Collections of my disorderly thoughts
gathered together with knots
of my ample desire
to make sense of my everyday life.

When you love someone
you'd do anything to protect them.
To make them happy and feel loved.
You would do anything to see them smile,
and keep the tears away.

Their
trust,
love
and respect
is reward enough.

If you really love someone,
hurting them would be impossible,
it would **** you just to think about it.

So my question is.....

....... Does he Really Love me?

I remember every single thing
Our first date
Hazelnut ice coffee;Nutella donut
your favorite
You were smiling from ear to ear with that handsome grin
Second date
Sitting in your car
Under the bridge
Telling you my deepest secrets
Hand in hand
Introduced to your friends
Anxiety ridden but safe
That became the beginning of us

I’ve always felt at home
So I let down my walls
built a home inside of you
I let you guard that door
I was living in a dream
Then
Came the storm
Barreling down our house
The walls began to tumble
As depression conquered my mind
I tried to hide but you could see through
You began feeling sorry, guilty
Like you couldn’t walk out that door
when all you wanted to do was
Demolish this house, our house
So I opened the door for you
You stood there, contemplating
You walked right through
You locked the door
Threw out the key
Never to return again
This was the story of us.

You told me
Take my hand
Close my eyes and jump
Taking a leap of pure faith
Landing with a gentle thump

You told me
I'll teach you how to fly
Soaring high above the clouds
Far away from this little town
To a place you can stand proud

You told me
I will love you forever
Building a life of just us two
A fabricated lie so sweet
But from the beginning I always knew

You told me
Trust in me
I would never betray you
Oh how I wish those words were true
I held such hope but you never seemed to come through

You told me
I will give you the world
Every single piece of you too
But clearly the world you speak of
Is a creation of pure taboo

You promised me
So very many things
But all I ever wanted
Was to spread my own wings

I wanted to fly
With you by my side
Just as you promised
But its okay that you lied

You gave me hope
Where all seemed dim
You were my light
No matter how grim

And so I told you
Goodbye my friend
Through a roaring storm
Casting away the skies
This is where our tragic love
Dies.