And when the late night phone calls
Stopped
I knew it was over
Long before
The words came out of your mouth

I've been thinking through every aspect of us
Thinking of everything I could have done differently
Every kiss, every hug, every touch
I should've done it more? Maybe less?

Should I have told you I loved you more? Less?
You say it is not my fault but I can not help but wonder
Is there something I could have done?
Something to make you stay?

"I'm really good at reading people"
Oh yeah? Can you tell when people fake smile?
"Yeah its all about the eyes"
      -i guess you never looked at mine

You are toxic
You are unstable
You drag me down
But for years that's the only way I saw my life turning out

“I love you”
   “You benefit me right now”
“I love you”
   “You are a nice distraction from my own brain”
“I love you”
   “My girlfriend and i are fighting”
“I love you”
  "I will yell at you when you are wrong"
I guess love means something different to everyone?

Alas… i am broken
I am insecure
I am clingy and needy
I am self destructive
I lack a will to live
I am damaged goods…
And one person is to blame
-i blame you-

i remember all the dates, of when i starting liking you, when i loved you, when i was in love with you, the day you kissed me, the day you grabbed my hand, the day you surprised me

i guess i should start to remember the days i fell out of love, the days i wished youd kiss me and you didnt, the days all i needed was your hand and mine and you refused, the weeks you couldnt spare a moment of your time for me

i am not sure the love will fade, but i know it no longer envelopes me, you no longer make me feel safe, wanted, and cared for

how could i continue to be in love with you when i am not even sure you care about me, or want to talk to me, you make no effort for me

i guess there is no problem staying after falling out of love, as you were never in love anyway