I was happy when I was told that I would have another bedroom
One more room, more toys, more chances to make noise
More everything, more fun
But all of a sudden I lost my joy  
These parents of mine, decided it was time
Time for what? Time to call it a quite
Mom cant stop crying
Dad knows he crossed the line
He has been lying, she has been lying
They both have been lying about the love the they claim to have
In my young world, I blame myself like I was the one who caused the separation
I cry in desperation for this not to happen  
I know that for the rest of my life I will feel unwanted, forgotten and worthless
Treated like property, shared on weekdays and weekends
Shipped like merchandise  
I sleep in two beds
Now I realize that more is bad, more leaves me sad
More hurts my mom and dad
More destroyed our house
On holidays we argue, aren't those supposed to be happy days  
Now Christmas is considered fight night
Since my parents have been divorced
I have felt like I have been cursed
When they separated they did it out of spite and hate
Now to court I go, so they can debate custody
One argues that the other is unfit to take care of me
Now I feel like I have made them enemies
As they treat me like property
I feel like I am not loved properly

She told me she loved me
While only using emojis
That’s when I knew she had the best of me
Hipster love, was so cool
To me it was therapy
Falling deeply as she saw the best of me
Forcing me to face my demons
Which came by the millions
But together we slayed them
She was my drug and I was her addict
I needed her in order to feel high
When she left depression came to comfort me
We song rock and roll
which later turned into blues
Melodies so deep they touched my soul
Abusing my emotions while she blew me
Hearts and kisses, pretty soon I would make her my misses taken her off of Cupid’***** list

If you going to hate anything

Hate your ego

Because it has forced you to let go

Of the greatest gift you have ever had

Love...

You are beautiful
Not because I see you
But because my soul feels every part of you

I am a product of your strongest and weakest emotion

I go as your heart beat goes, I flow like a stream of blood through your veins,
you have captivated my heart and brain
for you my soul will go insane,
love me now and tomorrow
through love, pain and all of life’s sorrow

Be my light and shinning amour, let this light always shine even in our darkest hour

Poetry is like a tree
It faces all four seasons
But yet it still finds a reason to keep standing

So if you have words that should be spoken
I urge you to please keep writing
Your words just might keep me from dying
Whisper love in my aching soul
Stitch my broken heart, protect me from this everlasting fall, and these never ending emotions which I can’t control

Poets know anxiety better than they know themselves

Words inspired by pain while trying to learn how to love themselves again

Since they sometimes can’t feel love
They write about it
Read about it and make others feel it

That way they can still experience it
Through those going through it

Poets know anxiety better than they know love

The stone holds no threat unless it’s thrown
Anger has no power unless it’s owned
Struggle has no ending
unless you sprinkle a little joy on it
Most who don’t fight with their fists
Fight with their hearts
Learn to tell them apart

Some surgeons come with no degrees
Hands that frees
Nails that cut deep, opening scars
That should be locked up in prison bars
Veins that flow venom
All we fear is a flatline a broken spine
A coffin that lays 6 feet away from life

I told a caterpillar that I loved it
And it became a beautiful butterfly
I told you that I loved you
And you became the reason why I am still alive

I will never ask you for anything more than I ask for your (time)

Because without that I will never know what it feels like to call you (mine)

Time is precious
time is golden
time is everything when you have it
and painful when you don’t have it

T.V. Screens telling us visions
But yet we do not see

Shelves full of bibles
But we do not read
Wonder why we are unholy

Twisted thoughts while seeking clairity
No wonder why we don’t see clearly

Living in a world that’s full of fantasy
Stomachs full of ******
Seekers of love but still feel lonely

Hey lover
Please don’t give me your forever
If you don’t believe in forever
Just give me all of your tomorrows
Love me in pain and in sorrow
Where ever your heart goes Mine will follow
For I am a part of you and you a part of me

I am your shadow and you are my tomorrow

I have seen scars honey and yours are too deep

I fear I might not have the remedy to help stop the bleeding

Your emotions scream for love but your heart has seen it’s fair share of pain

open scars showing your battle wounds, a history of pain lives in your veins

Insecure within

A victim of repeated mental abuse
Heart misused, body destroyed

I have seen scars honey and your scars are too deep to love, I myself am a product of a few broken promises

I can’t promise you forever

But I can love you now
because tomorrow is not in the picture

I know deep down she still has a heart that beats
But lately love feels so strange
cold and numb are her feelings  
beyond all the scars is a beautiful smile

her last lover buried her heart
he left her with a wrist full of signatures and a body full of insecurities
she is a product of failed relationships and broken promises  

If only she can let me love her
the way I know how to
if only she can let me heal her insecurities
if and only if she can let me in
then for this love
I am willing to give up all of me to gain all of her

But lately she feels distant
Every kiss misplaced
as if I am not her one and only
This feeling of numbness
leaves me feeling lonely
Wondering what happened to my lover
Is her heart being shared with another
Am I a victim of love or a hopeless romantic holding on to promises laced in beautiful kisses
Fake smiles, and cold hugs, counting down the time till she unwinds, walking on eggshells
Wondering when do I get to in hale while in hell
If only she knew how I feel

A boy tells you he wants you
A man shows you he needs you
A boy flaunts a lifestyle in front of you
A man shares a heart with you
A boy takes small steps
A man dives deep into love
A boy hides his insecurity
A man exposes his flaws
with the intention to rebuild himself with you
A boy takes the best of you
A man makes a better you

In the end, ask yourself what do you want for you

There is plenty to see
But looks like you are stuck on fantasy
Emotions floating at sea
Hiding from reality
You overdosed on insecurity
High on the feeling of uncertainty
Struggling with trust issues
It’s hard to let go of your past
So you invited it into your future
Now it takes control of your ego  
Battling with depression
your conscious robbed of tranquility
Got your emotions mixed up
you tried mixing peace with anxiety
Too blind to see that you left your heart at sea

Loving you is like poetry
It never seems to end

I metaphorically fell for you spontaneously
I found your analogies of love to be lovley
Your words tore my emotions down
And you discovered the real me

By now most would flee
but you stayed and fell for the real me

If love is poetry
then you know
you would have to rhyme with me
You are my headache and my therapy
My Sad and happy

My one and only

Our eyes meet
As our souls meet

This is fate
Could you handle this weight
Heavy burden, consumed of pain
A bleeding heart and a lonely soul
Will you fall for it all,
or will you love me and leave me
Like the rest of them
Running away from my pain
Taking my love for granted
Then coming back crying
Saying I'm all they ever wanted

By then I would of created a wall
Which my insecurity helped me build
Just so I can find my own security
Don't give me love promoted by ambiguity
I need to be sure
if you and me were meant to be

If love is blind then I lost my eye sight the day I met you
I have been blind since my eyes pierced your lovley soul

Toughest thing I have ever had to do was grow up

besides that everything else has been easy

Life is mean
it will beat you up till you give up and die

But while it’s beating you up all you can do is keep on trying

Blah blah blah!!! one day at a time, wipe those **** tears and keep going

Who said it would be easy, well tell them that they were lying

Truth is, I don’t know the truth anymore
I’m just living this life while lying in truth

While having Deep rooted emotions,
that seek validation of my actions,
I am 1 in 7 billion guests on an earth filled with insecure hearts and lost minds

Those that think they know the truth lack vision and those who are blind know too much to tell us what they see

Growing up ***** the living daylight out of our souls
while painting a beautiful smile on our faces full of holes

While directing us to a floor
that’s dug 6 feet under

I saw fear in you as he hugged you
You begged him not to let you go
Holding him closer so he could touch your soul
He smiled and wished you well
Not knowing that he was the cause
of your tears in the well

Drowning in emotions you were
But you painted a smile so good
He thought you were doing well

What he didn’t know
was that he was the one who belt the well
Which your tears occupy

Tree leafs fall
as summer goes away
My heart goes astray
Goodbye summer
Goodbye warm weather
See you after three seasons
I loved you with no reason
lungs breathing, soul shinning, heart beating
with you I lived a thousand lives in one season

All I remember was her smile
It had a magical feeling to it

Like the one you just had while reading this

It was deeper than poetry
It always knew how to bring out the best in me

She was my poetry,
she was my reality mixed with fantasy
I was high on her ecstasy
Addicted to her like a phin to his needle
Her love solved all of my life’s toughest riddles
She was the morphine to my pain
The fire that burned from within
The calm that kept me sane

She was the reason I...

What good is unity if you don’t see u in it?
What good is success if others can’t get it ? What good is peace if a whole race can’t enjoy it?
What good is love if others have never felt it?
What good is your voice if it stays silent
when the world needs to hear it?
I see the whole world lacks class like it’s facing truancy.
Blinded to its pain while sleeping with hypocrisy.
Birthing anger, while aborting empathy.
We really need transparency
People would rather be politically correct, than sit and listen to solutions.
So they hide behind laws, and ignore the pain.  
They won’t take time to get to the root of the trauma, years of unpaid labor, and endless torture. Victims of a broken law system cry louder, protest until their feet get blisters, but still won’t get a word from their leader. A first world country treating others as third world citizens.
Getting to the root of the problem would mean they would have to listen and face their demons.
So to ease their pain they hide behind their ignorance, and false traditions. It’s easy to judge what they don’t understand, point fingers and blame others, lack human decency, just to see what they want to see!!!

Addicted to silence
so we get high to distance
Leaving no room for forgiveness
While we thrive off of our ignorance

Only true love can fix this

Time is so rude
But determined in its agenda
It never stops for anyone or anything
It disregards all of our feelings and emotions
It never moves back or fast forward  
Time only exists in the present
We were born to embrace it and enjoy it
While we still have it
The rich can’t buy it, even they can’t afford it
The poor seem to struggle more with it
Which do you value more?
Time or peace
What good is peace without time
And what good is time without peace

                                                               ­        - Tuffy M

I could be the Next victim
Neck pressed on
as I smell the rubber of a cops tires
Forced to kiss the ground I walked on
As he expresses his power
He overdosed on anger  
A power trip with no sense of human decency
As he presses on my neck I start yelling “I can’t breath” !!!!!!
Me saying I can’t breath seems to be the words that comfort his heart, stroke his ego as he won’t let go
Like countless others he made it his duty to send me to my maker, to rid the world of my existence
Choking every ounce of air in my body
As he claims to protect and serve
Protecting his future and serving his needs
I just happened to be in the way of his agenda
Diabolical mindsets fornicate with his views
He births opinions of being the superior race
Encouraged by the media
He seeks to honor the heritage of his ancestors
Old time slave owners, it’s in his blood
A passage of hate, passed down to him by ignorant minds, he educates himself and his children, teaching hate no compassion, seek to **** with no solution,

What hurts the most is witnessing good cops sit in silence, muted in solidarity, silenced by unity
Standing and watching
for 8 minutes & 46 seconds
Let that sink in!!!!
Clock ticks as they result to their old antics
No accountability for their immoral actions
Which encourages them to keep killing and suffocating those with darker pigmentation

I could be the next victim, being black makes me a target, makes me a mark, makes me a reason for the graveyard never to remain empty
We all die, (I get that)
But he seeks to invite death to come meet me early

I could be the next victim
So before I become the next victim
I will fight and pursue justice
I will protest until my unborn child tastes freedom
I will honor my ancestors by my action
Resilient mindset, and dedication to create a better generation of leaders, supply love in a world where my worth is determined by my skin tone,
in this fight I know I am not alone
Looking at this crowd
I know we are together strong!!!
As we fight for my ancestors  
Their cries echo deep in our souls
Rooted deep in our veins is their pain  

I will know my rights, raise my voice, scratch and claw for equality, Until it becomes my reality
For 400 years of innocent blood is enough
Our voices can not be muted if we speak as one
Vote as one, fight as one, seek change and hold those in power accountable on all levels as one

I could be the next victim
but before I am next
I will ask justice to do its job and protect my last breath and heart beat

Please don’t let me become the next victim

While trying to write you a poetry piece
My mind found peace
It’s been a while since I let my words touch your soul, so here I go

Every time I think of your existence
I feel your presence
I smell your fragrance and my mind races
To a place where only lovers go
Lately I’ve lost my mind there and I don’t expect to find it anytime soon

Loving you is a blessing
all these years it’s you, my soul has been missing
I write to you these words so that your soul could listen to my whisper
Oh dear lover can you feel me touching your heart, holding it ever so gently
Everyday my heart challenges my soul to love you deeper, and to love you longer
Holding on to hope, trusting that this bond will grow stronger and love forever

If anything know that this heart beats
Creating instrumentals, that have rthyms to your heart beat
Synchronized we swim to satisfaction
While multiplying genuine affection
As it Clogs our imagination
Thoughts so deep they drown in the ocean
you had 7 billion choices to love
But me is who you picked above
If anything know that my love for you will never die
Like a ghost I will hunt your thoughts, dreams and imagination

thou art my lover,
for thou holdest my heart..
my heart rings to your voice and beats to thou touch..
gazing my eyes on you gives me an emotional rush, my body it excites, my soul it satisfies
for tonight when I lay my head I shou lay it on your soft chest, my love in you I invest

I wrote you a poem
But I ran out of words to describe your beauty
So this my love, is all I have to say

You are the greatest sight I have ever laid my eyes on..

To you my heart belongs

Do you still burn for me
Like the fire that has no authority
Burning to its own power
Free to be what it wants to be
Do you still think of me as you do when you flirt with your imagination
Am I still your definition of satisfaction
Am I still the water that quenches your thirst
Do you still love me as you did when your heart skipped a thousands beats just to match mine

Of the many ways to deal with pain
you chose ******
Numb you became
Sitting in a corner
while conversing to your inner demons  
Asking them why they exist
They reply, you created us out of fear
Now we are here
You summoned us, with every hit
To activate them you inject chemicals in your veins
Chasing highs while waking up to lows
Taking hits
Ending up with a face full of blows
Nose full of blow
Glass table full of credit cards
used to cut the dope, emotions in a noose tide in a rope

An addict at best
at worst dead and buried alive

We are all addicts of peace and when we don't have it, we panic flip.
Let's remember these days when salaries didn't separate us.
As we enter a state of emergency.
Can't you see, this is not where we supposed to be.  
Death does not discriminate, who knew a virus would be what brought people together.
Celebrities sharing salaries as the hungry and homeless getting fed.
Schools closing as we ordered to stay inside.
Fear of close company.
They call it social distancing, that's far from reality.
Stock market crashes as millions of bible verses posted on social media sites, airlines canceling flights.
No entertainment tonight.
Fear of getting infected as the government orders 8 billion people to wash their hands, but still, we live in a ***** word, full of government fear, jealousy, and greed.
Doctors and nurses sacrifice their lives to honor their professions. Oh my, what a deep revelation.  
Hard times don't last, tough people, do.
Its what you do when your back is against the wall, that shows the real you.
I pray you find peace in times of tribulations.
When its all said and done I hope we don't revert back to our old ways of segregation and true form of social distancing.

Procrastination
is a destination
in which
potential
goes to die

Read carefully
You might find yourself in my poetry

Love carefully you might End up breaking me ever so gentaly

Speak freely you might be the one to set me free
From my pain and agony

Tell me I’m lovley because you might be the only one to see the real me

I just dropped the “O” in good and it became God
Because God is Good
Treasure his life
to him nothing is impossible
Even impossible knows that all things are possible, through him, hope and faith are available
Christian sinners kneel to beg for appeals
Second, third, thirty third chances  
Trying to make advances
Their Criptonoight is lust, fear, fidelity, lying, cheating and stealing
Just name a few, not to mention all the deadly sins
Chasing dreams which are inspired by demons
Blinding them while stealing their visions
His mercy is forever, so they sin
thinking salvation is insurance
But for every road they has to be a toll paid
Trials and tribulations
are tests which many failed  
But By grace we have all been saved
Since grace is Gods mercy

Shouldn’t we all open our eyes and see
That without the God we will never be good?