there are so many of you
that i would love to sit down with;
maybe over a milkshake and a plate of fries;
and just talk.
i want to ask you about the boy that hurt you,
about the anger you feel deep inside
over a father who said he’d come back...
and then didn’t.
i want to run with you through pages of words and say
“oh that’s right, what a lovely metaphor.”
i want to see all your smiling faces and
thank each and every one of you for showing me kindness,
for saving my life.
i want to collaborate on novels of poetry
and laugh with you through the tears of our pasts.
so until we sip those milkshakes and eat those fries...
thank you, to
some of the most beautiful people i have never met.

I’ve loved you when I didn’t love myself
You loved me but you only loved yourself
I did everything for you
My heart and soul bled for you
Leaving blood marks on the sidewalks
But you let the wind blow it away
And you choose to see what you wanted
Some of you thinking, this is about my boyfriend
But listen, best friends can break your heart too.
She stuck that knife so deep in my back
There’s no way in hell Im ever going back
I took care of you cuz that’s what friends do
But I like I said, you only loved yourself

I can’t trust my heart because she betrays me.
I can’t trust my brain because it won’t tell me what I need.
They go back and forth.
The only thing I have constant in my life is a pen and paper.
They never let me believe something else.
Everything in front of me is black and white.
I trust my pen and paper.