****,
I,
I,
I love you.
It probably looks odd
but you have a way
of making me stammer.
Stumble over words
like
my toes got caught under a throw rug
I'm a disaster flick with a grizzly ending,
When it comes to you,
I know up from down
The moon shines brighter
The water I drink tastes more crisp.
I was alive and well before you.
But because of the things you've done as a friend,
I'm living.
I'm free.
Maybe,
I'm getting ahead of myself.
Tonight,
ended like you say
you
want nights to end.
With you in your bed,
Me on the couch.
From here I can't hear you breath
Or
Feel your warmth,
However,
I can send you my love.
I can still do all the things I would have from my bed.
The only difference is
My heart aches a lot more,
Why wouldn't it?
The woman I love,
The north star in my life
My best friend,
The woman I can laugh with
The woman I can sing for
The woman whom I would die for
The woman i swear I'll protect
The woman who makes my face hurt,
From smiling,
The kindest,
Silliest,
Smartest,
Sexiest,
Most honest,
Most loving,
Most caring
Most talented woman I will ever know,
Is laying forty feet away,
Tucked neatly in her blanket
Behind closed eyes and doors.
I love you.
God, I ******* love you.
I'm so in love with you.
I just can't formulate a rhyme
Or a metaphor
Or A simile
To describe it.
Rachel,
Rachel, please
I'm begging you
Let me hold you tonight.

a desire to know
every muscle
governing the movements
in your face
that bring smile
from lapsed synapse
explodes from my meridians
with your name
on the lips of every
captain to my ships
in hopes that my tired thoughts
could find a home
in a harbor not far from your heart

Okay, deep breaths. I can handle this. People do it all the
Time. And I'm a people. Alright, I've got to now enter-
God, oh god. Why, why did I even come here? Okay,,
Maybe no one will notice me if I'm away from centre.
I'll go sit in that corner. Maybe I should go talk to
People; maybe I should get up. No, it's too late.
I'm going to die here. I'm going to throw up.
Oh **** it someone's coming this way.
Maybe I'll just pretend I don't see him.
Wait, oh no. He's saying something.
Oh god, what did he say?
Okay, I'll just nod along.
Smile. Nod. I hope that
There isn't something
In my teeth.
Oh god,,
breathe.
Breathe
-Why
won't my legs stop twitching?
Oh **** it. It's in my fingers now, too.
Maybe I can just peel them away. Maybe
I can peel away my whole finger.
I could peel all the skin right off my body.
I just want to run away. My legs
ache
To run till there aren't any people around anymore.
I wish the world would
give way beneath me and swallow me whole.
If I press my feet down hard enough, maybe..
Maybe the ground will shift and
sink under my feet,
and I can go inside and never have to talk to these people again.
Oh crap when did he stop talking!?
He's just looking at me now; did he ask a question?
I should say something. He thinks I'm an idiot,
I'm sure of it.
I'll just say "yeah." Or no, wait, I'll say "cool."
<<Yool.>>
Oh great. Just **** me.