i can't go to a bathroom by myself,
the overcrowdedness sets me off
like a firework on new years.
the fear that bubbles inside,
panics me to the point
of not being able to breathe.
is this what my life is?
being afraid of being alone
in a crowded room?
is this what i have become?
a walking ball of anxiety,
afraid of merely existing.
it's a living hell.
why can't i just be okay?
i wish i was okay.
boy, what a horrible day it was.