I was like every other scientist
for love to me was just
a neural reaction to a certain
stimulus presented to an individual,
just a hormonal response of a person
to a certain situation laid out to them
Like a configuration of ****** muscle
tissue of one results to an increase
of serotonin, dopamine, and for some,
oxytocin of another
At times, one would affiliate this
****** muscle configuration
to that of pentahydroxyhexanal (sugar)
and that was discombobulating

I could not understand how
a smile becomes sweet

and yet at that moment
when I saw you smile
I immediately understood
that science
science cannot explain this

This feeling I have when I see you

I got some things I want to confess
From an awkward nerd to a beautiful countess
You're more confusing than the Higg's Boson
I understand more the positrons and electrons
You're more complex than a polysaccharide
"Understanding You" is no book my archive
Why can't our relationship be a mutualism
Rather than the one sided commensalism
Could we be close like the tibia and fibula?
So close like the aorta and vena cavas?
To be close, I could only hope
Like uranium 237 and uranium 238, inseparable isotopes
Whenever I see you, I get the "kilig" affixes
Like the sour taste of citru sinensis
I can't get enough of your wonderful smile
It's like the taste of pentahydroxyhexanal
You might think I'm in delirium
But my thoughts are in equilibrium
You're the only girl inside my cranium
And this love for you is more precious than *titanium

I'm sorry if things would come out so wrong
It's just that I've loved you for oh so very long
I don't know how I should interact
Or how I should come to react
I'd stutter like I'm a big dork
I make worse conversations than that of a fork
But it's because I'm just charmed by your smile
I guess it's my way to stay with you for a while
I keep my distance, not because I want a good bye
But it's just that.. Well.. I'm way to shy
I get all shaky when our shoulders would touch
It's probably because I've longed for that so much
You must know what you do to me when our hands would simply touch
If happiness were a grading system, I'd be at the top notch
So please don't be weirded out by how I am
I'm trying to be normal with the best that I can
I'm awkward, shy but oh so very kind
and *you're the only girl who's in my mind

Everything was going according to plan
Highschool. Pre-Med. Med. Specialization.
Never in my wildest dreams did I think
That you would add up to this equation
Never did I think that things would end up
Like how it is at this moment.
You never were meant for this equation
And yet, you fit in so perfectly
I was expecting nothing, and yet.. You
Never did I think that you, once a variable, would become a constant. That you would succeed euler's number or the symbol for radians, pi, as important constants in my life, you're as important but as confusing as i.

I mean, at times you're really confusing me
like rationalizing the negative square root of 3, but it's simply, really how I thought it would be to make sense of irrationality. Things like this would make sense mathematically, but not in reality. In reality, you're more simple, yet oh-so filled with insanity. But it still boggles my mind, on how a lovely variable like you becomes a constant in my life.

Shortly after his departure from the King's palace, the Little Prince arrived at another world.
There were two halves. One; a field of sunflowers and the second; a city full of high rise buildings.

He played around the field. Walking, Jumping, and Smelling the flowers. As he jumped around, he suddenly bumped into a gargantuan object towering over the field.
Thump!. "Ouch!", he said, as he had one hand on, and leaned against it. "Amazing! Why didn't I see it as I went around?". The little prince was astonished at the object, as his head looked up to see the what the object was.
"Hello!? Anyone up there?" He then hears a soft hum and light plucking, and with ecstatic might, he looks around the object for the source of the sounds.
"Hello? Anyone here?" A loud rumbling came, as if an earthquake started. The object started to move. The little prince looked up and saw that it was a man, a giant! The giant had a serious look, and with him, had a basket full of sunflowers..
"What are the Sunflowers for?"
The giant looked straight into the city and seemed to not hear the the little prince's question.
"What are the Sunflowers for!?"
The little prince shouted, because he was unanswered.
The giant then looks at the little prince, smiled and silently gestured him to follow.
Annoyed and curious, the Little Prince follows.

The giant brought the Little Prince to the city, where it's bustling streets were crowded; and despite the noise of footsteps, car horns, and people on their phones, there is this eerie feeling of silence. The giant then stands eagerly on the sidewalk with his basket of sunflowers. He holds a sunflower from the basket and silently tries to hand one to the passing pedestrians. He tries and tries, but not one flower was given. "Why is everyone looking down?", The Little Prince asked, "Is everyone like that?" The giant looks at at The Little Prince, puts his finger over his lips. "shhh" the giant whispered, as he goes back to handing out flowers. The Little Prince slowly gets annoyed and furious at all his unanswered questions. "Why don't you say anything!?" The Little Prince asked.
The giant then looks at the Little Prince, smiled, and leaned over to whisper.
"I might disturb them", the giant said.

The Little Prince was dumbfounded and confused at his response. "Adults are strange beings." he said, as he goes back to his ship and left for another planet.

There's that sunset
Where you'd
Look
upon
The horizon
and watch the sky
pull a symphony of colors
Where the atmosphere and clouds
simply refract light;
creating an array of complex hues
the sky became emphatic
to show off it's beauty
That was today

There's that sunset
Where you'd
Look
Upon
The horizon
And see the clouds move
slowly and yet hastily
And despite the Coriolis,
the clouds form shapes
And represent
such figures to you
whether human, animal, or object
It reminds you of
memories, places, people
That was today

There's that sunset
Where you'd
Look
Upon
The horizon
And just look at the grandeur of it
Where you cannot tell where
The sky ends and the earth begins
no trace of the sun nor the moon
Like the earth felt God's redamancy
and God felt the Earth's
and our worlds finally became one
That was today

There's that sunset
Where you'd
Look
Upon
The horizon
And the moment you lay your eyes Upon it
all the questions, all the queries
finally become answered to
like quantum theory and "beauty"
ultimately became understood
like you now have an answer
to your most enigmatic problem
That was today

I looked upon that sunset
I have an answer
I finally have an answer
I now have an answer
That was today

They walked under the stars, and constellations
And under galaxies, they danced
without a care
without restraint
As if they were the center of the universe

On the soil, they made memories
and the wind be their witness
of the feelings they shared
of the feelings they cherished

As each little finite moment occurs
each of their infinities come to light
despite the one second turned to minutes
then hours
relativity kept their time from moving

Their hearts come closer and closer
until the two entities become one
and at that very moment
they made the universe one

He* sees her today, anxious but with excitement
With a heart so ready, he waits for the right moment
He comes to her with a happy greeting
For it has been long since their last meeting
She seems him, and greets with a "Hi"
He was so happy, he literally could fly
He was so happy, but could not express
For his love was never confessed
A friend, she calls him. A close one at that
A best friend, a brother he was to her
He has been there for her, every moment before that
But with no knowledge of the love he offers
For years, he was trying for the right moment
But could not, because *another guy loves her
In fairness, the other guy was better, intelligent and street smart
Though, it bothers him why she doesn't like the guy as much
Why does she treat the guy as such?
As he loves her so
He can't, because the other guy loves her
He knew the other guy loves her
So, he let him go first, and he confessed
So now they're together, leaving him in the ice
Just because he was too nice.

Some worry that someday
The one we love will
stop holding our hand
or stop talking to us
stop being lovers or
at the least, friends
maybe a slap on the cheek
a fight here and there
or stuff thrown everywhere
but my most worrying thought
is that I'm afraid that one day
maybe today..
she'll forget my name
forget my existence

I cower at the thought
that one day
maybe today..
she'll never
remember I exist

For 10 months, I've been holding up
a pitcher of affections and feelings that
you never knew it had your name on it.
It kept filling and filling, and no matter
how much I fill it, I couldn't give you taste
because it might disappoint you.

At some point, I gave you a sample
and you seemed to enjoy the sweetness
but I was wondering if it was too sweet
so I couldn't give you everything

There was a time it turned out bitter
maybe, because you sought other pitchers
but it still had a sweet after taste

I try to make it a sweet - sour taste
so that it gives you "kilig" affixes
Still, I couldn't reach for that taste
so I still couldn't give you that pitcher

But as unprepared as I could be
you demanded my pitcher
and I poured everything in your cup..

I wasn't sure if I didn't have enough
to fill your cup, or that your cup wasn't ready
to take in all that it contains....
Maybe, your cup was too small or
There was too much in my pitcher

Every moment away from her, I have this frustration
Whenever she's away, I lose concentration
Whether she's off with her friends, or with another guy
I'm always scared when time would fly
Whenevery I see her, I would feel happy
But why would I suddenly be feeling ******?
Well, we were once always by each other's side
Whenever we had fun, we would take each other's ride
Why do I have such frustration?
Didn't we have some kind of connection?
I thought that we would be forever
But, oh... That's right. **We were never together

We are all stars with people's names
Stars that bring life to a single earth
We fail to realize that we have a light
That could both heal and burn
But in one arbitrary moment
In a single random happenstance
We see that in being a light
Is what makes earth have *life

I used to believe that we couldn't get any closer
than a doctor - patient relationship
Cause everytime you'd come to me
you'd always ask for a diagnosis

I'd ask for your symptoms, check your pulse
your temperature, even your recent meals
then you'd tell me about your recent pains
your heartaches, cramps, and muscle strains

Little did you know than I wanted more
than stories about sicknesses that deters you
Like your favorite color, favorite fruit
favorite band... stories you never told me

I hoped to be more than just your doctor
a person that just cares for your well being
I care more than the sicknesses that bother you

I wish you could trust me more

In my restlessness
I
spiral
down into a deep
slumber
with your name;
the last memory
cast from the waking dream.
It was your name I'd always say
in a silent and solemn prayer
that'd I'd pray day and night
and night and day
til' I've run out of words to say
And even
as I find myself
in this
peculiar,
unfamiliar place,
it
is
Your
name
that I remember.

I spiraled down
deeper and deeper
Into the void
where no other voice
could reach me
and the only thing
to keep me sane
was your name
that I remember
It reminded me of
thunderstorms and
your silhouette dancing in the rain,
of words that love my beloved as they took away her pain.
of your smiles that glowed in rain or sunshine
and of the warm embraces and soft cries that were once mine.
And
in
the
deep dream
I
find
you
waiting
for me
with a warm embrace
and a smile on your face
so tender
its warmth filled
the entire room.
And with your arms
clasped onto me,
in that dream
I finally felt
your redamancy
the "you" I've always aspired
And my eyes open
to the break of dawn creeping slowly upon the windowsill.
with only your name embedded as always

I've always wondered for whom do you smile for
The very smile that I can't simply resist
The one smile that brightens me to my very core
One of the million reasons why I still persist
I feel blessed to see that smile of yours
The one that brightens my day like non-before
The one that keeps me far from insane
The one that keeps me far from a cane
I've wondered why you're always so close
and yet you're always been so far
It's like you're so near, just as near to my nose
and yet so distant just like a small star

If you think about it,
Everyone you love
Is just a person brought
To you by the wind
A certain person brought
To you by circumstance
a single "random" happenstance
The world has so much to offer
That every person around
the earth could be greater
Than the one you love today
You love the person just because
he or she was just there
at that moment
at that happenstance
but wouldn't that mean that
By some strange occurrence,
By some strange force,
We were brought together
Like out of all the stars in the universe
It was the sun that gave life to earth
It might be random
Or maybe it's not
Sometimes, it's serendipity
sometimes, it's propinquity

I couldn't count
the number of times
it rained
it shined
today.
but all of that
did not matter
because we were
all there together
we held to ourselves
the moments we
were together under
that same roof
under that same sun
that shined above us

seeing all of them
with a smile on their faces
made me realize that
we each give each other
a reason to dance

I went out for a jog on a Wednesday night
I thought of taking my mind of some things
and... that's what I did
I jogged like Forrest Gump's lazier half brother
because, I simply can't run because of asthma

After a few rounds around the university,
I decided to go home with a quick trip to the convenience store for dinner
I had the usual.. a rice meal, and two cans of milk

I walked home, taking home a can cause
I cannot stand the stench of the store's second floor anymore
That's when I saw a particular beggar on the street

It was a old woman, probably on her 70s
She had lesions on her legs, so she couldn't walk...
She looked up to the sky like somehow, maybe today she'd breathe her last
I mustered whatever kindness I had in me, and with whatever I had left..
I gave her Php. 8.00 and can of milk

She had this lit up look with her eyes and with utmost fervor, she said "Salamat po" ("Thank you")

Days. Weeks. Months passed by since I've seen that lady again... and at some point that moment seemed like history to me...

Today, I've went out for a jog to take my mind off things.
and what luck did I have.. I did not have enough for my usual..

I decided to go home and with a heavy heart.. Tired and full of stressed out muscles..
On the street, a young girl with a plastic bag approached me.
She was apprehensive; shy even. She gave me the plastic bag and ran off...

And with what surprise I had when I opened the bag... You know what it had?

A rice meal and two cans of milk

She once told me
"Your hugs are nice,
I like your hugs"
She probably doesn't
Know why...
--- --- --- --- --- ---
She's a strange one
cause she holds me.
She acts around on her
own, a klutzy one she is.
She sometimes
acts on impulse, and
can be hard headed at
times. You may say that
I've fallen strangely, but
you probably don't
know her story.

Sometimes, her smile never
seemed real to me. All I ever
saw was a mask. She smiles
with her lips, but her eyes have
seen pain. And maybe, if I have
never been this way, maybe I've
never fallen.

Her smile, I wish
I could see it genuinely.
At that one moment where she
Is truly and completely happy.
I wish I could be there to see it
I wish I could be there to be it

I honestly don't know what I could
do for her, so I make the best of what
I got... So I make my hugs the best
she'll ever get, cause that's what I could offer.

Perish the thought of guilt
for I love you and
I expect nothing

My dear, I love you not
for what you have done
not for what you will be
but for who you are

Perish the thought of guilt*
for I do not regret a single day
that I am in love with you

How in love with you am I?
Really, I sometimes question why.
Well, I'm not sure on how much I do
But I sorta have some kind of clue
For starters, I can't stop thinking about you
A thought of you is never overdue
When I hear music, I remember you
Cause I sometimes think it's your kind of tune
When I see flowers on the streetside
I have this urge to have you by my side
When our hands would simply touch
It made me want to hold your hand so much
Every word you say I can still remember
Like me and the lyrics of the song "September"
Oh how much I want to give you a hug
But I'm afraid that you might give me a smug
You're one of the only people I can trust
It's like having you around is a big must
So.. I'm not so sure these feelings kept in a cluster
Are more that what a normal man can muster
So If you ask me how in love am I with you
I might probably say.. "I don't know. I just do"

Every moment was like a dream, a memory.
Memories of odes, ballads with allegory
Every random smile, Every warm touch
Every single tear that was felt too much
Moments that we were happy, sad, and crazy
Were more than just consuetudinary.
To others, these days, these moments may seem ordinary
But to me, I held them sentimentally
These memories, I held tightly
Made me feel more uneasy
It'd remind me that we are to separate
And it'd bring me to a more depressing state
But these memories where I see you smiling
Make me want to stop crying
With each memory that flashes in my head
Make me smile more and more instead
So I hope you'd be happy wherever you are
It's not like you'd be gone and be so far
I'lll be there whenever you need me
Let's see each other sometime, maybe for tea?

People don't really notice the little things with me
Well, despite being a big guy
Not a lot of people ever did

I'm your average nerdy guy
who happens to like classical music
and appreciates medicine and quantum theory
has weak lungs and sensitive ears
and possibly, an attention span of an apple

People notice the regular things
Me drawing, studying, science-ing out
(as you termed it)
But the one thing you changed in me
The one thing that not a lot of people see
the one thing that you and only you taught me
was how to smile

I'm 5'11
She's 5'1

I lean over to her speak
She tiptoes to speak

I lean over to talk
She tiptoes to listen

I lean over to vending machine
She tiptoes to it

I lean over to hear her speak
She tiptoes to speak

I lean over to tell her
She tiptoed to listen

I lean over to hear her say something
She tiptoed...

She embraced me

She says she saw raindrops
She saw them fall today
haha, she always has
a new story to tell.. and today
today was about raindrops

You'd see her eyes light up when
she tells a new story.
It's makes you wish you were a part of it
cause at times, her stories are not enough
words can only go so far
Though, sometimes you'd think if
the stories were for you to listen
It's like you were eavesdropping..
And yet her words were directed to you
Her words, though sweet, sound so distant

She told me that day that she saw raindrops..
and she told me that she made some.
and all I could do was listen

Look into the garden
and you'll find something waiting
right there where you left it
lying on the grass bed
holding a single rose in full bloom
When you finally find it
you might see that it's fading
carnations and irises growing
in every single mark of it
know that's been there caring
in every marigold you've been planting
When you finally realize
there's nothing but daffodils and zinnias
I hope to see other things growing
as everything changes all around it
everything is still there
right where you left it.

I walked through airport halls
walked through the smokey streets
Talked to unfamiliar people
with an unfamiliar language
and never have seen such wonder
all around. You should have
seen how the world is.
At this edge of the world, where city
lights shine brighter than the stars and
buildings rise higher than mountains,
you'd wonder at the foundations of
humanity. For their world revolved on
clocks and trains and life without slumber.

You'd wonder at them for their unfamiliar
language, and they laugh with you for
the mutual misunderstanding. They bring
excitement and mystery, for you
both are tested for your communicational prowess. If you are lucky enough to not look like one of them, they may try to speak a common language.

So when you travel to the land of HK, don't forget to have fun.. and let them
surprise you.

There's fine line between the
"Oh, he's so nice.. and sweet, and caring"
and the
"Oh, he's just a really nice guy"
...
Nice Guys
I was referring to the latter one
The ones that are generally nice
They'd help anyone, anything
Not necessarily smart, but usually comes with it
They're the "friend that you trust a lot" kind of people
They're usually remembered by the "nice" things that they do
Sadly, they're really underrated when they're not attractive to people
It's the sad truth

When they're in love with you..
They try their best to make you happy
Whether it's a simple gift, or gesture
Know that they have your happiness in mind with the best intentions
They're not nice for nothing
They'll be there when you cry or.. have asthma attacks
They'll try their best to make you smile
and make you feel better about yourself
and they do their best to make you believe that you are beautiful,
even if you don't believe them
They'll try to convince you
on how much they love you,
not just with words but with actions as well
You know, they might not even tell you they love you just yet
Cause they're too preoccupied thinking about you and how you are
(the state of your well being)
They'd think about you more than you'd think about yourself

When you'd ask for space, they'll give you space
just because you asked them to
Know that when you do have that space
They'll still think about you and your wellbeing
They understand
and if they don't, they want to understand you, and they'll try their best to.

When you find one, please do your best
your very-to-the-utmost-extent best
to keep him nice
even if you don't like him
cause itches are the reason why
nice guys turn to the dark side

Cause I've heard that nice guys are in
demand.. and yet so hard to produce