"gaurded" poems
Do you remember that night out by my car.
Daddys Caddy,
bright in the moonlight.
A home for our words, carefully choosen,
sometimes not.
A mutual ground.
A safehaven for thoughts too bold for sunlight.
The darkness helped us, I think.
Protected us from seeing too much,
when too much was being said.
Maybe I was a little drunk.
Thats all it took, some liquid courage,
for you to know that I was sorry.
You touched me then.
Not a "I just want to **** you" touch.
You felt me, deep inside.
You knew the claws of a beast were tearing me down.
Not one that could be tamed,
and could only be suppressed for so long.
He was there and you saw him,
clear in my eyes.
Usually gaurded, fighting him back.
But there he was,
pompous as any.
Jabbing me in the ribs,
"I told you I would get out"
There he was teeth beared and all,
ready to rip me down
right in front of you.
Right in front of my Daddys Caddy.
Claws, teeth and lies.
Sep 10, 2012
Sep 10, 2012 at 11:45 PM UTC
Sitting and waiting for words to come.
Impatience my Gatekeeper
Nothing leaves, nothing comes through.
Gaurded so well,
the kingdom withers within.
Words reject force.
Truth has no manipulator, its master is none.
It darts and evades,
like the most precious of prey.
As the predator starves for its ****
Sep 2, 2018
Sep 2, 2018 at 4:37 PM UTC
Somewhere within the silence of sound...
Somewhere within the distance of eternity...
Somewhere beyond the borders of the next universe...
lies a darksome note.
A darksome note laced with supernatural black ice.
A note hidden in a darkroom.
A sacred cryptex gaurded by ancient entities...
the same ancient entities that witnessed the inception of illumination.
We are all doomed.
Gene
Jun 5, 2013
Jun 5, 2013 at 7:37 PM UTC
I think I fall in love a
Little bit with anyone
who shows me their soul.
This world is so gaurded
And fearful.. I apprieciate
Rawness So much
Jun 28, 2014
Jun 28, 2014 at 5:04 AM UTC
Cursed to rot in the dungeons hell
& a whole life of jihad upon to dwell
dazed in the shadows of a well gaurded cell
lies in his own filth still
slaughtered innocent lives , hoped for bliss
now regrets his choices,
"should've never belived those voices "
"who taught me to take live "
"to heavens you'll reach they lied "
Dec 22, 2012
Dec 22, 2012 at 1:54 PM UTC
If She Ever Cry
You we're always,
Wondering if these;
People are crazy,
Your ex is a beast.
How can they say;
These thangs bout him;
Being a 'gentlemen'?
Your atempts,
To commit suicide,
Was never to pass,
I know it's hard,
To leave,
Cause that *****
Be holding you,
To a leash.
Shawty stop pretending;
Pretending to smile,
Cause I see,
Your pain,
Would end,
To be a testamony,
To peepz.
Whenever I see,
You smile,
My heart cries,
For you girl,
I can see,
You need life,
Your stuck,
In a 4-cornerd room,
With 3-walls,
A voice so small,
I know that trigga[life],
Hard to pull,
But just push,
Through to the end,
That *****
Will get hurt.
For God,
Never sleeps,
He forever,
Has your soul gaurded.
Shawty your worth,
More than all
.... THIS .....
Written by
Austin KwAgGa Trimmel
Nov 21, 2014
Nov 21, 2014 at 11:11 PM UTC
Your uncontrollable
Your strong
Your heart is gaurded
But it's like you
Uncontrolleable
I love how you know who you are
It's what makes you
A mystery
Because Your the only one who knows
The storms I'm your eyes
Rage, as a reflection
Of the swirling storm inside
Uncontrolled
Out of control
And like you
UNCONTROLLABLE
Jan 7, 2014
Jan 7, 2014 at 1:17 PM UTC
I will paint a white silhouette of innocence around your eyes
you will stay safe and well gaurded between this black barrier of lies
pour a couple more shots of whiskey in my mouth and I will tell you my story through this never ending high
we can speak of all the goodbyes
and the never ending hellos
life, and moisty white sand in between our toes
how I left a quarter of my heart and a couple of limbs in that blue and yellow taxi back home in my original country
and how everytime I drink water in the morning I gag
I'll remind myself of that time in highschool if I told you, hm
you would laugh
our laughs come and go either way are split in half
I loved the smell of fresh orange peels on your fingers
did you have to let it linger
step outside Im on your front porch
half the grass is dead the sky is blue with a few scattered clouds
and theres a rainbow on it written
the dice never rolled on anything more than one
I have finished this chapter of my life, Im done
Nov 2, 2010
Nov 2, 2010 at 8:50 PM UTC
Knowing how deep the ocean
You still tested the waters
Swimming so well with the motion
Almost getting slaughtered
Why do you still proceed?
Knowing the possible dangers
Of these deeply troubled seas
Now we are no longer strangers
And you continue to tread on
The ocean's waves hitting hard
But you keep fighting past dawn
And the ocean considers its guard
The ocean nears defeat
And willingly lets you in
Now feeling incomplete
But you now are within
This ocean's gaurded heart
Knowing every twist and turn
Wishing to never to be apart
Knowing this feeling is certain
You contain the ocean in your hands
And yet you yearn to nourish
Knowing no one else understands
Wanting nothing but for it to flourish
Sep 3, 2012
Sep 3, 2012 at 1:17 AM UTC
I look down to my hands
and feet
fingers and my toes
I often wondered
how are those
so physically able?
when my heart trembles
mumbles, and stumbles
with its broken beats
it’s not capable to handle
another careless keeper
to not drop it, scrape it
crush the remains
then hand it back to me
I’m steel gaurded with a key
don’t ask me to let you in
just for me to believe
then have you hand me
another broken piece of my
still constructing heart
that no longer beats
compassionately for a true love
with all it’s mishappen
sewed up, and bandaged,
cracked, crumbling, bruised
beauty
I am vulnerable
but not weak
I am strong
no longer naive
Don’t let me Believe
Let me see
proof is through actions that
speak
words are nothing but
pretty wrappings
charming but hiding
something within their
nice packaging
I’ve learned from my past
the mistakes have imprinted
at long last
not to trust a pretty smile
and perfect teeth
because the ugliness
is buried deep
it’s in a dark soul
A pretender masked
with an angel’s face
Dec 6, 2011
Dec 6, 2011 at 10:08 AM UTC
For you to know how i truely feel,
you must look at the side thats gaurded by steal,
I loved you first that is true, no other girl,
But only you, you showed me the truthe, that you
hid for so long, You hid your love, and now
you are long gone
Dec 28, 2012
Dec 28, 2012 at 8:13 PM UTC
Gaurded mind,
caged heart,
hit by cupid's dart,
and feelings unwind,
Jun 9, 2020
Jun 9, 2020 at 10:29 AM UTC
I'm letting go
I need to move on
I need to be free
And, yes, I need to fly.
I'm not a caged bird
I don't have wings.
I don't have feathers or black eyes
I don't get to take to the sky.
But I can get into my car
I can take to the highways.
I can move faster than you.
Yes, my Ford is old, but your Chevy has broken down.
My heart is closed and gaurded by walls.
There is no way for you to get it back.
Can I express to you that I no longer care?
Feel free to let me be.
I'm going to drive down to the Alabama coast
I'm going to pick up shells on the Gulf Coast shore.
I'm gonna dance with a boy that I won't have to think about changing his mind.
I will let my feet sink into the sand.
I'm not a caged bird
I don't have wings.
I don't have feathers or black eyes
I don't get to take to the sky.
No, but arms can carry me in the waves
I can move with the currents and not get dragged under.
My legs can move me running on the shore.
I don't have to worry because all my worries fall.
So, please, by the gods, let me be.
Let me go free.
May 29, 2013
May 29, 2013 at 8:57 PM UTC
Crimson clear, drawing a flower viscous. Dreamt and unkempt rallying with the day, hollows gaurded by infinity whispering to you, nigh and high swatting about with newspaper rolled, passing with everything thing else i know or knew. Never really matter, never even happen the way we thought anyway. Wisdom draws the curtain back, locks up the answers the doors turns back and leaves you to your own device. Magnetic polarization and happiness take sides seriously, and we just keep going along with it all...
Apr 16, 2015
Apr 16, 2015 at 11:29 AM UTC
Meet me before the sun comes up.
Before that ball of hydrogen dissolves,
what ever fog led us here in the night.
You spoke and wept and yelled.
The mist offered a chance
to see into your gaurded depths.
We found disclosure in the bottom
of a bottle again, but in the day
we’re distant for the knowledge.
Oct 27, 2014
Oct 27, 2014 at 1:19 AM UTC
You say the sweetest things,
And keep me attatched.
I give you my heart,
And forget the past.
We share a moment,
I feel so lucky,
That i get to have you
This means to much to me.
I walk down the hallway,
So see the same,
You With another girl,
And you say her name.
But what about me?
What about what we shared?
Did you forget what you said?
Now Im scared.
I hold back the water,
About to drip from my eye.
I was so gaurded
And you were my only guy.
I only saw you.
I feel betrayed,
Lied to and beaten up,
Its me who needs some space.
I see you with her,
And my heart breaks.
I dont know what to feel,
I dont know what it takes,
To be with you.
I dont know
if i want to be with you.
Because...
You hurt me.
Mar 28, 2014
Mar 28, 2014 at 2:47 PM UTC
With such a scare she ran in to the
fight with such a light
that With this might she will always be Im in to deep
The guarded one walks into the light
For her part in the apothecary fight
No one can stop this might
the guarded one
No one is stronger
No one is a better fight than her
Her angle seeks the death of her
but cant Come know closer
than a foot away
his love for her will take over
he will brake
so he stays in the dark
lingering till she needs his help
once is all she has to call his name
he will come
Nov 30, 2014
Nov 30, 2014 at 1:15 PM UTC