

A change in the weather
A mirror with an unfamiliar reflection
A winter without snow
A sad song that plays on
It isn't the life I wanted
Clearly not how I imagined
Rallies for joy replaced by hurt and sorrow
How else could I see you
Only time will tell
My mind creates stories
Beautiful memories I'd want to hold
My eyes adore your every move
Sadly that's all I can have
Well you're you, am simply me
Could I be infatuated
I can't be this weak
I fell in love with an imagination
A vision I'd want to keep
If wishes were true, I'd have you through thorns and ash
Pick up the pieces
Create all for mine
I do want you
But I know I can't have you
Guess good things have you messed up
And all you left with is wishing you could have it all back
That's how scary it is when I think about falling for you.

Her: It beats my understanding why you'd want to meet this version of me, like this.

I want to meet her because I want a life with her
Talking to her keeps me warm
She says loving makes her weak but that doesn't make her helpless
She's a strong and easy person to love
Every bit a man wants in a woman
I've fallen for her even though she's afraid to try
Wants to be close but fears she'll lose me the moment she lets herself fall much deeper
Sometimes I hate her for it but she's only human
An innocent soul with an equally fragile heart
"I'll let you meet her when I don't feel like I need a return ticket" is what she says
I could tell she's ready but still in denial
Even when she tries to push me away,
I give her more reasons not to
To say it more plainly, I'm in love with her
That's why.
If there were a child to come
She'd learn to love like her mum
And patience
She's worth the wait.

When you fall in love with a poet
Time tells no one sleep
Lights fade in your eyes but lips brace at all times
For their affection is like water to plant seed
Lyre to bring relief & armor to shield mar fortified by a cord of three strands

People change just like seasons
Once familiar face now turned stranger
Unrecognisable
But why the sudden character change

I wrote your name on the ocean sand
5 meters offshore so it wouldn't be washed away
The shallow waves came but couldn't get closer to our line of fame
Watched the sun set that was pretty
Finally got to know what orange light looks like with someone
Said bye to the sun as it went back to sleep
Played in the water, rolled our bodies & enjoyed the last bits of the ocean's breeze
Made a vow to love & never be broken & sealed it with our lips
That's the joy we had in our ocean streets

By the river we had a seat, above the ground in the trees
Sat on our favorite branch & watched the leaves fall diligently
Listened to the birds chirp & wished we could fly like them
Stared so much though made no promises
From across we could see right through each others eyes

On Thursday's we stayed out late
Wandering along the streets till we found ourselves on my rooftop
Sat there, gazed at the stars
Made secret wishes that we later tricked each other to tell

Sunday evening was our calm not so quiet day
Time for sharing & hoped the new week went well
Had a sip of flavored coffee from the café just around the corner to warm our hearts and awaken the once "have to work personalities"
Embraced each other as we said bye before we lost track of time the more.

Just one day will do
A second or two
So i see this through
I want to relive all moments
Smile at the beautiful
Cry over the ugly
Can you feel my hurt too?
I just need to know the truth
You stole my heart
Yet i had no clue

Is it weird that i want this
Is it silly that I'm crying all over again
You of all people were an Angel
Why the sudden change
Its crazy on this new path
Can't seem to find my way
Like strangers in outer space

Could we hit the reset button
I want to start out fresh
Listen to what my heart says
Its tone's sharper than a new blade

Sing me a song from the rhymes you wrote
In a voice not low or high but perfect for beautiful mind
Let me feel your passion
So i know what's under your breath
Create a melody, irresistible
A note🎶..........,
Numb my body & let it only be awakened by your musical touch
I want it to consume me wholeheartedly so i dance to your rhythm and flow

I've drawn an image of her in my head and all i think of is wanting her so bad despite all limits
In my mind am weak
Unable to resist her
Each time her lips flash before me
All i want to do is place mine against hers
Can't verbally say it out but I've always wanted a share of her
Feel her in and out and hear her cry
It could be hard and wrong but she makes me feel its right

Don't want to wait another day
Just to show you how much i love you
It's either now or never
Only if you let me
Let you know

One last smile
As I hold your chin
One last time
Reminisce and laugh together
For it ain't forever
A new door has opened
A story that won't have you in it even when I want you
Selfish is not what I want to be
On this bed as I say bye
I will forever have your memory
Even in the after life.

Still can't tell where love lies
If it's inside & the heart is the source
Or out & the looks & gestures say it all

The absence of your smile made me cry for the first time
More of a sign you and i are no more
The walls have been shattered
You're up there & I'm down on the floor
Always thought I would take it all in but seeing you happy makes me sad
Not that i envy your happiness but because I'm not the one with jokes anymore
Nice things do come to an end  though i wish that wasn't our door
Yeah it hurts to say bye but at least i had become a chord to your guitar and soul.

The body is at rest
When the eyes close for the spirit to travel
Long journeys from century to century, place to place and meet and interact with different people
Those it knows and new faces
Some are friendly, others are full of fury
Desiring to fill in without it's owner knowing
If trapped in the other world
One can't breathe the fresh air again
But these eyes force to open
When actual air kisses her face
Acknowledging a new day and new life to treasure
After a long night of fight and terror

Why else would a rose be beautiful if you didn't say so
Why else would i crave flavours if you hadn't become my favourite
How else can i say the word i love you other than the way i say it.

Ash could turn back to paper,metal be liquidated
thorn be molded to something smooth as one paves their way out of the hole of wishes that never come true with urge to love and be loved there won't be a river from the eyes but joy with smiles.

Wash us free of inequity
Destroy the savage
And cleanse our souls
Blood that heals many
Be our forever guide
None is like you
For you rise with glory all the time

No words can air out this grief
Hurting like flesh is under a furnace
Wanting to go back but its impossible
Since everything seems destroyed beyond repair

In the mirror there's a reflection
An image of your physique that can be seen even from a far
With a crack, the view is divided
All that shows is phases of you
In my brown eyes there's you
Only when closer can you see you

Whirling as the wind
Soothing as the breeze
Cold as ice
Tense all the time
Chills all over her skin
A little warmth is what she needs
Another drop from the sky
And blankets are all over her skin

Tears of the sky
The heavens cry out loud
She's been sad for a while
And now let's it all out
Falling gracefully at a pace
The flowers set to embrace

Alleviate the cold in one
Refurbish blood in the vein

Is it ok if i push further
Further so i could get a place in your heart
Faster so you could let me into your life
Act weaker so you could see how vulnerable i am when around you
Or stronger so you could notice the brave in me as i say , "i love you."

I choose you
Not for the beauty but your character
Not for the pictures but me
I choose you above all claims that you as a choice isn't right but in these eyes you're just fine
I choose to cherish every moment like I choose to take this life journey with you
I choose you
More than the stars in the sky
More than the colours in the rainbow
More than the eyes that choose to watch us in silence
Even after a time, I choose you
Always

Maybe the darkness could become light one day
Maybe the pain could be healed and we are all free from sorrow
Maybe the furthest of stars could finally shine with brighter light
Maybe be our efforts will eventually payoff
Maybe, maybe not someday
The puzzle of uncertainty still takes over
If only someone could tell the future

Let the sun shine as always
Let the moon reflect light from the sun
Let the sky be blue for a time
Let it pour like never before
Let friendship be built
Let it all be tested

Reality strikes when the eyes unfold to see what lies ahead of the sockets that hold them
Only then can one understand
And make a choice to change or float through the visions they see

If love was a fruit
It would be grape
Nice in the start
But bitter with protraction
Onerous to tell by looks
But easily told by taste
How strange you make one feel
Happy and sad at the same time
One rides in vain
Despite the exceeding pain
You leave one gasping for air
Every time they steal a glance at you
Like a lion on the hunt
Desperately searching for a meal
You hide and only come out when ones ready
Your treasure is hidden at the core
That only you can access
Talk about consistency
You get bored
Talk about craziness
You get jolly
Smile for nothing
You get a reason to grin
Whisper amazing words
You jump for joy
Amazing love
Refined as wine
Sweet as Brachetto d’Acqui
Bitter as Cabernet Sauvignon
The world isn't pleasant without you
An ocean would never laugh if the clouds weren't there to kiss her with tears
You comfort one in difficult times
Smile when sadness intrudes
How beautiful you are

Eager to grab a meal
It rushes for its ****
Fast as lightening strikes the ground
It grabs onto its neck
With all strength endowed
It tears it's flesh
And as the prey lies helpless
It starts to feed
With the African Cheetah, hesitation means a lost meal ushering in hunger which dooms survival in the wild

One of a few things I'm sure of is
With all the craziness around
You truly are the love of my life

Countless as stars
Like soil is on the ground
Unnoticed when done & with time becomes our pride
Reluctant we are, always not wanting to admit the wrong we've done
**** even when we try, mistakes still follow us
Guess it's a tough journey that ends when the soil claims ownership over us once more
With the wind being our mode of transportation to our next course or universe

As the wind blows & waves rise higher than our boat, I'm terrified & can't see a way out
I can only think of how perfect life has been before I came aboard
My mind's filled with thoughts of how this deep ocean will swallow me whole
Adrift by a tide & I'm scared the more
With my heart not in my chest I slip into insomnia
Trapped inside my own body
I can only imagine how to be a ghost & peep through the windows of the righteous
Learn how they live to find direction
Wake up with a new identity & willing to walk in the light of truth
Pour oil to the flames of love that give this world a glow brighter than a thousand stars

Filled with hate
He picks his blade
Awaiting the next victim to take away
As scary as it is
The ripper has a sad soul
Only he know why he does what he does

Fore told is fore warned
For the texts showed something that she didn't realise
Not wanting to doubt him
His skeletons stayed in the dark
Until when a physical encounter witnessed by her
As her husband slept on with another girl