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Mateuš Conrad Oct 2020
i return to these words that are barely
an architectural promise of a house as a mere:
rummaging squatter,
that this will eventually become
scrutinised by eyes beside my own...
well it's not like i rhyme-on-the-cheap...
i've been trying to watch some penny
dreadful episodes:
what would woman do without
the devil; i suppose man tangled with
god is nothing but an obnoxious brat...
the devil of emotions
and their plethora; this belittling god
fiddling with stones and creases
in york oak stand-alones...
                          then it came like
an itch: poached-taming-(of a)-toe...
just a tatty... a humble:
i am pretty sure i saw the letters
prefix a toad somewhere: po-ta-to(e):
ah... there! poached tame toad...
a sputniks for a brainz...
in penny dreadful: john claire
the name of victor frankenstein's monster:
oh dear old god: this continued
exasperation with poetry:
one must live a most unsatisfying life
to cross the rubricon of
old testament anemia:
            i think i admired wordsworth too... -

playing house with robert duncan -
especially now:
when the house is in complete disarray
and what was once cluttered:
is more an upheaval...

- i used to write while listening
to music - no i write for the scraps
of this yawning silence
and all of its blisters of interludes -
yes:
i want a noun to turn
into a verb: not a mere:
metaphorical "transgression"
of how it's impossible
for the wine to be blood
for the bread to be flesh:
this poetry of: cannibalism?

i pry open the adventures with
cats:
i own two... my house doesn't
give off whiffs of ****:
god... i know the horrid stench
of either **** or ****
that isn't my own:
solipsistic in that...
       it's not a field of strawberries...

it's acidic to the nose:
it's beyond anything i'd ever
want to ingest: and i have once...
giggled... ******* into a glass
of wine to: punk up
the sacrament -
then again: i also ****** on my leg
when standing in a shower
cubicle and i attest to disagree:
there's something...

unconsciously prodding:
the advent prior to... learning to stress
that bladder into a muscle
and keeping it in...
that i can counter the will
of keeping it in...
that i can unwill the sensible
lesson and: it's like... anything
aqua focused -
a shower is a baptism
jumping into a pool is a rebirth:
or an invitation to
beside oneself with: start-agains...

it's very much unlike
drinking... whether it's a coffee
or a whiskey sour...
the ingestion of liquid is less
starry-eyed gluttonous freeze...
having ate nothing but hot air
or...
the whole body needs immersion
or... the ******* on a leg
prior to: then taking a shower...
hell... even mixing one's own
**** with a glass of the goat's blood
is also... "something" / something-...

to pray for sensible things is
to mumble or there's that devil's
dozen of oysters:
12 by feeding:
the 13th in the form of a ****
by nibble lick and spoon
of the tongue and lips' acrobatics...

i'm playing house with robert duncan...
i'm not a householder -
a term as ancient as: librarian
by my account -
              but the house is in disarray:
the kitchen is being subjected
to a 24 / 7  dehumidifier drone
army... i can hear the machines
working their insomnia down
below:
i have custard feet and i feel like
sinking: not falling...
when i stand to these machines:
hellish-jelly-feet...
   when i turn on the stove
and make an omelette -

     the living room (civil room,
a joke from my youth i conjured -
a room where we learn civility)...
is also a makeshift kitchen...
i'm currently playing chess from time
to time with: the memory of:
where did i put these spices...
this spoon this plate...
       it's not chess but the game is
irreversible -
it's also time consuming and it's
not that i don't keep attention to detail:
but i'm gladly not thinking forward...
i'm strategizing in reverse -

but such is the game...
robert duncan - poet and householder -
a chance reading of a moth:
but this is what makes all of this
so enjoyable: it's a niche a cul de sac
of decisions: an expansion
of time that doesn't make it to the annals
of: better to... burn... than to fade away...
either make it in your youth:
nice and proper...
or... what's the game then:
last man standing?
the list of contemporaries
drawing thin, short?

playing house... that i had a youth
i remembered when i'd too play with dolls with
my neighbour's daughter -
clearly ken and barbie had a problem
with their missing parts -
eunuchs of the sun's blind spots...
unlike when we were allowed
to take a bath together as:
not siblings but as strange dialectical opposites
to this duality: that wouldn't encompass
my somehow yet to be owned:
me good & evil...

    me tamer - me: 19th century's frankenstein:
dr. Jekyll etc.
     a rule for life: apparently...
is to pet a cat when you see one
in the street...
it's not exactly an easy task...
i guess first a show of mutual
assurance (and respect) -
this black tubby - with a bandana
for where a leash-leftover could
have been (collar) -
he starts walking anti-clockwise...
i turn aside and start walking
clockwise to pass him...
then we shuffle our approach...
like... i would always want
to pass a pigeon strutting
senseless on the pavement
with enough space so that it doesn't
have to find it necessary to fly off...

luckily for me i managed to "pet"
a stranger's cat...
my luck that it was black
but then again it was that sort
of hour
that's always a presumption
of a lazy gotten afternoon...
rule of life: pet a cat on a street...
it's not exactly a ******* given:
an "oops"... done that... tick...
self-help guru sold this trick...
                    
a selfie contra the days...
when the camera was used and...
other people would take pictures
of you... or of you and:
when there was an "us" - together...
shorthand of the limbos of life -
magnum opus words
constipated into this: makeshift
of a hopeful paragraph...

no, this couldn't be a simple meditation:
confined to...
robert duncan's household -
and my predicament of... playing memory
chess: well it's not exactly clutter:
the kitchen cannot be used
so there's a makeshift refugee camp
version of it in the living room yadda yadda...

which is a commentary on...
my distrust for the h'american literary movement
of the 20th century teasing an abandonment
with the "old ways"...
buddhism, odd... mostly...
   fair enough:
              ezra pound abhorred the taoists...
my one lesson from tao...
the best way you can aid the world:
is for the world to forget you
and for you to forget the world...
which is probably a plagiarism
of epicurus or vice versa...

              i can't imagine the demands
of pop philosophy:
pop culture on the other hand is much
easier to stomach: it's even enjoyable -
but the pop philosophy of nihilism -
which is: a pop philosophy...
it's not even required reading -
unless: you're rereading your own?
thrown into the river -
i am becoming a being of more becoming...
change is the only perpetual: blah...
if it's not my own rummagings it's
probably someone else's:
which has probably become diluted /
filtered down and is a cubism's monstrosity...

books sell for two reasons:
(1) they are genuinely read by a zeitgeist youth...
which invokes social pressures of
the collected experience - in ref. to:
something that can be talked about...
(2) they are read by "propagandists" -
by a small majority who pressure others to...
but the pressure only lasts for
airs - for a mere ownership of a book
should one be met with a scrutiny of
not owning it - reading it is beside the point...

and here in the land of "leftovers":
the middle of the road the people:
who of their own volition write and read...
that i was never ****** into
a cult of stephen king...
i was born too late to be:
but i was: ****** into a postmortem
oeuvre deity picking almost
anything by william burroughs...
i: reader: dear reader: clicked...

- i can't objectify this house -
i am subject to it: coerced by it...
made by bias upon bias
whether there's clutter or there isn't...
whether the kitchen is functionable
or not: that some people have
a kitchen but prefer to eat out:
to be seen: eating...
             i check the gradations of
punctuations and i know: still...
i will not recite these words not
out of gestures for bombast -
or pride - but for some sinister
urge to not abuse this sacred silence:
******* taught man
to manouvre... manouvre...
manouvre... maneouvre...
        man-oeuvre...
                   drop the hyphen boyo:
manoeuvre... wow!
"too many" consonants
in ****** words... how about a
magic trick? how many *******
vowels are in: man-oovr'eh?
phonetics king of the anti-spelling:
but then...
the synonym sounds
with aliases...
towing two different meanings:
too hot to count two
          ooh ooze - zizzez...
              zyzzes...
                     i can bring this anglo-slack-son
to kneel but only for a while:
before the architectural scholarly-
  takes over and the phonetic becomes:
lost, crude... based feral...

- a robert duncan is not a...
it's not mediocre is not necessary to be:
gee-whizz of frank o'hara's
cosmopolitan...
it's flesh of the h'american tongue
it's: sensibly accurate to provide
the best outlet:
for those of us still born in that
century - of what remained of us:
or rather of what remained
of the innocence of the 1990s...

that i am not nostalgic is: no proof...
that i write hardly any word of fiction:
one spaniard, once... commented
on my shoes:
i think he played a miniature version
of a flute: it looked like a reed...
the "spanish" superstition
concerning: a comment on one's shoes...
he admired... my shoes...
what's that saying:
about shoes: to best walk in one's
own before wishing to fill the shoes
of others...
a verb as simple as: there's no
presence of "run": when coupled
to: i am running: i ran...
it's raining...
i run i ruin fun... concentrated
"rhyming": literally linear: no staccato...

******* me over "jenga"...
this microcosm of sounds -
yet to draw deep leverage from
a meaning: it comes back as a mere
sound: worse a... mimic -
an aeon of only hearing
the heaving of a crow's crackling
croak... like a breaking of a tongue:
or... the lost trill of the R in
either fwench or: english...

exemplified R: with a diacritical mark
to make emphasis of the trill...

yes... this democratic oath of poets..
well: we're not going to tend to
the republic of the wizened goats
ex athens... are we?
the democratic oath of poets -
unlike the hippocratic loaf...
            which is a spectacular failure
since i have seen what
little ambitions can do:
when... the boat is not being
rocked: yet someone is still willing
to throw someone... overboard...
now that the boat is rocking:
i see nooses instead of paddles...
the seas are still rife with calm...

playing house with robert duncan -
especially now:
when the house is in complete disarray
and what was once cluttered:
is more an upheaval...

- i used to write while listening
to music - no i write for the scraps
of this yawning silence
and all of its blisters of interludes -
yes:
i want a noun to turn
into a verb: not a mere:
metaphorical "transgression"
of how it's impossible
for the wine to be blood
for the bread to be flesh:
this poetry of: cannibalism?

i pry open the adventures with
cats:
i own two... my house doesn't
give off whiffs of ****:
god... i know the horrid stench
of either **** or ****
that isn't my own:
solipsistic in that...
       it's not a field of strawberries...

it's acidic to the nose:
it's beyond anything i'd ever
want to ingest: and i have once...
giggled... ******* into a glass
of wine to: punk up
the sacrament -
then again: i also ****** on my leg
when standing in a shower
cubicle and i attest to disagree:
there's something...

unconsciously prodding:
the advent prior to... learning to stress
that bladder into a muscle
and keeping it in...
that i can counter the will
of keeping it in...
that i can unwill the sensible
lesson and: it's like... anything
aqua focused -
a shower is a baptism
jumping into a pool is a rebirth:
or an invitation to
beside oneself with: start-agains...

it's very much unlike
drinking... whether it's a coffee
or a whiskey sour...
the ingestion of liquid is less
starry-eyed gluttonous freeze...
having ate nothing but hot air
or...
the whole body needs immersion
or... the ******* on a leg
prior to: then taking a shower...
hell... even mixing one's own
**** with a glass of the goat's blood
is also... "something" / something-...

to pray for sensible things is
to mumble or there's that devil's
dozen of oysters:
12 by feeding:
the 13th in the form of a ****
by nibble lick and spoon
of the tongue and lips' acrobatics...

i'm playing house with robert duncan...
i'm not a householder -
a term as ancient as: librarian
by my account -
              but the house is in disarray:
the kitchen is being subjected
to a 24 / 7  dehumidifier drone
army... i can hear the machines
working their insomnia down
below:
i have custard feet and i feel like
sinking: not falling...
when i stand to these machines:
hellish-jelly-feet...
   when i turn on the stove
and make an omelette -

     the living room (civil room,
a joke from my youth i conjured -
a room where we learn civility)...
is also a makeshift kitchen...
i'm currently playing chess from time
to time with: the memory of:
where did i put these spices...
this spoon this plate...
       it's not chess but the game is
irreversible -
it's also time consuming and it's
not that i don't keep attention to detail:
but i'm gladly not thinking forward...
i'm strategizing in reverse -

but such is the game...
robert duncan - poet and householder -
a chance reading of a moth:
but this is what makes all of this
so enjoyable: it's a niche a cul de sac
of decisions: an expansion
of time that doesn't make it to the annals
of: better to... burn... than to fade away...
either make it in your youth:
nice and proper...
or... what's the game then:
last man standing?
the list of contemporaries
drawing thin, short?

playing house... that i had a youth
i remembered when i'd too play with dolls with
my neighbour's daughter -
clearly ken and barbie had a problem
with their missing parts -
eunuchs of the sun's blind spots...
unlike when we were allowed
to take a bath together as:
not siblings but as strange dialectical opposites
to this duality: that wouldn't encompass
my somehow yet to be owned:
me good & evil...

    me tamer - me: 19th century's frankenstein:
dr. Jekyll etc.
     a rule for life: apparently...
is to pet a cat when you see one
in the street...
it's not exactly an easy task...
i guess first a show of mutual
assurance (and respect) -
this black tubby - with a bandana
for where a leash-leftover could
have been (collar) -
he starts walking anti-clockwise...
i turn aside and start walking
clockwise to pass him...
then we shuffle our approach...
like... i would always want
to pass a pigeon strutting
senseless on the pavement
with enough space so that it doesn't
have to find it necessary to fly off...

luckily for me i managed to "pet"
a stranger's cat...
my luck that it was black
but then again it was that sort
of hour
that's always a presumption
of a lazy gotten afternoon...
rule of life: pet a cat on a street...
it's not exactly a ******* given:
an "oops"... done that... tick...
self-help guru sold this trick...
                    
a selfie contra the days...
when the camera was used and...
other people would take pictures
of you... or of you and:
when there was an "us" - together...
shorthand of the limbos of life -
magnum opus words
constipated into this: makeshift
of a hopeful paragraph...

no, this couldn't be a simple meditation:
confined to...
robert duncan's household -
and my predicament of... playing memory
chess: well it's not exactly clutter:
the kitchen cannot be used
so there's a makeshift refugee camp
version of it in the living room yadda yadda...

which is a commentary on...
my distrust for the h'american literary movement
of the 20th century teasing an abandonment
with the "old ways"...
buddhism, odd... mostly...
   fair enough:
              ezra pound abhorred the taoists...
my one lesson from tao...
the best way you can aid the world:
is for the world to forget you
and for you to forget the world...
which is probably a plagiarism
of epicurus or vice versa...

              i can't imagine the demands
of pop philosophy:
pop culture on the other hand is much
easier to stomach: it's even enjoyable -
but the pop philosophy of nihilism -
which is: a pop philosophy...
it's not even required reading -
unless: you're rereading your own?
thrown into the river -
i am becoming a being of more becoming...
change is the only perpetual: blah...
if it's not my own rummagings it's
probably someone else's:
which has probably become diluted /
filtered down and is a cubism's monstrosity...

books sell for two reasons:
(1) they are genuinely read by a zeitgeist youth...
which invokes social pressures of
the collected experience - in ref. to:
something that can be talked about...
(2) they are read by "propagandists" -
by a small majority who pressure others to...
but the pressure only lasts for
airs - for a mere ownership of a book
should one be met with a scrutiny of
not owning it - reading it is beside the point...

and here in the land of "leftovers":
the middle of the road the people:
who of their own volition write and read...
that i was never ****** into
a cult of stephen king...
i was born too late to be:
but i was: ****** into a postmortem
oeuvre deity picking almost
anything by william burroughs...
i: reader: dear reader: clicked...

- i can't objectify this house -
i am subject to it: coerced by it...
made by bias upon bias
whether there's clutter or there isn't...
whether the kitchen is functionable
or not: that some people have
a kitchen but prefer to eat out:
to be seen: eating...
             i check the gradations of
punctuations and i know: still...
i will not recite these words not
out of gestures for bombast -
or pride - but for some sinister
urge to not abuse this sacred silence:
******* taught man
to manouvre... manouvre...
manouvre... maneouvre...
        man-oeuvre...
                   drop the hyphen boyo:
manoeuvre... wow!
"too many" consonants
in ****** words... how about a
magic trick? how many *******
vowels are in: man-oovr'eh?
phonetics king of the anti-spelling:
but then...
the synonym sounds
with aliases...
towing two different meanings:
too hot to count two
          ooh ooze - zizzez...
              zyzzes...
                     i can bring this anglo-slack-son
to kneel but only for a while:
before the architectural scholarly-
  takes over and the phonetic becomes:
lost, crude... based feral...

- a robert duncan is not a...
it's not mediocre is not necessary to be:
gee-whizz of frank o'hara's
cosmopolitan...
it's flesh of the h'american tongue
it's: sensibly accurate to provide
the best outlet:
for those of us still born in that
century - of what remained of us:
or rather of what remained
of the innocence of the 1990s...

that i am not nostalgic is: no proof...
that i write hardly any word of fiction:
one spaniard, once... commented
on my shoes:
i think he played a miniature version
of a flute: it looked like a reed...
the "spanish" superstition
concerning: a comment on one's shoes...
he admired... my shoes...
what's that saying:
about shoes: to best walk in one's
own before wishing to fill the shoes
of others...
a verb as simple as: there's no
presence of "run": when coupled
to: i am running: i ran...
it's raining...
i run i ruin fun... concentrated
"rhyming": literally linear: no staccato...

******* me over "jenga"...
this microcosm of sounds -
yet to draw deep leverage from
a meaning: it comes back as a mere
sound: worse a... mimic -
an aeon of only hearing
the heaving of a crow's crackling
croak... like a breaking of a tongue:
or... the lost trill of the R in
either fwench or: english...

exemplified R: with a diacritical mark
to make emphasis of the trill...
i will not heed to market emphasis...
(Ꝛ if you might ask:
there's no leg to stand on...
the "R" falls into a turddle -
a tumble: a trill)...

ꝛ - a missing hammer: it would seem...
a sickle my dreading of apparents...

yes... this democratic oath of poets..
well: we're not going to tend to
the republic of the wizened goats
ex athens... are we?
the democratic oath of poets -
unlike the hippocratic loaf...
            which is a spectacular failure
since i have seen what
little ambitions can do:
when... the boat is not being
rocked: yet someone is still willing
to throw someone... overboard...
now that the boat is rocking:
i see nooses instead of paddles...
the seas are still rife with calm...

clamour for the subjective experince...
none of this: hammer to a nail
sort of "magic" that leaves
one... sensibly "ostententious":

a semi-decent poem contra:
a good night's sleep...
always the latter...
   but unlike today:
6am wake... giving blood for
scrutiny - subsequently...
a broad need for 4 hours in...
a makeshift wilderness...
from Hainault Forest
to Havering County Park...

                        i would clearly have
to start all over again...
should i mind reading back into Tironian
notes and what i had expected to find...
it will suffice to mind...
the characters of empress wu...

         國 (guo)

beginning: coming back to bite some back
from a beijing pork belly:
where you'd first have to make caramel
from the sugar dissolved in oil:
before all the wine would care to glisten...

             𤯔 (ren)...

                              in reverse:
ren-guo - people (of) nation...
                      walking past this field:
impromptu: please keep off of field...
that's what i read...
      this was exclusive -
there was not need to denote further...

and this funny oddity:
saying good-morning or a hello
in an environment that's beside...
walking down the street with a stable
hound of anonymity surrounding
crisp grey blockage of: the amass!
yet people are so expecting
a common courtesy to brief you
on a morning: good...
is it? incessantly so! apparently!
switch them to the torment of the cements
and the back-to-basics apathetic crew
is on the counter...
ghost faces...
  but push them far enough to be alone
and into nature:
they pass a stranger and apparently
demand a prompt: hello!

i go into a depth of nature like
i have *** with prostitutes in a brothel:
i want to have as little to do with talking
that i'd loan: smothering someone
to shut up...
i came for the crows the knee-high-hallubaloos
of nonsense that...
i will extract myself to break
fasting to give blood by foraging
some blackberries...

i still prefer the lesser democratic voices...
it's not that robert duncan was going
to be a stand-alone show akin
to gibsberg...
but... my house is currently in disarray...
i'm playing chess by having
a makeshift kitchen in my living room...
i don't even know where the spices
are! but i'll manage
to bake a **** fine moroccan kobhz!

- this little but current focus for a genetic
"protection": half of me,
then a quarter, an eight, a sixteenth,
a 32-and-a-third... jump toward
64... 128... and... from all these fractions:
half and half:
beauty is no longer viable:
i imagine love as being a prized
bull kept for nothing except
for ******* the gene pool silly...

that's "love" from a darwin from
a materialism: breeding racing horses
or... both the submissive
and the contentious workers -
pay up! but i am not looking
for the generic beauty of
the plateau of the women
employed as surrogates
in this darwinistic harem...
            
isn't it obvious? it would have been
better have be allowed ourselves
to be dead: aborted...
but then: critter load: make-up...
i actually offend my own existence
by affording these dorian gray
parades to take hope in puruing
norms...
i like the scaps i like the wounds
i even like nibbling on the shellfish!

****-****** literature is my achilles
heel...
better a heel than trodding along
with faking a ******* knee...
robert duncan... jack spicer...
i like reading eyes by (metaphorically)
licking up the ****...
and it's not like i might give good head...
i employ a growth of
***** hair to convert my chin
to a niqab like i might: perhaps blink...

then again: face-masks and fashion?
is... this... somehow...
a "thing"?
            well it must be new:
it's nothing from the sort
of the elders i might care to remember...
i walked the scenic route...
blackberries and horseshit...
everything is baking in a procrastination
of: tickle the rats' nibbling...
scrutiny of the lesser of the food
hierarchy: omnivore that i am...

yes... that i like petting criters
that find themselves adamant in their
superiority...
but who have yet to see me:
teasing myself with
a: what if...
                 hours match-up to
not keeping count: there's a fog of them
that goes way back to...
out of the womb... then abandoned
by the scholastic detail that
allows them to float: limbless...
and then return to earth: degenerate...
and less than amiable...

        douglas murray is probably
a hot topic... i too sometimes bewilder myself:
it would have been best to have
allowed the pendulum to swing both ways...
but he (ol' doug) speaks very well:
his writing is... beside the generic...
salt of grain: akin to my own...
for a cubic's worth of water...

    i don't want this tongue to be somewhow
exasperated with concerns for this / an "art"...
or that it can belittle a scientific bone...
thrown to the politics and red herring marches...
spins the doctor: no plates...
forever the new lies
kept in the same old... rhetorical: quirk-and-quickness
of the quilled-tongue...
a knock-knock stone cold: generic...
must: mediocre...
tired of living tongue of poetry
that has to become tired:
truth has to tire so easily...
so that politics: and the freshness
of lies and the no-niche-audience-allowance
can cast their:
"vote"... their... archaic... illiterate "X"..

i will not poetry for rhymes for
exasperations - fooled i: to you: to pursue
that paragraph of fiction - either...
but as freely as this will not:
become an exercise in myopic-claustrophobia...
so it will not rhyme:
perhaps: to advent a coming of my
prescribed punctuation:
but more: your own, your "post-nationalistic"
canadian:
something the people of India or
China will not share with you...
because:
they are still of the mindset: China...
India... hell! Russian is towing suitor!
individualism collapses nations...
whether with a homogeneity of ethnicity
or the heterogeneity of liberalism...

           a wonderful collage of stories...
from the 20th century:
agony aunt israel bewildering
to either confront or defend...
            2000 years have somehow passed
and: europe is no new: "anew"...
it's the same old bland palette
of readily ethno-primed availability
of spices...
hurrah for thyme! and rosemary! mint!

from some mythical above
to this drudge of the pressurised castor -
there was something about robert duncan
that might always have:
made me... diverge from...
it could have been expected...
stash a tonne of bricks by day...
weave in an escapism posit of cinema
come sabbath...
now... escapism into... where?!
critical reignition of marxism:
that sort of marxism my parents escaped
from from under the old soviet
yolk of the satellite state
of poland: thank **** i too am an
immigrant:
but i see no repatriation politics
either...
               go back to a state of
the littlest of all bald envy necropolis
Impoleons?

            no among my native people:
among the natives of these isles...
a thespian: knee deep in ****...
           faking best predicts a survival
rate of this uncoiling...
it's a nation full of: self-
pre-determina...
                  automated prefixation that
can never allow itself to:
make sensible coagulations
of the odd sociable pint...

this atom world this atom's worth
of man...
best life lived as designated
to a harem...
  my and my leftover "blues"...
this world of god and the adventures
of...
no longer available...
thus this one "reality" presented:
playing by man's rules
for the purpose of man's eventual:
transcendence...
a dwarf riding a hunchback
        toward a goal that's a talking donkey!

what's otherwise best?
this has to be an: exercise in futility -
that it had to come from somewhere like:
borrowed prior -
that it could only be borrowed prior:
this tongue had to be inherited:
it could never be acquired -
that a native speaker is...
of a higher status to a bilingual -
because the earth breathes rights...

i forget: i am not equipped
with the desirable physiognomy -
problem being:
when i might find black males
attractive like i might lions: distinct...
i have this ****** on my brain
that says to me...
  well... well...
     i'm not gay.. but i'm certainly
not heterosexual:
even if Flaubert might ask the question:
blondes, brunetters - afro-beauties:
ivory envy?
  what can i do? fest on a hard-on
chemical "oops" / short-cut?
i can't possibly have... a beijing fetish?
a mongol fetish?
i can't? there's only one variation
of interracial mixing...
i guess... so...

     it would be so much easier
to just be gay and leave this world
with a ******* massive **** salvo
of: not coming back!
               to **** a black girl:
not enough...
to not **** a black girl: doubly knot...
******* a lemon while
staring at the sun:
the sado-masochism of
all the post-colonial empires...
and me: whittle ol' resurrected
******... or searching:
the elder prus - the new estonians...
some little european *******...
i imagine...
going to Kenya and running
for parliament:
to concern myself for the voices
of the: minority!

it's... fiddling with the already
prescribed narrative:
trying to make a lee evans jokes
out of it... but...
it's not ******* happening woe-o'-sunshine...
is it?!
it's not like i'm strapped
to a northern monkey
reservation... while still retaining
my: immigrant southern fairy:
commuter hell "debate":
this is not devonshire...
this is not bristol: i'd love to scoop
up a life of a decade's worth
up in Bangor... but it's not even that...
pay by way to:
a collective identity crisis of:
zee vest...
            
if it's anger: perhaps...
it's more a seance in glorifying confusion:
it was once perhaps a little
bit... naive...
but then... who's naive enough
to repeat two-folds of yesterday
within the confines of a day:
to- / to- are not future even
if subjected to incremental changes...
fx/dx changes that might
spawn alternate realities...

        the breaking of a donkey's dollars
worth: i do fishing in the indian sea...
with some... somali pirates...
it's not like i'll ever wake up from
this guilt... the guilt that might
riddle a people that inherited...
i inherited exile from my fathers...
i inherited: no...
the ****** aristocracy didn't tend
to their garden... there was no Eton...
no rugby no football...
there was only a partitioning...
to look toward the past is
an agony that i wish to only hide
in the english countryside...
after all, i thought: who would't want...
make a feast of conquest of this land...
but in a way that was norman:
that the anglo-saxon debauchery could
be... delianted
and brought to a celtic-esque heel...
with a dash of neo-paganism:
a york-up sort o' pie...

without disturbing this dilligent
people of: a most fervent... attention to detail...
it's an island... it's devoid
of any continental squabble...
no mongol ever... no ottoman ever...
it break my heart...
it reminds me: although it shouldn't
remind me...
the aristocratic class (they deem themselves
as much, so why deny them?)
of this country are like the ******
aristocracy
of the three partition "era"...
as napoleon was celebrated "elsewhere"...
with the resurrection
of the duchy of warsaw...
and... england made a beef from
a wellington...
and how the confederacy of germans
repaid the english during the first:
thirst for war...

                   a shogun's pride:
no one would invade japan:
given the persistence of pressure
from a civility of: glamour creases...
it's still the ******* canon rolling
the pawns and pins...

i have but this little interlude in time
to entertain: a history i have learned...
beside citing the obvious apple
hanging on a tree...
who? the burning vietnamese monk?
that's who i am going to... erase...
2000 (circa) years of history with?
this is how i play: conquistador-catch-up?!
this is my whittle muhammad
stage-fright?!

these new surgical masks are
not imitations of the niqab...
the arabs are not drying up their dinosaur
marrow reserves and are not
scouting for willing sodomite freshers
to their gargantuan wealth-soiling
of "morals"?
no? this is all... a pauper's conspiracy
theory... god!
i try to imagine the conspiracy
theory of kings!
it must invite a realisation of
a god or gods...
and at least a quarter of an abstaining
pademomium!

the poets and the sceptics
living under: the... gates are open...
a republic under "scrutiny"...
the philosophers and the
geocentrists - have allowed
for nothing more... than this...
thespian "bureucracy" of
shadow "fiddling"... tail with now:
tail best quite...

attention spanning the glorifications
of non-replica, generic
Solomon comes to the furore
front: then a mismatch
when the brain: swiss cheese project:
is treated at the Avignon
pontiff...
the harem and debauchery shifts
focus...
there's that "we're" and...
dumb-lasso-dumber than you'd
pay the libido of a camel with: for...

i have to always imagine myself
petting cats... or dogs...
to have to dissociate myself from having
perfect: the needs for either halal or
kosher demands of leather...
i best prefer the pipsqueak of
a meow to... an actual oink
in the litany of cogs and perhaps:
clogging up the machinery of
"jurisprudence"... as some Jain might...

borrow from... export very little to...
come the omnivorse of the east
and all succumb to:
boy-scout avenues of:
yes ss'ir...
most loathsome ss'ir...
                     i have to interrogate
the dead man as i am:
the best example of a cul de sac
of dreams: the...
pedestrian could mind not thinking:
imagine: imagine the corpus deity
of: unimaginable thought...
or one which has
an alias: unthinkable imagiation...

memory freelance architect prior
to noon...
is somewhat justified with...
a boredom of a cat come
5pm... but by then...
no cat is ever really bored...
and i have no need to concern
myself with dogs... or leashes...
or desires to: address a
workability of legs...
          to: give scrutiny when all
other examples are wheelchair bound...

he held a piece of paper:
between his hands... like my shadow might:
hold a butterfly...
exasperation:
that philosophers of ancient greece
said: poets begone!
no wonder this...
currency... of wanting to imitate
a petting of animals...
and... this thespian autocracy
that no elders could abide by...
it can still be excused:
the role of actors:
the role of shadow-thieves...

it can still be salvaged...
some of us are still the same rummaging:
in ruinous...
wordsmiths or... best...
plumbers... not some aspirtation
beckons for youth...
it must rhyme:
it must come down to: 2 + 2 = 4
sort of: flimsy poetics...

i'd must prefer to be a
homosexual plumber these days
that my very own mediocre leftover...
thank god i do not encompass
a courtship of a woman:
then imagine!
what did i do with my time:
that i do so much!
having made... so little money!
ghosts can't spend: ****!
i did with my time that
would not allow woman
to turn time into money!
thus i turned money into monkey's
play on elephant and
called tha pennies: p'p'eh-nuts!

  the old man dies:
the youth of man was never
supposed to be born;

god... this was supposed
to be profound?
with this idiosyncratic lost...
spontaneity of punctuation...
i take this reading as
a leverage for making
image: of an anchor dropped:
that would sink the ship.
brandon nagley May 2015
A craigslist seeker, she seeks to die and dies to live, Cant pay the rent when the roomies turned out to material gifts, what a queen she is, tattoos to cover her paraplegic scars.. numbing is her entertatinment fly for free you darling of heavens bars, drive me wild you rose among bedded thorns where fashion is intelligent, irrevelant your beauty flows past caked mountain bliss..Lover you douse me in your 60s content where men just now understand you, how the tracks are soo bent...shine for me you diamond eye holder, Victorian crime loather, loathe with me, stick to me you animal of ****** nature, your stature hard to read, none to feed your lips to give heavens honey where no or none money can buy what all you have to sell, you stomper of demons you broke heaven and hell, for this heart has swelled to you me love..............title- limbos queen
JG O'Connor Jun 2017
I’ve become  invisible
Maybe it’s a virus and I’ve just got a touch,
The automatic shop door didn’t open so I’m left in a lurch,
Even when  I stood on the spot once blessed by the church.
Then the shop attendant missed me in the queue,
A car nearly knocked me on the footpath too.
Clearly I’m unseen.

As this progresses will my eyelids become translucent?
With my eyes shut how will I sleep?
Maybe I should wear dark glasses and not take a peek.
If I wear clothes will it be funny?
I will definitely get a job as a shop window dummy.
Is that what happens in the invisible limbos,
We become manikins in shop windows,  
Watching the world looking at them,
What we the invisible will be able to tell.

From my shop window I imagine at half past eight,
The people hang out or just walk past straight.
Starting with the kids skipping school,
Uniform tucked in schoolbag to fool,
Shopping bag used for energy joule,
Inhaling glue this hallucinatory fuel.
Each step these children take,
One step closer to heartbreak.

Then the anxious wife meeting her lover.  
Leaving behind her domestic bliss,
Sealed this morning with a husband’s watery kiss.
Waiting awkwardly in her Totoro dress,
One button behind and a zip does the rest .
Trying hard to be invisible too
This could all end in her being blue.

The rushing shop manager dressed in a suit.
Cuffs worn thin, pens in a group,
Red, blue and black,
A tick for success or none for the lack.
Mumbling along the company mantra,
“Think outside the box” there’s as good fella.
The only box he has ever known,
Are the imaginary boundaries in which he has grown.


A dog and his master trundle along.
He has been dead for years as he moves on,
Wearing a shroud of a used up life,
The dog squats down beside the tree of life.
Observing this stool in the daylight,
He compares to the Hematochezia he did last night.

A husband contemplating murdering his wife,
As the news of her lover has just come to light.  
He looks at the manikin with some delight,
Seduced by its empty invisible soul,  
Only to discover he owns that hole.

Then evening descends the lights are all up,
When work is all over it’s off to the pub.
Not for the invisible manikin though,
Who stays in the window dressed in a bride’s trousseau.
An invisible exhibitionist this poor sod,
So when you walk past it's polite to nod.
Now I’ll take two Aspirin and a cup of coco
And hope to God this invisibility will go go.
The Warlock Sep 2012
Forgive Me Warlock, For It Is My Nature
You Summoned Me By Despair
I Responded By Love
Your Soul Darker Than Mine

I Was Agonizing For Your Call For Eons
Lost Into The Limbos Of Time
Waiting For You To Understand The Keys
Pierce The Dark Sealed Secrets Glyphs

You Made Them Dance In Your Soul
Looking For The Perfect Combination
Lightning The Dark Flame Of Your Energy
Opening The Dark Vortex Forever Closed

You Showed Me The Mortal Realm From Your Eyes
Exposing Its Magnificence And Darkness To My Soul
You Shared Your Love Exposing You Weaknesses
Giving Me The Lost Keys Of Your Own Being

I Drank Your Eternal Blood Warlock
Absorbing Your Sorrow And Pain
Which Made Me Loving You Ever More
You, The Half I Separated From

I Could Not Let You For A Second Time My Love
I Drank Blood To Your Death
So I Could Keep You In The Place You Belong
Mixed In Me For Eternity

We Are One Again Forever Warlock
For You Are Filling My Veins
Your Soul Trapped With Mine
At The Moment Of Your Death, I Revived

Warlock
Alice Lovey May 2018
There was a time...
The first rhyme
You ever read to me
That time when I,
Once unappreciative,
But that night...
Fell in love with it.
You recited your hurt like art,
A delicate voice,
But with trembling heart.

During those early days of early love.
I always wanted to read along as you read aloud.

And I would've died to be the page you'd slaved upon.
Tears, blood, passion unrivaled like a daring dawn
That fights the night till the day is gone.
Perhaps it was to feel connected to you,
But I began to write my stories too.
I threaded them together painstakingly,
Usually in the lonesome limbos I felt achingly,
Anxiously,
And it took so long to share myself with you.

Did you know you were the first to ever see them?
You always thought I was beautiful.

Once again, you encouraged the fire free.
And this isn't the only sea
You've taught me to sail.
Now I place my work here
With the sheer raw emotion I so dearly make clear.
It is one of the few things I've made mine.
I never said I had talent, but at least I can rhyme!
And now?

Now I write for me.
One of the most wonderful and wondrous things I admire in life is the ability to inspire and be inspired by the passion and love of those around you. If I hadn't met you, would I have such a great outlet for my thoughts and feelings? Thank you for teaching me to appreciate poetry.
Daydreams of you haunt me at night, the frightening sight of me holding you tight.
Breathing heavy, sweating, looking for a lip to bite.
It might be nightmarish to stare into your cold eyes, but cold stares don't lie,
they might **** and I might die, but for sure I won't cry.
These daydreams scream obscene obscenities torturing my memories,
sending me to limbos with no souls, and no way out.
I shout into silence and silence then pouts. I fear this dreaded destination,
this nation of introspective meditation. Just face it, there's no face to save it,
no place for shelter, this helterskelter is inescapable. Incapable but breakable,
for sake's sake the will is shakable. These daydreams I swear, scare themselves,
like label less books upon empty shelves. Let the faded pages delve deep into the depth of my id and ego,
let us see how far the rabbit hole goes, maybe to wonder the underland who truly knows?
Daydreams of you haunt me at night, untucked and cold I sleep in fright.
Maybe this notion of holding you tight, will send into motion
heavy breathing, sweating, and a lip to bite.
Now hurry off to bed, for this lullaby is dead, goodnight to thoughts and the whispers in your head.
Wörziech Nov 2014
Um medíocre seixo formado por um aglomerado espalhafato de pulgas flutua e veleja por oceanos saturados de desaproveitas lágrimas amarelo-chumbo nas mais desoladas camadas de sua privativa órbita, em uma intersecção de múltiplos limbos supra-reais, bem entre dois muros de um corredor estreito, escuro e corroborado pelo lodo - sobre o qual, cabe-se dizer, resta imóvel uma pequena patrola laranja de brinquedo, esquecida.

Inevitável e também incoerente,
Continuar a ser (peleja)

"Um equívoco desmistificado; uma perturbação"

Os ideais se contrapõem aos já extintos/
Sedimentos navegam eternamente sem rumo/
Inexprimível Sensível/
O oculto que assim permanece/

Pedregulho pulguento perpetuamente a protuberar-se na imensidão dos mares de um ópio por si próprio proferido, ofendendo e perseguindo leis individuais de universo, causando o óbito comum a todos os parciais ínfimos pares de não-instantes, parados.

Estarrece-se o lógico pela busca do externo consenso, indiferente a todo gotejar de pia:
fundir-se pela semelhança!
tornar-se pela simples analogia!

****-Sutra; ****-Isso.
****-Tundra; ****-Aquilo.
**** Sapiens
**** Gênio

Entrementes,
através de seus poros abertos pela alta temperatura,
sente por seu corpo, de muitos corpos,
a circulação efervescente do mais intenso calor,
o sopro de vida hebraico de um cosmos também filisteu,
(de tudo aquilo que pode até não estar de todo vivo - ou de todo morto);
contradição de um todo-devir também carrasco, mas, em essência, todo-devir de um sorrateiro espaço de tempo do bater de asas de um besouro não mais vivo e nunca catalogado, capturado somente por um pequenino ponteiro vermelho de segundos de um relógio velho, possuído,  em circunstâncias afortunas, por uma avó - ainda hoje vivente - de um tempo atormentado pela tirania e propositalmente esquecido, a proferir não só eternidades-nascedouros e cede ansiada, como, de igual infinita intensidade, a inferir a sublimidade em poderios majestáticos estruturados na mais esplendorosa magia humana, a sua despropria linguagem;

...se apercebe o amontoado, tudo, menos genérico, mesmo não sendo, agora, inseto, nem humano, apenas animal,

Que
Mantêm-se
em correnteza,
Metamorfose lavareda.
Yo tuve una prima
como un lirio bella,
como un mirlo alegre,
como un alba fresca,
rubia como una
mañana abrileña.   Amaba los versos aquella rapaza
con predilecciones a su edad ajenas.
La música augusta del rtimo cantaba
dentro de su espíritu como ignota orquesta;
todo lo que un astro le dice a otro astro,
todo lo que el cielo le dice a la tierra,
todo lo que el alma pregunta a la Esfinge,
todo lo que al alma la Esfinge contesta.   Pobre prima rubia,
pobre prima buena;
hace muchos años que duerme ese sueño
del que ni los pájaros, alegres como ella,
ni el viento que pasa, ni el agua que corre,
ni el sol que derrocha vida, la recuerdan.   Yo suelo, en los días
de la primavera,
llevar a su tumba
versos y violetas;
versos y violetas, ¡lo que más amaba!   En torno a su losa riego las primeras,
luego las estrofas recito que antaño
su deleite eran:
las más pensativas, las más misteriosas,
las más insinuantes, las que son más tiernas;
las que en sus pestañas, como en blonda de oro,
ponían las joyas de lágrimas, trémulas,
con diafanudades de beril hialino
y oriente de perlas.
  Se las digo bajo, bajito, inclinándome
hacia donde yace, por que las entienda.
Pobre prima rubia, ¡pero no responde!
Pobre prima rubia, ¡pero no despierta!   Cierto día, una joven condiscípula,
con mucho sigilo le prestó en la escuela
un libro de versos musicales, hondos.
¡Eran los divinos versos de Espronceda!   Se los llevó a casa bajo el chal ocultos,
y los escondimos, con sutil cautela,
del padre y la madre, y hasta de su sombra;
de la anciana tía, devota e ingenua,
que sólo gustaba de jaculatorias
y sólo entendía los versos de Trueba.   En aquellas tardes embermejecidas
por conflagraciones de luz, en que bregan
gigánticamente monstruos imprecisos
del Apocalipsis o de las leyendas;
de aquellas tardes que fingen catástrofes;
en aquellas tardes en que el iris vuelca
todos sus colores, en que el sol vacía
toda su escarcela;
en aquellas tardes del trópico, juntos
los dos, en discreto rincón de la huerta,
bajo de la trémula hospitalidad
de nuestras palmeras,
a furto de extraños, vibrantes leíamos
el Canto a Teresa.   ¡Qué revelaciones nos hizo ese canto!
Todas las angustias, todas las tristezas,
todo lo insondable del amor, y todo
lo desesperante de las infidencias:
todo el doloroso mundo que gravita
sobre el alma esclava que amó quimeras,
del que puso estrellas en la frente amada,
y al tornar a casa ya no encontró estrellas.   Todo el ansia loca de adorar en vano
tan sólo a una sombra, tan sólo a una muerta;
todos los despechos y las ironías
del que se revuelca
en zarzal de dudas y de escepticismos;
todos los sarcasmos y las impotencias.   Y después, aquellas ágiles canciones
de prosodia alada, de gracia ligera,
que apenas si tocan el polvo del mundo
con la orla de oro del brial de seda;
que, como el albatros, se duermen volando
que, como el albatros, volando despiertan:
  La ideal canción del bravo Pirata
que iba viento en popa, que iba a toda vela,
y a quien por los mares nuestros pensamientos,
como dos gaviotas, seguían de cerca;   Y la del Mendigo, cínico y osado,
y la del Cosaco del Desierto, bélica,
bárbara, erizada de ferrados hurras,
que al oído suenan
como los tropeles de potros indómitos
con jinetes rubios, sobre las estepas...   Pasaba don Félix, el de Montemar,
con una aureola roja en su cabeza,
satánico, altivo; luego, doña Elvira,
«que murió de amor», en lirios envuelta.
¡Con cuántos prestigios de la fantasía
ante nuestros ojos se alejaba tétrica!   Y el Reo de muerte que el fatal instante,
frente a un crucifijo, silencioso espera;
y aquella Jarifa, cuya mano pálida
la frente ardorosa del bardo refresca.
  Poco de su Diablo Mundo comprendíamos;
pero adivinábamos, como entre una niebla,
símbolos enormes y filosofías
que su Adán desnudo se llevaba a cuestas   ¡Oh mi gran poeta de los ojos negros!,
¡oh mi gran poeta de la gran melena!,
¡oh mi gran poeta de la frente vasta
cual limpio horizonte!, ¡oh mi gran poeta!   Te debo las horas más inolvidables;
y un día leyendo tu Canto a Teresa.,
muy juntos los ojos, muy juntos los labios,
te debí también, cual Paolo a Francesca,
un beso, el más grande que he dado en mi vida;
un beso, más dulce que miel sobre hojuelas;
¡un beso florido que envolvió en perfumes
toda mi existencia!   Un beso que, siento, eternizaría
del duro Gianciotti la daga violenta,
para que en la turba de almas infernales,
como en la terrible página dantesca,
fuera resonando por los anchos limbos,
fuera restallando por la noche inmensa,
y uniendo por siempre mi boca golosa
con la boca de ella!   ¡Oh, mi gran poeta de los ojos negros!
¡Quién hubiera dicho que yo te trajera,
como pobre pago de los inefables
éxtasis de entonces, esta humilde ofrenda!...
¡Oh, gallardo príncipe de la poesía!
Pero tú recíbela con la gentileza
de un Midas que en oro todo lo transmuta;
en claros diamantes mi abalorio trueca,
y en los viles cobres de mis estrofillas,
para acaudalarlos, engasta tus gemas.
Así tu memoria por los siglos dure,
¡oh, mi gran poeta de la gran melena!,
¡oh, mi gran poeta de los ojos negros!
¡oh, mi gran poeta!
Poetic T Feb 2016
I had tried to cover it with* ink,  but it only
lasted a day before it
 bled from my fingernails.
It was a constant reminder that
 death  was
Inching closer with every month that past.
The ink veined upwards like poison ivy it
Slithered, each month passing another leaf
Grew and I knew it would soon come to pass.


It changed depending on mood, when you
Were younger you'd of  thought it magical.
Each new leaf budding and then it opened a
Colourful show for younger minds. Like a mark
Of maturity but that was so long ago. Now it
Inches above the elbow, shoulder, smiles melted
Away to how many more leafs before the fall.


Once it has ascended the flower blood red
Would unfold over your
 heart. Some so few
Petals, no time was assured. Then the falling
Would start. How many petals would turn
  onyx, 
Culminating in thoughts of life that had many
Leafs but now the blossom was ebbing away to a 
finite culmination of time. Tears fell, so many cried.


Watching others when that mortality was arching
Towards oblivion, some were at peace making the
Most of fading petals. Then there were the fallen
Timers, succumbing into limbos insanity. Who could
Blame them in their consumed thoughts, they were
Screaming wildly in the streets, others tried to
Cleaver the flower from their being, crimson fell.


My time was so complex, when the flowers eclipse
Was passing where colour became grey, Dark thoughts
Ensued but I knew that nothing would pass except
My moments of what was left. So I regained my composure
I would not be a fallen I would not be consumed
By the decaying flower upon my chest, I had time left
And I would savour the moments that fell dark.


I lay their family were overjoyed that this time was
Not spent alone, consumed in denied misgivings.
But that I wanted them all here when the flowers final
Moments etched to a lovely shaded flower that was
My final exhalation of life. I could feel it, I felt the
Fragrance fade in that final moment I breathed deeply
Taking in the essence of every moments aroma.


I died, but I past away proud that the ink may have
Started at birth and that the leafs were a monument
To my time. But in the falling I was at peace with my
Flowers blossom and its enviable fading demise.


"We are each a leaf that has a grown,
**"But life is a journey and one day that leaf falls,
Life is finite use it well we all grow, but some fall early to early, make the most of your time.
Jane Tricky Dec 2013
four wheels
gliding gracefully along the surface
holding hands and displaying large grins
echos of jokes and secret tellings and laughs

most often referred to as rink
typically filled with jovial adolescents
birthday parties and family outings
weekend afternoons
coaxing is often a requirement

the freedom to move without lifting a foot
who needs to walk, skip, or jump
when you can roll, roll, roll

you crossover
i stumble
you move backwards
i fall
my legs are bruised
as is my ego
yet
i cannot stop smiling

nostalgia at it's finest
memories of lock ins
hokey pokies
limbos
races to the death

it has never been so much fun to get hurt
it seems as though time has worn on me
im no longer an elastic young girl
don't tell me that, though.
five more minutes
brooke Apr 2017
quietly, in the mornings
with only your fingers
shades tilted in, the lapis
dawn that barely makes
it through, door ajar
studied, an open book quiz
unmentionables, spoken in
water drops
melted butter
shower steam
vanilla
milk
cinnamon.

before the sun
before breakfast
before the earth opens up like it does
take it with a grain of salt, with an ounce of optimism
the glass ain't even here, we have lakes
we have amber canopies, other hands that shield
lovers that reach for us mid-dream, us
they reach for us in sleep induced affection,
they may as well be reaching across continents
who knows how far away they dream,
fingers sliding across cello strings
they make beautiful music while
they are here, traveling limbos to find us
but we're here in the morning, in the quiet morning.



how to eat honeycomb.
(c) Brooke Otto

i'd been looking forward to this one but it was nothing especially inspiring.
Poetic T May 2015
-Life-

Was the *cruellest
of gifts It gave us
Hope, but it is a coin tossed too often,
For within moments
Breath,
Beats,
Blood
Coursing through this vessel
To keep it upright, motions of every fibre
Never one without the other. But *breath
is
Fleeting, one stops then another moments
Now becoming less time life now evicted stops.


-Reaper-

That exhalation that signalled the end, taken
From you, stolen by this hand of bone
And kept like a trinket, something
That he has held to many times,
Lost,
Forgotten,
Dammed
Ones who he misplaced in that darkened place.
He was just one of the keepers charged with
But the flow from their to here. but all
Things have a purpose and so
This existence now claimed by another.

-Soul Keeper-

Was the cleaner of what was  before,
Life's distractions, deaths fingerprints,
Where cleansed from this orb of
Thought,
Conciseness,
Essence
Of what was, two shades spiral,
One white one like a smear, some where
More of one, never one purest
Pearl or charcoal . There was always a
Hint of light or dark in every orb held.

-Scales Of Judgement-

We are weighted not by the flesh or the bone,
As they are nothing once the soul is gone
Life,
Death,
Rebirth,
Are the ever moving cogs, but some
Are broken to be put in a place
Where the broken things
Live,
Rot,
Decay,
In that place never to be reborn, this is
There end place of limbos playground.
All are judged on the scales showing
the aura of there lifes deeds
Be they heaven worthy or to the pit
There moments burn, but some are
To far gone, and in limbo they stay.
The scales are the defining moment of four stages
Life,
Death,
Energy,
Judgment
On this final journey, are you worthy, to be
In the light or darkness, to be reborn or
To the nether place of broken toys.
Live your life, but remember judgement
Is only three steps from life away.
Xiv
Niños del mundo,
si cae España -digo, es un decir-
si cae
del cielo abajo su antebrazo que asen,
en cabestro, dos láminas terrestres;
niños, ¡qué edad la de las sienes cóncavas!
¡qué temprano en el sol lo que os decía!
¡qué pronto en vuestro pecho el ruido anciano!
¡qué viejo vuestro 2 en el cuaderno!¡Niños del mundo, está
la madre España con su vientre a cuestas;
está nuestra madre con sus férulas,
está madre y maestra,
cruz y madera, porque os dio la altura,
vértigo y división y suma, niños;
está con ella, padres procesales!Si cae -digo, es un decir- si cae
España, de la tierra para abajo,
niños ¡cómo vais a cesar de crecer!
¡cómo va a castigar el año al mes!
¡cómo van a quedarse en diez los dientes,
en palote el diptongo, la medalla en llanto!
¡Cómo va el corderillo a continuar
atado por la pata al gran tintero!
¡Cómo vais a bajar las gradas del alfabeto
hasta la letra en que nació la pena!Niños,
hijos de los guerreros, entre tanto,
bajad la voz que España está ahora mismo repartiendo
la energía entre el reino animal,
las florecillas, los cometas y los hombres.
¡Bajad la voz, que está
en su rigor, que es grande, sin saber
qué hacer, y está en su mano
la calavera, aquella de la trenza;
la calavera, aquella de la vida!¡Bajad la voz, os digo;
bajad la voz, el canto de las sílabas, el llanto
de la materia y el rumor menos de las pirámides, y aun
el de las sienes que andan con dos piedras!
¡Bajad el aliento, y si
el antebrazo baja,
si las férulas suenan, si es la noche,
si el cielo cabe en dos limbos terrestres,
si hay ruido en el sonido de las puertas,
si tardo,
si no veis a nadie, si os asustan
los lápices sin *****, si la madre
España cae -digo, es un decir-,
salid, niños, del mundo; id a buscarla!...
Emily Jones Jan 2014
Where do I go from here
Here being the limbos of choice
The frontal antagonism of option
Where each road looks similar spelling out the death of my heart
Stunting my passions and printing a mundane existence
Where I am burdened by a debt of responsibility
Bare scrapping change up off the pavement

Not filling willing minds with enlightenment joy and inner peace as I wish to be
My dreams as grand as the shining gold pillars of some ancient city
And wit as sharp as the Chinese whom discovered atomic theory much earlier than western thought had hoped

Where do I go from here
Do I take up refuge in some major that over times takes my mind into the spinning spiral of numbers
Crunching them down to bite sized bits so I don't choke on their rational?
How do i know  what is right
When I've found it and it has been deemed unworthy

How do I deny the self?
Mi Lu
mi lubidulia
mi golocidalove
mi lu tan luz tan tu que me enlucielabisma
y descentratelura
y venusafrodea
y me nirvana el suyo la crucis los desalmes
con sus melimeleos
sus eropsiquisedas sus decúbitos lianas y dermiferios limbos y
gormullos
mi lu
mi luar
mi mito
demonoave dea rosa
mi pez hada
mi luvisita nimia
mi lubísnea
mi lu más lar
más lampo
mi pulpa lu de vértigo de galaxias de ***** de misterio
mi lubella lusola
mi total lu plevida
mi toda lu
lumía.
Poetic T Apr 2016
The god dam roads closed behind my
Forehead thoughts stop behind never
Releasing just stagnant locked behind
Two syllables "ROAD CLOSED,

I want to wonder in the ideas that
Linger behind a sign leaving me
Suspended in limbos greeting
"Hi I'm having a deliberation,

But did hinder to my words, no
It just added another plank upon
The suspended thoughts that were
Tapping upon my skull bored.

Dam these motions that are static,
Just splash over the restrictions
That keep you in my hesitant
Thoughts needing imminent release.

I think of a number 7 its a mental
Thought as I grab it and hack at my
Mind, till that closed sign hangs
In pieces and lingers on the floor.

Then a memory of what was lingering,
Flood against the white shore in my
Head, and what spills on my mind is
This singular piece of inked thought.

"When a thought is contained beyond a moment
Kick in the door and let it spill forth,
To all the men in all the wars who died for causes they believed in
Or found themselves unable to escape the roll of dice that sent      
them there.
A country posey picked in a shady lane by hands of love and care.

To those three thousand souls who fell crushed by towering hatred,
And those who fell at other bomber’s hands on other days,
A long stemmed perfect snow white rose from the garden of regret.

To all the children taken in their innocence on ordinary days,
In ordinary places, thought safe from all the madness of insanity,
A wreath of multicolor blossoms tied with cotton candy bows.

To all the revelers out for fun who sought the music in a crowd,
And learned the rhythm of an automatic gun instead,
A vase of yellow daisies, with a petal for each one

To all the tots who suffered at the hands of those supposed to love  them,
And lived with wounds and deprivation until there was no hope of life,
A potted red geranium that will go on blooming endlessly.

To all the lonely elderly who slipped away without a sound or note,
And went into the ground with no sad songs or mourners,
A small bouquet of lilies tied with velvet ribbons.

To all of those who couldn’t live the number of their ordained days,
Felled by accident, disease, or lost in limbos of mental illness,
A planting of daffodils to bloom each Spring.

So many lives, so many flowers.  So many to grieve and mourn for.
Just one day is not enough, nor is a week or year.
The best memorial is memory, and it can last forever.
      ljm
It's not just about the military any more..
-Boscán, tarde llegamos -¿Hay posada?
-Llamad desde la posta, Garcilaso.
-¿Quién es? -Dos caballeros del Parnaso.
-No hay donde nocturnar palestra armada.
-No entiendo lo que dice la criada.
Madona, ¿qué decís? -Que afecten paso,
que obstenta limbos el mentido ocaso
y el sol depinge la porción rosada.
-¿Estás en ti, mujer? -Negóse al tino
el ambulante huésped-. ¡Que en tan poco
tiempo tal lengua entre cristianos haya!
Boscán, perdido habemos el camino,
preguntad por Castilla, que estoy loco,
o no habemos salido de Vizcaya.
brandon nagley May 2015
(Cross heavy) Old found poetry by meself...A cross to bear, nails to tear thick through. Canst thou shovel thine own grave? Gravedigger art thou payed yet for thy expenses? No message's coming on in. Just burdenful sins to cut the blue made veins, where the bloodiest of stains grapple no completing. The dogs are teething as babies to the ****. ******* stay stuck in the devils inventions, none to know or mention what society seems to fail. Do we prevail? or get conquered to lost woe fears? Holy spirit shalt thou come near to be thy carriage i lay this carrion body? Claireaudience has found me barraged in darkest of flagrant sadness. Such madness have i been born into, or was the madness thrived in me? No locks nor keys to pass, Limbos fated match, Chimera's live hatched where no love has been given.......
Mateuš Conrad Aug 2017
oh i'm ******... now i'm lurid.

you think that taking a *liberal

reading of the nag hammadi
library will not have consequences?

now i understand the term
liberal... loud & clear...

and this will only happen in post-
christian protestant countries...
this liberal reading
of the nag hammadi library?
**** me! this can't end well...

so you think you can have
a liberal reading of
the nag hammadi texts -
and expect the muslim to not come?
of course they'll be fed
     the lie that western males
are infertile, and that western
women are infertile...

the texts have been hidden for
2000 years, in urns, in
some abandoned bin laden-esque
caves for 2000 years...

so you want to release this
heretical propaganda into society
with the authority of the church?
you sure?
     you sure?
   i'm not surprised why this also
translates as: oi! bruv! ali!
encourage ahmed to come on over!

this is the: ******* nadir of
the: shephred's luck -
the guy who found these texts...
by the way?
   the dead sea scrolls have nothing
to do with the nag hammadi library...

so you're telling me,
that they burned the library
of alexandria... for this?!
   you read this crap?
                  
the dead sea scrolls rever to isaiah...
not jesus...
         isaiah? cut in half, at the abdomen...

but no... oh now, why should we even
consider an idea of a father -
some abstract entity as a well-meaning
priest...
          let's do away with fathers
altogether...
                 freeze our eggs,
turn us into quasi-iceland...
   take to one *****-donor,
   and then watch the rain of
partial limbs and limbos of down syndrome
kids playing the cute role...

but you take a liberal reading
of the texts, prior to the church: mind you,
they were so ******* slow to read
the texts and state some authority
as to owning them...
     believe me... the whole
da vinci code myth is a load of *******...
you can burn that library,
but keep the marbles...
   it's worthless: the cogs are already
in motion...

why do you think the muslims have
suddenly retaliated? don't listen to
the theological mongrels of baghdad...
western men aren't infertile,
but western women are: by being fickle...
oh jee-zoo-sussy said so...
   you give the nag hammadi library
into the hands of the mob,
or liberal priests in america:
you're going to get a hell-hole...
   i just don't see why europe has to pay...
when the actual debt, belongs
to americans... and their fooooooooo
king jesus belt evengelists! ROT!

oh, by the way, thanks for the soundtrack...
**** feels greeeet, like a silk-bound suit
in purple, while listening to
dry **** logic's song rot...

but you know... i'm starting to think...
mmm... what was it... grenfell tower...
i'm thinking grenfell tower + anders breivik...
why were most of the residents in
the grenfell tower muslims?
                 ooh... a conspiracy theory!
let me in... so, johnny... what happened?
   ah you know mate,
  bombs are quick... takes a few minutes
to barbeque a cinnamon ***...
       plus... bombs leave no screams...
just a defeaning ring in your ear...
  fire? ha ha! you can hear them and that
translates into terror in the eyes of on-lookers!
ha ha!

this is for disrespecting the authority
of the church, and leaving the nag hammadi
library in the hands of idiotic liberals.
The road before him unfolds broken and chaotic
Much as the thoughts running through his mind
With beauty beheld, but never to be held
While wading through limbos and waiting out time
A little worse for wear with heart upon sleeve
An unending poem often void of rhyme
A heart full of love with no lover to bleed to
Unrested and weary despite all he’s tried

Many years he’s spent trying, just to keep trying harder
Many years he’s spent waiting, just to wait a spell more
So often growing tired of both trying and waiting
When both prove for things never meant to be more
Wondering which dreams to follow despite all his failures
Still learning not all dreams are meant to come true
Which is hard for a dreamer who dreams most in waking
When the only thing learned is he hasn’t a clue
Diary of the ****** - Chapter 2
Como cenizas, como mares poblándose,
en la sumergida lentitud, en lo informe,
o como se oyen desde el alto de los caminos
cruzar las campanadas en cruz,
teniendo ese sonido ya aparte del metal,
confuso, pesando, haciéndose polvo
en el mismo molino de las formas demasiado lejos,
o recordadas o no vistas,
y el perfume de las ciruelas que rodando a tierra
se pudren en el tiempo, infinitamente verdes.

Aquello todo tan rápido, tan viviente,
inmóvil sin embargo, como la polea loca en sí misma,
esas ruedas de los motores, en fin.
Existiendo como las puntadas secas en las costuras del árbol,
callado, por alrededor, de tal modo,
mezclando todos los limbos sus colas.
Es que de dónde, por dónde, en qué orilla?
El rodeo constante, incierto, tan mudo,
como las lilas alrededor del convento,
o la llegada de la muerte a la lengua del buey
que cae a tumbos, guardabajo y cuyos cuernos quieren sonar.

Por eso, en lo inmóvil, deteniéndose, percibir,
entonces, como aleteo inmenso, encima,
como abejas muertas o números,
ay, lo que mi corazón pálido no puede abarcar,
en multitudes, en lágrimas saliendo apenas,
y esfuerzos humanos, tormentas,
acciones negras descubiertas de repente
como hielos, desorden vasto,
oceánico, para mí que entro cantando
como con una espada entre indefensos.

Ahora bien, de qué está hecho ese surgir de palomas
que hay entre la noche y el tiempo, como una barranca húmeda?
Ese sonido ya tan largo
que cae listando de piedras los caminos,
más bien, cuando sólo una hora
crece de improviso, extendiéndose sin tregua.

Adentro del anillo del verano
una vez los grandes zapallos escuchan,
estirando sus plantas conmovedoras,
de eso, de lo que solicitándose mucho,
de lo lleno, obscuros de pesadas gotas.
Así como en la roca nunca vemos
La clara flor abrirse,
Entre un pueblo hosco y duro
No brilla hermosamente
El fresco y alto ornato de la vida.
Por esto te mataron, porque eras
Verdor en nuestra tierra árida
Y azul en nuestro oscuro aire.
Leve es la parte de la vida
Que como dioses rescatan los poetas.
El odio y destrucción perduran siempre
Sordamente en la entraña
Toda hiel sempiterna del español terrible,
Que acecha lo cimero
Con su piedra en la mano.
Triste sino nacer
Con algún don ilustre
Aquí, donde los hombres
En su miseria sólo saben
El insulto, la mofa, el recelo profundo
Ante aquel que ilumina las palabras opacas
Por el oculto fuego originario.
La sal de nuestro mundo eras,
Vivo estabas como un rayo de sol,
Y ya es tan sólo tu recuerdo
Quien yerra y pasa, acariciando
El muro de los cuerpos
Con el dejo de las adormideras
Que nuestros predecesores ingirieron
A orillas del olvido.
Si tu ángel acude a la memoria,
Sombras son estos hombres
Que aún palpitan tras las malezas de la tierra;
La muerte se diría
Más viva que la vida
Porque tú estás con ella,
Pasado el arco de tu vasto imperio,
Poblándola de pájaros y hojas
Con tu gracia y tu juventud incomparables.
Aquí la primavera luce ahora.
Mira los radiantes mancebos
Que vivo tanto amaste
Efímeros pasar junto al fulgor del mar.
Desnudos cuerpos bellos que se llevan
Tras de sí los deseos
Con su exquisita forma, y sólo encierran
Amargo zumo, que no alberga su espíritu
Un destello de amor ni de alto pensamiento.
Igual todo prosigue,
Como entonces, tan mágico,
Que parece imposible
La sombra en que has caído.
Mas un inmenso afán oculto advierte
Que su ignoto aguijón tan sólo puede
Aplacarse en nosotros con la muerte,
Como el afán del agua,
A quien no basta esculpirse en las olas,
Sino perderse anónima
En los limbos del mar.
Pero antes no sabías
La realidad más honda de este mundo:
El odio, el triste odio de los hombres,
Que en ti señalar quiso
Por el acero horrible su victoria,
Con tu angustia postrera
Bajo la luz tranquila de Granada,
Distante entre cipreses y laureles,
Y entre tus propias gentes
Y por las mismas manos
Que un día servilmente te halagaran.
Para el poeta la muerte es la victoria;
Un viento demoníaco le impulsa por la vida,
Y si una fuerza ciega
Sin comprensión de amor
Transforma por un crimen
A ti, cantor, en héroe,
Contempla en cambio, hermano,
Cómo entre la tristeza y el desdén
Un poder más magnánimo permite a tus amigos
En un rincón pudrirse libremente.
Tenga tu sombra paz,
Busque otros valles,
Un río donde del viento
Se lleve los sonidos entre juncos
Y lirios y el encanto
Tan viejo de las aguas elocuentes,
En donde el eco como la gloria humana ruede,
Como ella de remoto,
Ajeno como ella y tan estéril.
Halle tu gran afán enajenado
El puro amor de un dios adolescente
Entre el verdor de las rosas eternas;
Porque este ansia divina, perdida aquí en la tierra,
Tras de tanto dolor y dejamiento,
Con su propia grandeza nos advierte
De alguna mente creadora inmensa,
Que concibe al poeta cual lengua de su gloria
Y luego le consuela a través de la muerte.
brandon nagley Jun 2015
To be?
Or not to be?
A slave who seeketh heavenly aimer!!!

For shalt I dare?

Still waiting in limbos fate!
Más allá de la impaciencia
de los mares enojados la tranquila
indiferencia de los limbos irisados
y la plácida existencia
de los monstruos no soñados...

Más allá de la violencia
de ciclones y tornados,
la inmutable trasparencia
de los cielos estrellados...

Más allá del río insano
de la vida, del bullir
pasional, el Océano
Pacífico del morir,
con su gris onda severa,
con su inmensa espalda inerte
que no azota volandera
brisa alguna...

               
¡Y mi galera
de ébano y plata, se advierte
sola, en el mar sin ribera
de la Muerte!
¿Encontrará la ciencia las almas de los muertos
un día, y a la angustia y el llanto que los van
buscando, del Enigma por los limbos inciertos,
responderá la boca del abismo: "Aquí están"?

¿Descubriremos ondas etéreas que transmitan
a los desaparecidos la voz de nuestro amor,
y habrá para lo que ellos decirnos necesitan
algún maravilloso y oculto receptor?

¡Oh milagro, tu sola perspectiva nos pasma!
Pero ¿qué hay imposible para la voluntad
del hombre, que a su antojo tenaz todo lo plasma?
¡Ante el imperativo del genio, mi fantasma
tendrás que devolverme por fuerza, Eternidad!
Asha Kimo Dec 2019
A river falls across my face
The story's mine but someone says
To seek into that dark deep place
Which held the tears that weren't in place
But locks won't lock without a key
So now I'm stuck with misery
She's made herself my company
At this dreadful table set for three
But when I peek right to my left
The empty spot has now been fed
With the souls that can't be led
Righteous paths their journeys dead
So now their lonely lives they'll shed

A river bleeds onto my face
It caused my voice to drown again
Because of this I go astray
And pave a path that I can gain
I'll walk across that endless road
And rewrite histories foul code
But blindingly I went too far
And ended up in limbos heart
Where Satan dwells and waits for prey
The trap he set will catch the fray
But when he shuts his evil eye
Our world will purge his truthful lies
With nothing but our minds insane
He reaps the sorrow that's brought shame
For judgment day has long been came
When God designed this fixed chess game
He made our lives the lowly stake
a higher price will come his way
With kings and queens on royal slings
The knights protect misguided beings
And fortress castles built of flames
Hide the bishops sins and shames
Two faced souls come out to play
When demons have their long due day
As we the pawns become their hunted prey

A rivers flows into my heart
He steals the path that i have wrought
My soul has left his web is caught
The silk I've webbed has played the part
He left a darkness I can't forsake
And everytime I try to wake
The dark abyss is hard to take
With sinful songs of things so deep
They sing the life they wish to keep
The Devil cries a silent weep
My mind is torn I won't Believe
For every black sheep wears a sheet
That masks the scent of their deceit
The eyes will see what's there to see
And leave us blind so helplessly

A river ran into the sky
And chased the angels that have died
He wrote their sins with bright white tears
Into the nights with spots of fear
Connect the dots and you will see
The stories that will never be
Our knowledge taught so miserably
For man knows only his history
But what about that vast big land
That shelters demons till the end
They sit and wait for our approach
Never knowing we have been coached
On what to say and what to do
But we take ourselves for a fool
We can't control what we can't see
So open eyes it's time you see
Emotions aren't what's really real
But what's inside can never heal
Until you've played it's all surreal

A river tired to be my friend
He told me secrets of the end
He whispered lies like they were true
And I believed and missed the clues
A foe's a friend that's never seen
What lies awaiting behind the scenes
So when you share your deepest thoughts
Don't forget who else will watch
For Devil sends his lustful crew
To destroy the ones who always do
His ***** work and that is You
So be aware of what's not there
It's the only way you will survive
If you clutch your sanity as if it lives
It becomes a piece of broken steel
And builds a wall around your heart
So the lonely you can never part
Yet like a snake it winds and winds
And chokes the life you thought was right
A wrongs a wrong that can never be
So believe the pain you stay to fight
Even though it tried to flee
The battle starts when you start to see

A river cried again today
He slashed the chains that held his pain
He threw away the good he felt
And only honor hang from his belt
The lonely man that never saw
Was kind to Evil manipulative thoughts
And even if no war was ever fought
Our sinful ways will bring the drought
And like the desert dry with bones
The rightful way is never sought
If wrongs a thing that feels so good
Then why do we blame wrong for good
Mistakenly we followed words
Of those before us that never could
Prove the history they swear was true
Prove the lessons they say we should,
Have learned from yesterday’s past mistakes
When tomorrow comes our lives at stake
And today can only come for sake
Yours or mine it’s all the same
Humankind must share the blame
The fault was yours or so they say
History coded our lives for fame
Destiny was paths we took
Led astray we fed the hook
And now our lives is it a book
One page forward write the hook
Never judge the cover or the back
You need to know all the facts
Unless you read it won’t make sense
So go ahead and take the chance
I wrote this poem to have a different point of view if you start to read from the very last sentence and work your way up. So read it both ways and see what you think
Mateuš Conrad Sep 2018
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  there's always
a convergence of two numbers
in sudoku...

that's how this Japanese
pazuru
    "bokkusu"
works...

i drink, i'm solving these
puzzles drunk,
  i have a limit for what
is "respectable":

   i'm  not competing...
i prefer discovering the theory...
and the theory says...

i am no genius,
i'm just patient...
    leave the fiendish level puzzles
for the child genius
and subsequently act out
their intellect on school bullies...

well... good luck...
   i'm not competing,
i'm relaxing -
    like my dementia riddled maternal
grandfather...

my maternal grandfather was a drunk,
his father was a drunk...
emigrated to the U.S.A.
spoke 7 languages,
was in the M.P. corp -
         was fed lies about my
great-grandfather's brother,
about his son,
to rob him (my grandfather)
of his inheritance...
my paternal grandfather was
a drunk...
   i'm a drunk...
my father isn't...
      shame it isn't me...

  disappeared with a sent postcard
from Niagara Falls...
   like a **** in the wind...

England?
  was supposed to be a stop-over...
it was supposed to
be Poland, England,
Argentina,
  U.S.A....

so i have family in the U.S.
(relations, distant cousins and ****),
would i like to visit?
   to be honest...
  i hate my family back in Poland...
when a cousin attempts to drown
you...
you start thinking about
enjoying the work ethic
of dentistry,
without the anaesthetic...
pulling a tooth out
while dislodging
an arm from the socket
since your tugging a
stubborn donkey...

while listen to some Led Zeppelin..
ha ha!
        
           i'll admit, i'm smiling...
because i know what drove my mother
to persuade my father to
leave the homeland...
prior to correspondance...
   she was attempting
to rekindle a writing paragraph
with her great-grandfather...
   who ****** off to the U.S....

    name?
      Joseph Żak...
              then again, it was the war...
the iron curtain...
now, "suddenly" the Silicon curtain...
   but the pazuru bokkusu?
two numbers always converge
simultaneously...
  
  with the puzzle number
   10,133 from the times?
  
[9] - [1] - [8] - [3] - [5] - [7] - [2, 4] - [6]

2 and 4 converge,
and it is always the case that two
numbers fill the grid,
simultaneously...
            
i like theory...
  and since i can't solve a crossword
puzzle to save my life...
   i guess i require an outlet
to theorize what i can solve...

**** reading the newspaper
articles...
what these "journalistic"
outlets could do,
is soften the paper quality...
so i could save some money
when needing to wipe my ***!

but thank god the autumnal
late summer chill grips the air
surrounding September,
    i need to feel bones on the tips
of my fingers,
and lose the covering of
flesh...
    i need finger numbing
sensation to overcome me...
          
        there is something quiet magical
about
entrusting yourself to the cold...
                a breath in the cold
and you swarm around
the extraction of a soul,

a death defying huddling of
the breath...
             a ghost,
   in the immediate setting of
a pseudo-foggery;
  
don't get me started on witnessing
snow fall under a street-lamp,
next to a graveyard,
at night...

             can't think of any other
aphrodisiac...
well... there is one...
picking strawberries with
a peasant girl...
   thinking of pheasants and
*****, yet discrete
crows... who never managed
to do the outright
voyeurism tactic of
pigeons bound to the daylight
hours...

         beauty is only beauty,
when it's mandible,
and not shackled into a western
style Niqab...
          porcelain girls...
these beauties of the north...
  jaws and wrists like
bone limbos...
  stiffened by egos bloated
up like parachutes,
extending off giraffe necks...

             **** me...
i'm the odd one out...
i've taken to 17th or 18th century
apertiffs
        of a woman's closure
in terms of body...
   plump legs, bosoms and torsos...
hence my subsequent rejection
of modern ****...
i prefer classic paintings...

body shaming or rather no
shaming to begin with,
if there's no female to encrust
a genesis with / of...

                   come winter,
come,
come winter,
                  come my sunlit heart!  
and that Russian joke about
couples,
  and playing chess during
the "hibernating" months
as the solid and only escapade...

                   summer...
what a ******* dull enterprise of
what best breeds in said summer months...
bacteria and viruses...

         falling snow under
a street light next to a graveyard?
and then walking through the graveyard,
trying to spot
a few graveyard hyenas
(men who sleep in graveyards
after alcohol binges?) -
              
cruel mother, winter,
                       mother of all.
Aaron Oct 2020
Everything exists
And nothing is real
Limbos in vacant doors
Portals in thin place within space
Simulated textures
Entropy
Apathy
Within your brain's atrophy
Mind made a body rot
I'll see you in hell
Your dexterity
to keep moving from shadows
Sun burns your wings
Its soon
Psychotic
Remember what you saw,
Unlikely it seemed
Aliens got you
Time ago
Missed a beat

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