never once have i paid attention
to the way your eyelashes,
long and dainty,
brush your skin.
never once have i thought of how
that scar is oh so visible on your lip.
never once have i considered
the way your eyes pierce mine.

yet if i have not though of these,
how can i picture you so clearly?

so many places
I have never been
and never seen
yet they are all here
the world visits me
in my ineptitude
screened
a movie
a moving mirage
expanding like the universe
further and further
away from me
making spaces
leaving traces
my mind fills in
the world becomes picture
framed
Hitachi, Sharp, Sony
so many meetings
greetings
but none of them mine
I am alone
as a polar bear
on an ice cap
a Native American
in his own land
populations explode
and interact
to become lonely souls
the last of their kind
waiting on a final chapter
an end to the movie

So much memories we have that it's nearly impossible to forget
You left but didn't tell my heart to move on yet
A picture of a life where you and I were present I shot
Now a big hole in it I spot
Time passed by and I couldn't wait any longer
I knew if I saw you one more time I'd get stronger
I went searching for you relying on the wind and its directions
but I ended up in the ocean without your protection
I looked at the sky and remembered you look at the same one too
I looked at my hand and remembered the space between my fingers were meant for you
As I was drowning, running out of breath and falling apart
I realized that I don't have to search for you as you are present in my heart.

YOU ABIDE IN ME

I really don't
know how,
why I find
myself so
into you. Or
maybe I'm
wandering
in
thought and
lost into you.
You bide in me.
Picture you on
every thought
screen.
Can't wait,
longing and
craving your
face to see.
Our love is
like the flowers and
the honey
bee. being
your's knows
no pain. You're
all I earn.
My sweetest
vibes is you
in all the
women I ever
met. ON fire.
#C9_fm

I drew this for you
My dear
To express how I feel
What you mean to me

Are you lost?
I thought a picture was worth
1,000 words
Oh I forget

There are no words
For how I feel
The complete opposite of love
Bitter hatred

You shouldn't said those
Few but strong words
That hurt to this day
If only you had noticed

It was painful
How much you hurt me
But I forgive you
For now

I had my payback
You can see it in the picture
The dead flowers
Sitting beside a nameless gravestone

You know who's here?
I know I do
And I know you'll never read this poem
Because this grave...

It's for my sanity
It's for my pain
It's for a life ended
It's for...

You

Then next is me
See you in hell *****