"stinged" poems
I find myself hiding
under my bed sheets,
every corner of my room haunts me.
The alcohol on my breath worries my mother.
The aroma of your cologne
remains impregnated on the sweater
I wore the last time I saw you .
I hate you even though I miss you through my teeth
and even though this feeling consumes me,
I regret you all the time.
Leaving tore me apart, but realizing you’d already abandoned us stinged even more. No matter how tiring my days were, I would always seek out that street corner, where your words first wrapped me with love. But now, the sight of it from across the street is a wound that refuses to heal.
I expressed out the fear that loving you caused me, due the damage I had already lived through and even so you continued to do me the same damage
I drown seeking answers for the endless doubts that you left me.
I lose myself in a glass of wine, chasing the ghost of our first kiss.
Did you ever thought of me? Or did your narcissism get the better of you once again?
Jan 20, 2023
Jan 20, 2023 at 6:17 PM UTC
Taller than I, assembly of faces;
Said greater than I – too is my vision:
Gather round me as I lift into grace;
With me, this unto there; companions
unchanged will secure my rule in bright bloom!
Bring me to dragons, I’ll prowl neath gold heaths;
Fell sinners, tear ’part quick my slow virtue:
Bedded I, sore stinged ***** bleat to spry sheath.
King I am. All else is transient, SAVE I.
By stone and peach I am edged off my bed.
Friend that follows, that rids, nimbly closed my eyes
with careful, frenzied, bound blade I have wed.
Earthern army abord to uncharted
Dew, time, faceless therewith, I was yearning...
Rows of you, helms of safety, you guarded
To be shepherd and sheep not returning.
Be still, I reached mourning; by last breathing
I hushed; lucid thunder: youth, embrace me.
May 19, 2016
May 19, 2016 at 7:00 PM UTC
I love you and I know love is only an understatement of what I’m really feeling I wish you’d somehow understand where it falls to
I love you and this is not the end of it, there’s more to this, like there’s more to you, it’s a never-ending event of you and me
I love you like how you would always look at the city lights in your rooftop building and say this is my safe haven this is where i want to be
I love you when it’s raining and you're beside me sleeping, and your hand would hold mine
They would say it’s that simple. You feel butterflies when he’s near you, your heart would know if he’s the one you deserve,
if he’s the one
I love you if only it was just you and me and that simple but there’s me and this world and coincidence and alcohol and temporary love
I love you even when she was with you and the pain of it stinged like a ************ but sometimes you just have to swallow it like a pill without water
I love you because I wanna feel loved again and you’re the only one who can actually manipulate my feelings
I love you when im drunk because that’s when my memories pass like a train on schedule leaving trail marks of shattered glasses
i love you and i wish i’d know how i got from folding the pages of my favorite book to being held in your arms being the selfish little ***** that i am, disregarding everything and keeping you all to myself
i love you because i was never selfish before you, i’d always think about others before myself and with you i never thought of what anyone would feel if they’d know what we did
I love you when you look at me because you make me feel immortelle
I love you and I was always that girl who never knew what she wanted or where anything was going
I still am and I love you still
Sep 14, 2015
Sep 14, 2015 at 1:47 PM UTC
Fake house I've invented
To elongate my lift
To play the advisor
And pick up lines
To fullfill satisfaction
For you to hear
The tunes I've lined up
Carefully hand picked
Normalized to hear you to bits
Withstanding the insensitive mob
On the common highway
Just to hear giggles
And shiny sun rays
To the invitation
I won't commit
And I make a long turn
So just you won't hint
That the fake house is ****
And my intentions are equipped
And the light punches
You bored on my shoulders
Stinged and milked my cows
To the point where I came up
With the so called fake house.
Nov 17, 2017
Nov 17, 2017 at 11:15 AM UTC
Touch the spoils of me
Such few feel left
kids in africa have a worse life then you so quit CRYING
The verbal knives she throws into me
Seemed to have bore all the fun away
Why don't you LOVE me anymore
she asks me in such a tone sending guilt through the hair on my toes
meanwhile she denounces me at every corner
this is NOT good enough
it never was good enough not even the straight As
the hours I spent trying to make her happy again were never good enough
you are so LAZY just like your father
those words have stinged my teeth and wrapped braces of anger around
its not my fault I was born like him
Chris what is WRONG with you
I cannot figure this out mom as to why im so different
maybe i was born wrong god had chose me to live beyond understanding
stop playing the VICTIM oh poor chris his life is terrible
i grew up the victim of your disgrace and tears
the victim is the only thing I know I am
stop crying and be a MAN
only existing knowing words of my failures none of my successes
how else is a 15 year old supposed respond
you don't have any FRIENDS
mom i had reinvented myself for you
and yet you cannot even think of me
I am just a terrible MOTHER
no mom you are not terrible
its all my fault
Apr 28, 2014
Apr 28, 2014 at 8:53 PM UTC
All that is shattered,
The doomed and the dead,
Darkness in weather,
Their love has had,
Impure is indeed not right,
To describe their fate,
One is the king of destruction,
The other is his whim.
Lunatics and maniacs,
Animal like minds,
Psychologically stinged,
Humans alive,
One be the curer,
The other victimized,
Pages revolve,
When story moves by.
Hypnotized by the man,
Confused by his vibes,
The woman decided,
To change her life,
Ideals so distinct,
Attraction deeper than the eye,
Fell for her master,
Sadistic pleasures derived.
Potentate of the Arkham asylum,
Ruler of Harley's heart,
Manipulative undertones,
Lying under the mask,
"Mr. J." is what she calls him,
"Pudding" his name,
Toxicity so captivating,
The doctor turns into the patient!
Nov 2, 2018
Nov 2, 2018 at 12:37 PM UTC
Falling down
Head first,
Beneath the ground.
Dust and dirt
Bring me around
Warmth stinged my bones
Laid my body down
Tired and rusted
Once broken, a new one grows
Disposed, and another shows
Destroyed one will be cured
Meaningless one will assured
Things recurred someday'll quit
One falling down, will rose
The ones who grow
A little while ago
Cried and tired a bit.
Jul 17, 2018
Jul 17, 2018 at 8:30 PM UTC
I want to take the hat off
And then wave my goodbye.
I am a child with a suitcase,
A woman with a crane
Taking each step with little strength,
then falling over again
I am a child that ran over,
A man with no name
Helding my hands in the sky,
begging for the rain
I was the falling paper,
from the tree of neglect
Rushed with the wind,
heavied by water, loved by the pain
I became the small pebble
that talked to little grains
Ignored and dumbfounded
and stinged by bolts of gale
I went to take the hat off,
with a smile that never fade
Soon, I will take this hat off.
So long! To you my friend.
Aug 26, 2018
Aug 26, 2018 at 10:36 AM UTC
She opened her warm arms for you Smiling and welcoming you deep into
Her heart, tears of joy filled her eyes, she
Hoped for not so much but just love, she
Trusted you to respect her and never to Break her heart and you promised never In your sober senses to hurt her
And she felt for it
You looked straight into her eyes,
Knowing very well you feeding her lies,
Manipulated her mind and She only Believed you felt the same, not Knowing You brought her nothing but shame,
When you came and played her
She thought that You Were the one but You were planning to hit her behind and run leaving her behind
She treated you with kindness but you Were so heartless you stinged her with Your bitterness you came and change
The game took her innocence planing to Leave her in pain although she was with You through the rain you chewed and Threw her in drain, although she gave You all she had you still took from her more than she gave, then you left
She never complained because she had Faith in you but you took advantage
With your fake love, you won her mind And her heart, she gave you more her soul But all you did was bruise and hurt her Then you left her in pain she could have Sent you to jail or prayed you to burn in Hell but instead she chose to forgive you Because she love and she cares for you
You injected her with lies and false hope She accepted you with all your flaws but
You rejected her after getting what you wanted, not only you fooled and failed her
To fullfil your own evil shelfish feelings
You played her.
Dec 13, 2018
Dec 13, 2018 at 4:36 AM UTC