he tried to pull me on the bottom. but i don't wanna to be choken.
i wanna fly like a butterfly,
i want to enjoy my life.
he tried to push me in the darknest.
but i don't wanna to be lost.
i wanna be in lightfull,
i wanna be in love

i'm ready, i'm ready, i'm ready,
i'm ready to be loved,
i'm ready to be cared,
i'm ready to be needed,
i'm ready be respectfull,
i'm ready be enough,
i'm ready for the real life,
i'm ready, i'm ready, i'm ready.
i'm ready for the love,
i'm ready, i was waiting long enough

your love were just destructive.
it's broke me fully in the parts.
it was a crash, it was a smash,
it's hurts, destroyed me.
it's grinded me in ash.
i was rebuild myself for new one.

nobody bring you nothing
upon the golden plate
if you want love
you have to try this
you have to search
if you just sitting idly by.
you'll stay alone forever
everything in your arms, build.

you was just an illusion.
you don't exist at all.
i opened eyes.
and what i see?
the empty place.
i was alone all time.
you made me to believe in fantasy. i opened eyes.
it's all was lie, no more.

the lesson I was learn.
you can't make someone love you. if some don't let you in.
give in, don't try too long.
you waste your time.
just left him.
no need to try in vain. love yourself.

i'll go there where the door is open. i'll go there where someone is wait for me
i'll go there where I am a welcome. i'll go there where is heart is full of love.
i'll go somewhere where's sun is shining.
i'll go somewhere where's warmt and soft.
i'll go somewhere where is for me thouse roses.
i'll go somewhere where i am needed.

Maybe it's okay we not been
Maybe it's okay we not
Maybe i was press too tightly
maybe i was blind, not yours
maybe we some kind of different
maybe i should stop to dream
maybe i should find my place now
maybe, maybe, maybe
maybe all was just a fantasy
maybe i should open eyes
maybe you was not enough for me
maybe was am I
maybe i should staying quiet
maybe i should stop
maybe i should stop so hard to trying
maybe i should stop to ask regard
maybe all it was my dreaming
maybe i was not in yours
maybe we some kind of different
maybe it's all my efforts
why i try so hard to move a stone
maybe i should to give in
maybe i should say good bye forever
maybe i should stop to search
maybe never was in your eyes
maybe your eyes someone else's
maybe all it's just imaginary
maybe i was blind
maybe i, for you was funny
maybe i was funny guy
maybe i was jest for using
maybe i was just a fool
maybe all my feels and dreaming
maybe it's just all my faulth
maybe it's again my intuition
maybe it is blind
maybe i should stop to thinking
maybe i should stop to wait
maybe i should stop to beeing your some kind of toy
maybe i will strike all dreamings
maybe i will strike all words
which i whispered to my pillow
when i want to hold your mores
when i need you most
maybe all is just illusions
maybe i should to be real
maybe i will to be waiking, from that funny dreams
maybe it is time to leaving, maybe it is time to move, maybe it is time when my heart is healing,
maybe this is will deserve,
maybe i will stop to waiting fooly,
for your silly love

her lightly hair were hidding very shyny eyes
when look at her I see the light
when look at her white shiny skin
her cheeks is burning by color pink
her voice enough for to be heared
she was some i amazed of
she was someone i loved
she was my secret lover
i lived this life with her in closet

i will be by your side, no matter what
i will be there for you, i'll hold your hand
i will accepting you, each piece
i walking near to you, you feel my breeze
i staying by your side, it's not a lie
in hardest moment i'll looking to your eyes
i will remember our very firs  glance
i will remember how i felt then
i will be cherisht every moment and enjoy of life.

i love hugging and kissing,
i love tenderness,
i'm a sweet marshmallow

Your thoughts become reality
Be carefull to choose
Life can provoke you
Life can to make regrets
Life can tempting you
Life can to give you doubts
Be carefull, because you choose your thoughts

it's longest chain
to suit and unsuit game
a blood is burning in my vein
i climbing up on mountain top
i scream, i win, but that is not enough
you look at me with curved face
devaluation any steps
i am like Christmas tree on sunday market
my branches was decorate by garland
and everyone gives own price
they look at me like at the Christmas tree

i killed by your sweet poison.
i dropping in the ocean.
i falled in water of your lies.
i choke, have no emotions.
i killed by your sweet poison.
i killed by your sweet lies.
your coldnest and your freeze,
i am in snow of icebreath.
so don't belive, you don't believe girl.
this smile, it's nothing more than lie.

i tried too hard to please your ego. by days and nights, but not enough
i run and run and still keep running.
but never been appreciate or loved. i cannot give you how you want it. because you even doesn't know. i'm tired and my heart intoxicated by bitter poison of your words.
i cannot breath and choke inside your haze.
the darknest smoke of lies around me.
the fog is clinch so hard my lungs. i'm tired, you was broke me by ruler and your rules.

i wanna be enough.
i wanna be loved.
i wanna be accepted.
i wanna be my self.
i wanna feel free.
i wanna breath.

if you not enough, leave in the past,
if you not this one, no matter have fun,
if they were expect, be self respect, don't try to please no one,
just walk away, have fun

i tired to run and see always back. you scream come on, come on,
but never enough.
still run and run, you don't notice that i can't breath.
i tired to trying please you.
what ever i do, it's never enough for you.

will i change my mind for someone? No.
will i change my style for someone? No.
will i broke my dreams for someone? No.
will i fake for someone? No.
will i change my life for someone? Not

I forgive you, no body perfect.
But I never will come back

How do you live with lies inside your heart?
How could you live to know you love someone?
How would you live, you get this life just once.
How could you live in lies?
How could you live if everyday you lie?

nobody will run after you

if you do not take this lesson with me, you will go through it again and again with others until you learn the lesson.

if you asked for forgiveness, maybe I would forgive you.

I didn't find myself in the trash to look into your mouth and run after you.
Hope I said enough clear.

if a person does not want to be bothered or have no time for you, you need to leave alone and start own life.

not a great loss

your gun it is ignorance.
arogans it's your name.
contempt inside your veins.
you look at me from upside down. i read a scorn inside your lips.
the jeer was freezing on your eyes. you thought i'm fool?
but i am not.

you see big smile,
you see brigth eyes,
my life is look so perfect,
i know that many would be jalosy, but you just see what would i show you,
you see tatto onto my wrist and think,
oh such a beautiful,
but you don't know, why would i made tatto?
to hide my ugly scars, to forget about past, so many times i've tried to done my life with knife.
i'm happy it's a past.
i'm happy it's all done.
i was waithing too long.
i'm happy to be here now with you all,
we are strong,
we go this through,
we will be fine,
don't let's no one to hurt you.
ask for help
if someone wasn't help you,
another one will
in world so many kind and good people, not everyone are evil

if you don't accept me,
you don't accept youself,
if you don't accept yourself,
you don't love self.

i'll never fade away
whenever, where i am
in darkest place
even if whole world
want to stew my fire
i will be shine and bright
like sun, like lodestar
like candle on the table
in the dark room

With good deeds, the ability to help others, the ability to love and forgive, to create, with a good heart, an open soul, pure thoughts, nobility, benefit society and people, this is proud. Not machines, not prizes, not victories, not money, not power, no appearance.

cars, no hearts, no souls, no warmth
machineries from metal were consist.
old factories and smoke.
big cities and high-rise buildings. fake smiles, fake faces, cold nights. lonelliness and empiness.
no speach, no words.
around just masks.
just masks around me.