I’ve loved you when I didn’t love myself
You loved me but you only loved yourself
I did everything for you
My heart and soul bled for you
Leaving blood marks on the sidewalks
But you let the wind blow it away
And you choose to see what you wanted
Some of you thinking, this is about my boyfriend
But listen, best friends can break your heart too.
She stuck that knife so deep in my back
There’s no way in hell Im ever going back
I took care of you cuz that’s what friends do
But I like I said, you only loved yourself

I can’t trust my heart because she betrays me.
I can’t trust my brain because it won’t tell me what I need.
They go back and forth.
The only thing I have constant in my life is a pen and paper.
They never let me believe something else.
Everything in front of me is black and white.
I trust my pen and paper.

I’m the invisible friend.
The one where everyone tells their problems to.
The one where everyone comes to for advice.
The one where everyone comes to for research.
The one where everyone’s goes to for fun time or random adventures.
The one where if I need a lending ear I’m alone.
The one where if I want to cry I find a corner.
The one where if I want to eat I eat alone.
The one where if I want to talk I better find my notebook & pen.
The invisible friend,
Always needed, never wanted.

If he leaves you
Let him go
Because when you fight for him,
It’s not a fight for love
It’s a fight for your own obsession
Love is being happy together,
Not possessing each other happiness.

To be ignored is a gift
To be heard is a sin
For if your words cause death
Would it not be better to be a ghost
Neither seen nor heard
Never giving joy
And never causing grief
Forever transparent

She had a heart of gold
So beautiful and bold
Eyes that drew you in
Not looking felt like a sin
Steps as light as dust
Looking was a must
Smile that broke your guard
Not staring was just too hard