Birthday approaching
I'm missing a piece
It doesn't feel right
It doesn't feel the same

Because I've been away
When I come back
Will I be expecting
That's the worst delusion ever

Birthday approaching
Where are you
You were here last year
And the years before

Birthday approaching
I've never felt this way before
I'm so scared
I'm so unsure

What am i gonna leave in this world?
People tell me that is it
My patience, my frustration
The polars of my moods
What I am, What I really am
What am i gonna leave in this world?

I still remember
Standing by the window of the hospital
Entering and leaving
Entering and leaving

I'm back again
I check on you
I look out the window
I look at you

I asked if you were okay
You were not quite okay
I watched you in peace
And then I was awake

I stuck too much
I'm losing touch
You guys are the reason
I know that I've been given

Grace, in the heart
Which was so difficult to start
With, out a doubt
You guys deserve a shout. out.

I sat at a bar to eat some chicken and waffles
I drank my coffee
As much as I wanted to
I added to my story
Of how elated I was of my solitude

Don't steal my money
A lady stands close to me
She opens up an umbrella
And the tears now only came from the sky

You are gr8
But nope...

People got it all settled down
When I'm just sittin' around the linen of frustration
How did I end up with an old frown
It's something new to ground
I'm lost in the absence...

Of every person ever made to let me date

It's 8pm, perfect weather
There's a field of grass just right outside
Let's grab some coffee
Let's hold on tight

I don't mean that way
I have a path of my own
There's someone more important
It's not the time to get in that zone

Older, they pressure
I'd rather the peers to tell me
Admiration over each individual
Let's grab that coffee again, with someone else

Those who are crushed in spirit
Will have someone there
Perhaps it's God for those believe
My faith stands firm

Push out all those demons
Take those thoughts out of my system
The chemicals should not take over me
Not a drop of poison in this bottled up mess

Visions and missions are getting unclear
But their seems to be purpose if it's you and me

However is it delusional?
A fantasy? Another mere dream?
Patience is key
To the lock of your heart, maybe?

One's disposition needs to be certain
Or else committing won't be a breeze
Help me be
Worry-free

Visions and missions will slowly be

With darkness, there is struggle
Come lightness, I'm okay
For a brief moment

Or rather I'm deluded
But I can't be possibly dreaming, can I?

Time will tell
Feelings will fade
But will this stay if the dream is caused by the gone forever?

And then he comes along
My independence is shading
I don't want to need you
But could this be?

They say don't hide it
They say don't pretend
Okay, I have it
But why only to selected friends?

The pain won't go
And you won't show
Sometimes, I don't know
Anymore, anymore

Go away
Do I really want this?
Do I really like him?
Do I really like her?

Getting it out there
Getting myself around
Losing track of places and time
Sometimes I wish I wasn't around

And then that happened
Which turned things around
I am me and I shall find peace
For this threshold isn't what matters now