~

Because of you
I learned to live
I learned to breathe
I learned to give

I learned to write
I learned to read
I learned to want
I learned to need

I learned to sing
I learned to talk
I learned to dance
I learned to walk

I learned to look
I learned to know
I learned to listen
I learned to grow

I learned to dream
I learned to care
I learned to hear
I learned to share

I learned to gain
I learned to teach
I learned to find
I learned to reach

I learned to smile
I learned to grin
I learned to love
All over again

uncertainty is best left off in
the distance of silence
...



© Pax

Plugging the headphones in my ears as usual.

Telling myself the biggest lie,

that I will be fine.

Because I am that delusional.

Running away is like coming closer to you.

Coming close is like destroying myself,

because I am that worthless

Fighting a battle for the dead.

I don't care about the blood which was shed.

Trying to quit is like starting over again.

Starting over again is like going through the worst pain.

Walking over these broken pieces looking for my heart.

Yeah the heart which was torn apart.

I have become numb.

With all your words which pierced my skin,

And the hurt which made me shrink.

So I stand here broken and used

abused and confused.

Waiting for life to start again,

Or waiting for the end.