I wish that I could trust you,
sometimes I almost do.

I crave our old companionship.
Why did you have to ruin it?

I guess I didn't mean that much,
I deceived myself completely.

I thought you cared as much as I did.
I know that was my mistake.

Your only fault is constant disappointment.
Maybe I just expect too much.

Is it too much to ask for loyalty?
Was it too hard to be trustworthy?

You deny the whispers spoken behind my back,
but don't you know I can feel the slimy betrayal?

The knife in my back still hasn't left,
not with you constantly pushing it back in.

I wish I could trust you,
but now I know better than that.

I saw you today..
By accident..
Caught me off guard..
Wasen't expecting it..

You looked the same..
Head deep into your phone..
Unaware of what's going on around you..
Restored friendships...
With whom you hated...
All because I left you alone..
And all because you cant stand...
To be alone...

Cant say I'm surprised..
You were always high school..
All pom poms on game day..
All talk..
Loose lipped...
Knowing nothing of loyalty..
Starved for attention..
Mouth running constantly...
To whoever would listen..
Always kind of wide eyed..
And not really there...


Yea...
Nothings changed...
Your still the same...
What can I say though..
I have no regrets...
Walking away...
From a ****** up friendship..
You did me so *****...
Like we were in high school..
And if you hadn't noticed...
I graduated years ago..


The life you choose to live with you and your kids...
Just isn't okay with me anymore..
You hang out with 21 year olds...
Girl, your 30...
Your Regina George's mom..
Quit playin...
This **** isn't funny...


I hope you invest all your..
"Extra time" into your kids..
They need you...
I'll miss them..
Ill miss you..
I use to love you like a sis...
But I grew up...
I've outgrown your *******..
I've hung up my gown and tassel...
Its time for you to do the same..

I couldn't help but look at you
In hope that you'd look back
I never thought we'd even cross our paths
but when we did I didn't expect
to end up with a knife in my back

Once upon a time, a woman was picking up firewood. She came upon a poisonous snake frozen in the snow. She took the snake home and nursed it back to health. One day the snake bit her on the cheek. As she lay dying, she asked the snake, "Why have you done this to me?" And the snake answered, "Look, *****, you knew I was a snake."

The knife,
through my back,
right into my heart,
twisted the whole way around.
Was she worth it,
the girl you gave me up for?

i was far too kind,
i was far too blind,
insignificant in your eyes,
and it didn't register at all
in my mind.

you're so pretentious and cold,
you think that you're so deep.
you say that i sold you out,
& that i'm just a brainwashed
sheep.

you're only compassionate
when it's convenient for you,
if anyone knows that, it's me.
just a selfish *****, a low life ****,
with a **** personality,
no integrity, or originality.


you will never be kurt cobain,
or layne staley..., sorry to crush your dreams....
but you're just another clone,
in a flannel jacket,  and ripped jeans...

you rant on and on
about what's right and wrong,
please give me a break,
and no, you're not edgar allen poe...
you're just a ******, with an over inflated ego...
you're so low, and fake.

Maybe the majority of your malice march is fueled with fire;
fictionalized by myself. Simply because my greatest desire is
currently to avoid knowing that you long to hurt me. Dear, let
me tell you this; **I know everything.

Her tongue slid into your mouth,
you said you were thinking of me.
You grabbed her hips in obedience,
you said you were thinking of me.
She touched your hair, something that you love,
you said you were thinking of me.
She saw your birthmark, something that I love,
you said you were thinking of me.

"It was repulsive,"
you said you were thinking of me.
"I was hoping you'd show."

"Please stop crying."
"She isn't worth your tears."

But, my love, you are worth every tear I shed.