If you can't be the only one,
Be the best one...

do you ever just realise you are going to miss people? miss their words, their advice; miss their support and their love and their presence?

and all they have done for you, you try to describe it in terms that you cannot just simply define; in words that have an intangible meaning but simultaneously hold the weight of the world.

and then you have that realisation, that epiphany that burns cold and clear. it isn't until near our end when we truly start to value all the passing people in our little lives.

and you realise that nothing matches the exact mood and time; whether you feel utterly amazing or utterly ****, whether your mind is all over the place or you are completely sane. let that dawn on you, let it seep in and let it
wash, wash, wash
back over you.
you can't ever get that moment back.

please, it is important to let others know how much they have inspired you. how much they have guided you. don't hold back. tell others how you feel, in the midst of all madness and meaning.

and if you are lucky to see them again, all these memories will come flooding back; everything and anything and everything.
it all will.
and it will all be glorious.

and you will find it to be an emotional release in the beautiful swirling catharsis of it all, fluidity and freedom, all meandering within and throughout the ripples of time.

it is a release, a pure release.
rendering all things equal.

The lush green blades,
pierced me with shades
of heaven, as they swayed
in the wind. I stayed
to see their dance,
and with every glance,
my heart rejoiced
as they carried on, poised.

I can´t wait
for the hurt
to finally go away,
waiting for the day,
that i´d wake up without
thinking about you,
without thinking about the day you left me
without any explanation

When that day comes,
I´d celebrate & say
I will never let
anyone in,
Becaus you caused me dirt,
hurt,
you did a number on my health,
You diminished my confidence
My self love,
My life purpose,
My importance wandered away.

But when my pain goes away,
I´ll be stronger than ever,
I´ll be focussing on me,
I won´t let anyone in,
Will not chase anyone
My life will be priority,
Because I´m done with loving too much
caring too much,
for someone, that wouldn´t love back
or do the same

When that day comes,
I´ll rise

Do not waste a second worrying about the details of every situation. If you let yourself get caught up, you'll miss out on important and definitive moments. Do not waste a second wishing you could change times that have already occurred. The decisions you proceed to make should be your only focus.  Do not waste a second punishing yourself for when you are wrong or when you hurt someone. Forgiving yourself is the first step to living a happier, healthier life. Focus on making yourself better. Do not waste a second getting caught up in the drama that entices and intoxicates every person around you. Do not waste a second being full of insecurities and doubts. Love yourself. Trust yourself. Take the risks you want to take without worrying about the consequences. You will deal with those as they come. You can handle any problem that comes your way. You are powerful and capable.

you can only walk so many miles,
until the miles you were walkin' for,
no longer add up.
the destination you were searchin' for already sprung up.
step back,
take a look,
kickback and unhook.
the miles are done,
your feet are tired.
now unwire,
and inspire all that you desired.