You saw me first.

I was flattered to know,
I had an admirer.

I was told, "you thought I was warm like sunshine"
I knew then I wanted you as mine.

My walk changed,
my smile opened,
and I wore a little more perfume.

Then on day 1, I lite up
after seeing you in the classroom.

I became cold
stress aged me quickly
I didn't want to be old.

I became cold
promises turned to lies
truths were no longer told.

I became cold
which you mistook as shyness
my anger was too bold.

I became cold
because carrying the weight of the world
proved to be too heavy of a load!

a one night stand laced with pain and passion
I was bore
drugs have stunted my growth once before.

when I feel down.
I desire a high.
Dreams say hello.
Reality says goodbye.

My addiction grew and grew
Until I reached you.
A figment of my imagination
A relief I never really knew.

drugs have stunted my growth once before
but I want to live now
and **** myself no more.