I'm all alone here in my room,
but the voices dance in my head,
singing me that convincing tune,
telling me it's time...
                   go ahead,
                   release the red.

I feel the
worst
when I'm
alone

                           because
                                  
that's when                            
the monsters                
in my                      
head                      
say                      
                          
                           hello.

I want to be alone but at the same time I don’t.
I remember this feeling.
Seeing all my friends out and having fun,
wishing I could do that too.
Wishing I could be apart of it.
But my brain just panics and says
"No, you have to stay here."
I need to stay here.
I need to stay alone in my room.
I need to stay alone.

Much adored is the dead poet

Within the glass case
Away from dirt
Amongst the books pressed
Rests his heart

Such was the silence he dreamed
When words streamed
Like riverine flow
In all might arose
Seeking the order in chaos

Orderly bound now his name
In peace standing behind wooden frame
Yet with the ceaseless commotion of wait...

Much adored rests the dead poet.

I wasn't born handsome
Clever or smart.
I have a mean streak
Some say I have no heart.
My Ex Wife says I'm moody
My mood changes daily.
Sometimes I'm not right in the head
Man I'm just crazy.
My Ex thinks I'm nuts
She says I'm mentally unstable.
I was a terrible husband
But as a father
She said I was more than able.
Our breakup brought out harsh feelings
We argue, fuss & fight.
Being married was hell
But being a father felt so right.
I love my children
For them I was ALWAYS there.
They knew from the depths of their hearts
That their Daddy really cares.
Walked them to & from school
They were with me all the time.
I am so proud of my children
I am so BLESSED that they are mine.
I am not in their lives right now
Because of my past mistakes.
This separation from them is painful
The worst kind of heartache.
God I'm begging you
Please let me be in their life.
Make things better
Between me & my Ex Wife.
My children are the best thing
You ever gave me.
They are my link to you
Yours & their Love
Is the only thing that can save me.
I'm miserable all the time
I feel pain deep in my soul.
I cry all the time
I've lost total control.
God please hear my pleas
My soul is crying out.
Everything is taken from me
But my children I can't live without.
If this is how it's going to be
Lord take me today.
If my kids are gone from me
I don't want to live anyway.
*God Please Let Me Be A Father