it's difficult not to feel so empty
a glass of water less than half filled
when you know
there are so many girls/women
boys/men
who are bleeding
because they're over it
they don't care anymore
they're spilling blood
on rooftops
in bathrooms
behind locked doors
but yet
they all have reasons
you can't judge any one of them
this is one of the reasons
why i don't want to become
a mother
why would i hold
a dependent baby inside me
when i'm dependent also
and the world will corrupt them anyway
like it has to me
where my mother, wouldn't know if i stained tiles
it's called bubble wrapping
overprotecting your children
so they grow up and can't handle the world
but really
maybe their parents are just too
terrified
of what happened to them,
to let it happen to their dependent child
the thought of becoming a mother
is difficult to me
i wouldn't want to ruin a new life
i'd hate to know i didn't fix it
even if i never knew, guilt at the world
corrupting a child
my child
would be too
much
too bear.
