she was a bird.
she had a big heart.
she thought that everyone like that.
she look at world with open eyes. untill the stones were falling onto her.
she still a little bird.
but she was hurt.
her wings were bleeding.
she cannot flying anymore.
she's just a bird with broken soul. she looking at this world with open eyes still.

when violence will stop?
when will wake up this world? when evil will be gone?
when will we take masks off? when will we learn tell true?

the rain of tears is falling
the river flowing, boiling
my heart is slowly healing
my pieces get together to the one
there no more shame to crying
because while tears are falling
while tears are falling from my eyes
my heart is slowly healing
my pieces come in one.

i was broken fully
i'm healing piece by piece,
but slowly
it's long process

Of course, everyone is to blame, but not you,
cars, weather, other people, dogs, trees, cats

Oh you think
I lost,
but i win,
i win the right to be
my own,
to be myself.

little, little ego,
choking in the throat
biger, biger, biger,
little ego growed,
there's not enough
of breathing,
there's not enough
of everything,
the sun not sun,
the moon too cool,
Earth too *****,
the city too big or too small,
the dress not fit at all,
the lipstick it's too heavy on my lips,
dark smoke in my throat,
the metal ston onto my heart,
I feel each beat,
pulsation in my head

no, don’t keep me within the framework,
I’ll come out of them anyway, because I’m jelly, I’m just jelly.

what gives popularity?
today is, tomorrow is not.
It does not bring income,
it does not make you smarter,
it does not bring stable work.
who needs this popularity?
not me

What do you want?
i wanna this and those,
i wanna jump and just lay under palm tree,
i wanna those and this,
i wanna that and it,
i wanna go there and be here in same time,
i wanna write and wanna job,
i need to study by the way,
*** why i want too much?

under pressure.
under stress.
i ressist, have no regrets.
1000 problems,
1000 words,
1000 points.
anxiety, rush, depression
i have to rake this mess all alone

it was just lesson,
i've been learn
i am appreciate, i grown
just lesson, nothing all
i've learn to love myself
i've learned to walking slow
you was just lesson
i've been learn
to standing strong
and after storm, still stand,
i will not fall
i will grow more and
more
and after that
i getting stronger
and after pushing
i will still raise up
and shining more
than i was shine before
and every pulling back
just move me forward
so far away, so far away
it was just lesson
i've been learn
to getting stronger
i am appreciate for all

why would you understand
i had bad time and memories
i try to struggle hard
to clean my mind
like pictures from the gallery
why couldn't wait till heal
why rush and be insulting
i wish to be an understood
but how could I?
if you not me and never had this memories

i wish my brain has chip
so i can stop repeat
those memories...
my heart is faster beat
my mind still on repeat
i want to take this chip
i want delete a creepy vibe
i wanna change my memory

I'm loved, I'm glowed
i cared, i needed
but maybe i am humanoid?
if it's so hard a human be
i cry, i try, i hate, i lie
i make mistakes and so imperfect
so maybe i am humanoid?
but still i am important

they laugh, they smash
they cry, they crash
they push, crunch
they scream, they scared me
they talk, they speack to me
they say you nothing more than looser
this voice inside my head no more than fears and doubts, confusion
hallucinations and illusions
my scares about future
regrets about past
my stress in now
i running in this circle
i  struggle, worry, ripple,
but still I walk
I walk my stony path.
i scared, i am afraid
but i continue to arrive
my destiny
i asked myself so many times
why did i choose so heavy way?
and i don't know
but maybe hero's blood is stream inside my veins

she's little ant
she live, she eat
she carried it
upon her back
she carry world
untill her world
was cracked

she's little bee
she fly, she try
she is a sacrifice
she use to be ashame
she gave to everyone
her honey
untill it end

now she don't know
who's she?
she bee?
she ant?
or someone else
could be