Looking at her journal
she tried to smile
perfectly knowing
all her insecurities
were written in those lines

the past that empowered her
the future that overpowered her
the guilt of sinning
the sorrows of him leaving
the burden she carried
the thoughts she hated

flipping the pages
re-reading the past
she could travel swiftly
back to the days
where she felt broken apart

it was strange
to cherish her broken life
she looked at her journal
and confusingly smiled

the agony of present
the unknown future
she realised that night
the brutality of life

Past was her enemy
that she won with pride
respected herself for conquering that fight

in that rainy night
she looked at Almighty
and whispered to let her win
all the battles
for rest of her life.

Those who dare
to live on their own terms
invite enemies
across the world

silence is preferred
yet,
lonely I feel

when I cant hear the laugh
of  some young girl inside me

Darkness surrounds those
who do not hope for light.

She sat by the window
closing all lights
for a while forgot
all pains of life

she looked at trees
the lush green leaves
the street light behind
busy in playing hide and seek

the wind cool and calm
gently touching her face
the coolness effective in calming all hate

she looked at the sky
all the blue changing
the birds humming their songs
to wake the asleep

she turned to the corner
and glanced at the street
where lies her hope and fear
together sealed
with that,
her eyes looked higher than the sky
she trusted god
with her doubts and fear
silently wished for the best

All this she felt
on that day
watching the sunrise.

The way I was replaced from your life
is painful,
yet
I am grateful
because my replacement
changed you
in someone
I always aspired you to be...

Trusting oneself is the greatest power.

the worst feeling
is to
fall down
when you are
used to
soaring high

My best friend called me weird
my mom yelled too
they say I am weird
and I thought it true

I started faking myself
I started hating myself
a journey to become normal
started like that

that day
I looked at the mirror
couldn't recognize myself
in that "normal" journey
I
Lost Myself

an unexpected quest
starts now
to
Find Myself

Falling in love with you was destiny
not letting you go is a choice
it hurts more than one can imagine
yet,
it's pristine as white
you never did wrong
and I never did right
I fell in love with you
perfectly knowing
you were never mine.

I long to remember 'US'
without pain.

All she wanted
was to be understood
the way she did others

All she wanted
was someone to comprehend
the pain behind her smile
and longing in her eyes

All she wanted
was to be loved
the way she did love
unconditionally

Some smiles
hide remorse of sinning
and
regret of letting go

I decided to stop
thinking of how I felt
I thought it was destiny that made me a fool of myself
forgetting was harder
so I started to pretend
I never won this war
of letting go
but,
God knows I tried;
turned away from our memories
but all in vain
the past still gives me hope
sometimes it feels like never letting go
you are everywhere
whether I like it or not
the more I move on
the more I am dragged back
all I want to know is
if this is destiny or coincidence.