"wernt" poems
I'm drifting like a cloud, I'm flowing like water
But I'm afraid to remain on the above the surface.
why linger like a lost leaf when such marvelous insights lie beneath.
Why skim the froth but not drink the alchemy, are you truly drunk on vanity ?.
Sanity, sanity,
I am not broken without you.
Insanity, insanity,
I am not deluded with you.
I only believe because frankly this world is not enough for me, and I only aim to be better in-tune with the infinite because my soul yearns for what it cannot yet reach & what this world has to teach.
afterall wernt we wonderfully created to simply wonder?
Apr 23, 2015
Apr 23, 2015 at 10:28 AM UTC
He said normal things wernt working
What makes those other colors perfect
Work with me/dont try and force it
I am a brakeless vehicle slowing/
coasting
Open up the windows let the ocean in
Rain falls from such great heights
You fell from the bed , into the light
Do they even consider you still alive
The morhpine , is it working ?
Nov 21, 2014
Nov 21, 2014 at 1:35 PM UTC
Er wernt terr ger ter didny wooooorrrrllll
Didny worrll haz derm errr perdy perncessers
En merk maowss
Ern der perrrdy rydes leedle leedle
Erm gernna ert ERRRRRRRRLL der mershed perderderrs
En der ernyon rins
Didny worrllll gud plass to eaat der ferd
Fin
Mar 11, 2015
Mar 11, 2015 at 5:33 PM UTC
My sister has curly hair
From day one
She has cut and burned it at every chance
Her hair is dark and thick
Like our fathers
I wish I had his hair instead
I wish the follicles on my head
Wernt thin and brittle
And quick to fall
Would that make me a man?
My sister has a flat chest,
My ******* have been called the best
My family and friends alike
She calls her own chest, childlike
If we traded, and my breath was unstressed
If they fell from my body
Would that make me a man?
What an unjust God
Who would give us bodies
That did not fit our souls
What cruel diety
Would leave us feeling
So cramped
Jun 15, 2023
Jun 15, 2023 at 11:38 PM UTC
when i was a kid, me an this black boy
(an remember, slavery was still legal then)
we had just escaped some orphanage where they was plannin to lobotomize us for bein so dang ordinary
an the spirit of alan ginzberg come backwards! thru time an guv us a magic sunflower and he said "i hope this does sutra you"
so we said
"a couse it do" not knowin what he meant but then it burst into a poem and we wernt THAT stupid and we figured out what he meant
and so we became one humanity but then the oinkers they too united and so here is amerikka jes like always except it is you too who are here so what do you got to say an what ya gonna do about it now?
Jul 14, 2010
Jul 14, 2010 at 4:13 PM UTC
I just want to be with you daddy
I wish they would understand
I wish they could see who I really am, and not as the person they think I am
Please just come and take me with you!!
Please! ..... Dad please
Mom won't even listen to me anymore!!
She doesn't even care to hear.
I'm not the person everyone is setting me out to be
I'm not my past mistakes...
Your the only one who understands ME!
AND SHE TOOK YOU AWAY!
She robbed me of the time that we could have had.
It's amazing how you can be surrounded an still feel alone....
I remember the first night how it felt when all of a sudden you werent iny life....... I remember HATING God for "letting her push you away" I remember when all of a sudden you wernt there to sing me lulabys, when the books you used to spend hours reading to me had been torn and ripped up from throwing them against the wall.
I remember waking up screaming your name..
Yet no I only wish for you here with me
Just to be where you are
Your the only one who actually listens to me in my family.
Without cheaking your phone while I speak.
I just wish you were here
I'm so lonely
Feb 25, 2013
Feb 25, 2013 at 10:29 PM UTC
hey,
yeah hey you,
your heart may be hurting,
but no need to feel blue,
don't believe he left you,
because he was never truly with you,
he had her,
you wernt his true focus,
only a side fling,
what does that mean to you,
he may have said things
you'll never forget,
but he was lying,
only trying to make you,
believe in nothing,
you may have loved him,
but baby,
it takes two to tango,
and your dance partner quit on you.
Apr 28, 2012
Apr 28, 2012 at 11:00 PM UTC
Thing's have been difficult,
at one point my life was at a hult.
but i raised myself to understand,
that determination is very grand.
One Shot of that and my mind went crazy,
but after that thing's wernt so hazy.
I learned the world was a bitter place,
standing around wasn't the case.
I aim for success,
hope im blessed.
I wish you good luck too,
to carry lifes finests with you
Sep 9, 2015
Sep 9, 2015 at 3:35 PM UTC
Welcome to the O2 voicemail service.
The words so repetitive
So familiar
In my head.
Countless calls
Countless messages.
Countless times,
Sitting here reminiscing
Reminiscing the times we had
The FaceTime calls,
The times we spent together,
True love conquers all.
That's what you said.
Now that Iv said goodbye
The world feels like
It's crashing and burning.
The earth swallowing me whole.
Yes it hurt to say goodbye
More than you will ever know.
The few tears you saw
They wernt just for show.
My whole world collapsed
I didn't plan for this to happen.
I thought about it a lot,
Yet it still killed me.
You can't delay the inevitable
That's what people say.
But the pain is still there
I don't think I'll be ok.
Maybe it would have been better
For us to drift apart.
But baby I wouldn't have told u,
All the things that broke my heart.
Oct 3, 2016
Oct 3, 2016 at 5:25 PM UTC
i couldnt see the way, the tunel as dark as night
and the lamp posts within were brocken to the core.
the life i could have led dissapeared from my reach
the walls of my consience closing
and the presure maddening
the darkness were like walls closing around me,
my world is turned to dust before my eyes
because you wernt there beside me ,
to show me that i could to any thing.
you were my confidence
my one and only friend but now your gone
and its to much to bear
i read my books over and over,
i took you for granted
i thought id lost you
but then i found you
and then i lost you all over again
if i could see you smile just one more time all the pain in the world could not stop me from finding you once more
Aug 19, 2012
Aug 19, 2012 at 11:19 PM UTC
iam sorry if i made u insane
and diven u away
but u'r my one and only
the way u said u'r name
and i thought this was all a game
then u started to leave
and the air was so hard to breathe
cause u'r my one and only
u didn't come back
and u wernt on my map
plzz come to me
i'll leave u be
becaus e u'r my one and only
Apr 12, 2013
Apr 12, 2013 at 7:08 PM UTC
i love you dad,
and i love her to
but i wish it was just you and me again
when we could just talk for hours... about our dreams of going on mission trips together all over the world...
of making a CD together...
i wish you wernt so busy..
i wish you were with me all the time...
you understand me like no one else does..
i miss the days when it was just you and me.
when we would sit side by side playing piano and watch the angels dance before us to our glorious melody...
when we would go on bike rides through town and dance on the side of the streets like no one was watching.....
believe me i am thankful for the times we have now with your new wife..
but its not the same!
when she left and it was just you and me we talked about our dreams for hours like we used to!
and we sang together.....like we used to... it was so great
but then she came back
and she was yours again...not mine
and the talks of dreams quickly faded
and our melodys quickly died..
i miss how it used to be daddy
when your all by your self and you ponder your thoughts i wonder if you do sometimes?
because i know i do....
but soon enough its time for me to leave
as i walk out the door i look over my shoulder
and i see you and her laughing.......
....just like we used to
...for hours
but i keep walking because i know your happy
and you deserve to be
i know lifes really coming together for you with the ministry....
and the CD and your wife
just dont forget to dream with me.... dont forget to sing with me to the angels....
like how it used to be
Feb 10, 2013
Feb 10, 2013 at 11:59 PM UTC
i promised you a world of your own
i promised that you'd never be alone
im sorry but these promises i make
have come and gone all to late
i promised that you had a home
i promised you a hand to help you up
im sorry but these promises i make
will not come true, but they wernt all fake
i made promises i couldnt keep
i made hopes rise and then fall heavier than before
i saw what you needed
i saw your pain
i wanted to help but couldnt
i made promises that i couldnt keep
and im sorry
im sorry.......
i love you
Aug 19, 2012
Aug 19, 2012 at 11:09 PM UTC
How many times
Can I drown myself in you
Every time I see you know
You are happy
I think back on all those moments we shared
Wernt you happy then too?
How many times
Can I drown myself in you
God you were beautiful
And you were mine
We could spend hours doing nothing
No words
Just the feeling of our heart beats
How many times
Can I drown myself in you
I just want to get over you
So god **** badly
But **** did you leave a hole in my heart
That aches past midnight
On days like today
The day's the pills were a bit to late
Apr 22, 2016
Apr 22, 2016 at 12:22 AM UTC
my life has been great my best friend who is my savior.
you have protected me when the world has be came a danerous place
we travel with only our note as well with a change of clothes
you left me for a whole week with no no note
i have tried calling you but u your voice mail said you have
i had to come out in the dangerious world
you finally got here back. you never said any thing you just gave me a blank steare.
i start tearing up cause i feel why ou are quiet
tell me you didnt sell your soul to the devil
hours go by when i start to cry i hope you we ok
he said to me he is dying
he said it was cancer that have arrested him in life
he told me he will stay with me till that day comes fi final day
i said why did you you not tell me you wernt okay
he said he didnt want to scare me
he told me he will show me how to survive in this internal hell.
my tear drops drown my words.
pls dont go i dont have the skills to trust my deal
i just cant telll you my broken broken self
you told me that some day we will meet again some day
your my only famiy i have been abandon
you wonnt be alone
i cant stop crying for every memories you and me made to the chapter book closing the end.
i know i have to be strong srong for you but im scared to be wondering the world alone .
i know that i am scared cause i have been abandoned.
i let my demons run wild the the dark street during the night like starting a wil fire
you have been my sworn protector
but you cant escape your life
you seem like your in pain
you told every thing will be okay even when my vary last day ill all wayd be with you.
i have lost the family that i had now your leaving me to a battel you cant survive
i dont know how to talk in society. you have tought me well.
i dont know where to go when you leave
i love you just hold on tight long enoth to learn to survive th worst of societys games
Nov 20, 2015
Nov 20, 2015 at 11:11 PM UTC
...you know I lay there thinking of your ****
And you know on ****** my throat you slash
If I don't die you know I'm gonna dash
Step out the door bludgeon an **** to death
Strangle a bitch,leave her short of breath
Rub my face in Luke warm breast
If she says "Thankyou" she can be my guest
I'll **** every ******* fitty I see
Gotta let that deep wound ******* be
Asking as I got a ******* hottie on me
This is how I define being free
Drown me with you ******* ***
I wanna add more of you for hours for a final sum
Until my **** is numb
And when we're done polish off the ******* ***
Bang the bottle up you ***
I knew you wernt ready bitch,you chatting pure gas
An alright looking lass
But between you and the rest,time'll pass
Mar 10, 2016
Mar 10, 2016 at 4:10 PM UTC
It's difficult to sleep when I have the same nightmare everynight.
It's difficult to be awake when that nightmare is my reality.
Everynight I remember my past. Everytime I was beaten and left in the corner to pick myself up. Everytime I was hurting and I had to brush my self off. I was defensless. Every time I was touched by the man that were supposed to be role models.
My heart aches knowing that I was always alone. When I watched my parents argue, or my brother beaten. My mother beaten. I was cornered and crying. And I was left to clean the blood, to call the cops. No one asked me if I was okay. No one offered a hug.
I still remember that stuff. I still remember being tackled and hit. With blood running down my face. I didn't feel the pain of the punch. My heat was crying to much. I trusted them. I depended on them. I still do. They wernt there when my brother was ripped out of my life. All the nights that I've cried myself to sleep, are meaningless to them.
I reached out. I cried for help. But they were to sad to see my tears. Worked to much to see me bleed. I was alone. And I tried to help them. But I just got yelled at. Just got hurt. Kicked when I was down.
They said sorry. They would change. But I stopped trusting them. I stopped trusting people. Because what they di didn't know was I was beaten at school too. Tortured by my peers. The teachers didn't care. They said to **** it up. I had to anyway. When I tried to tell them about school they would say they were to busy. They were always busy. When they wernt they dumped me at my grandparents.
They were no better. They spat in my face and made sure I realized I'm worthless. They drilled it into my head.
Here I am 14. Straight A's, college courses and honor role every year, and I'm still not enough. I have pushed my self and I'm hurting. When I wake up screaming, I'm not heard. When I walk out crying, I'm not seen. They promised, and they lied. I'm still abandoned. I'm still alone.
I learned to stop leaving myself vulnerable. I listen to my music, alone, I'm the dark. Where no one could see me anyway. Where no one could hear me anyway. I tell myself that i dont need them. Now that something seems "wrong" with me they worry. I have two counsalers a therapist, and a phycoligist. But I don't need them. They can't fix my problems. What's the point.
I don't know how to be happy. I never had a reason to be. I try to pretend so people don't try to help. I let so many people try and they all have up on me. I don't want to be hurt again. I stopped sharing. I hold it in. I can say I'm okay with tears falling, and they would all believe it.
Jul 18, 2017
Jul 18, 2017 at 7:53 PM UTC