You taught me how to love and for that I'm thankful
You taught me how to fall out of love
You taught me what a love shouldn't be like
You taught how I wanted be treated
Even if it meant stripping me of my dignity
You taught me how I wanted to be loved
Even if it is in the least loving way
You taught me what I deserved
Even if it takes years to realize

Dark Coffee for my dark day
Dark Coffee for my dark soul
Dark Coffee for my dark heart
Dark Coffee for the dark Pollutants that surround us
Dark Coffee for the dark Media that swarms us
Dark Coffee For the dark Mind
Dark Coffee for your dark Energy
Dark Coffee for your dark Words
Dark Coffee for your dark Eyes

Sometimes I lie awake at night and imagine
oozing blood from the inside out
more peaceful than I have ever felt
lying there
dripping from every possible crevice
feeling it seep beneath
absorbing the fabric underneath me
like lighting a paper on fire, burning up all at once, evaporating into thin ashes, until it becomes
nothing.

Do you remember me....
Does the image of the fear in my eyes stick in your head?
Does the sound of my sobs still echo through your bed?
Does the feeling of my lifeless body against yours still make you tingle?
Does it make you happy you're the reason I'm single?
Now let me ask again, **do you remember me?

I have grown up in the same house most of my life
15 years ago I stood on the pavement of my driveway
Learning how to hula hoop for the first time
Meeting my next door neighbors

15 years later I stand on the pavement looking down
I can't help but think how much it saw
How many people have walked on it
Friends, family, acquaintances, random handymen, or FedEx people

I wonder how many heartbreaks its seen
How many tears have been shed
How many skinned knees have happened

Today I stood on the pavement and wondered how many more heartbreaks
people
tears
skinned knees it has left to see

How many more years this pavement would have with me
With my family

I stood on this pavement wondering how the time was ticking
How this pavement has maybe 5 years left with me

*With the footsteps of my family.