I speak with a heart
Connectedness
I speak with a heart
I breathe with a heart

Its beating my heart
Its beating my heart

I see in my dreams
Connectedness
I feel in my dreams
I'm real in my dreams

Its beating my heart
Its beating my heart

All that's strange will go away
Our blood a different color
And even with my eyes
You can't see
In our difference
Will go away
Connectedness
Connectedness

I speak of the truth
Connectedness
And without the words
There is love

Its beating my heart

I wrote a letter to a cliff
Because I know how it is to be the edge of the earth
It's ingrained in my mind always from experience
How one more step can lead to a fall
How one more step....
I wrote a letter a cliff and sent it via the wind

I sang a song to a mountain
Because I know how it is to rise above the world
A monument standing tall amidst the valleys
How one more step can lead to a peak
How one more step.....
I sang a song to a mountain and played it on the wind

A wrote a poem for the sky
Because I know how it is to feel endless
And then have the clouds encroach in a threatening way
How one more step through thunder and lightning
Just one more step.....
I wrote a poem for the sky on the air that I breath

Just one more step
Can lead to a peak
Can lead to a fall
A step in the rain
Can lead me to home

I will always know the beauty
Of your big blue eyes
Even if the tears are forming
If you feel its storming
And bringing heavy rain
I see the joy behind the pain

A hand to hold
A friendly smile
A savior

You know that I care
That I'll always be there
Despite the distance
And any ocean in between

I will always know the beauty
Of your big blue eyes
And if they're crying
I'll be the one to dry your tears
If you feel its storming
I'll be the sun behind the clouds

I am next to you
And your eyes
They are not sad

And you will hear my song
And sing along
I'll destroy these walls
And together we build bridges

I'll always know the beauty
Of your big blue crying eyes
There is nothing more gorgeous to me
The words you speak
The way we believe
Nothing I'd rather be

Its okay if your not always strong
And its okay to cry
Just as long as those big blue crying eyes
Can smile once in a while

You would want the same for me
A hand to hold
A savior

You are the weather of my soul
My fingers are trembling ships racing
Trying to reach an island
Where the seabirds play
In the light of a never ending sunset
Why now,
Are the storms raging silent?!
That I can see the tumultuous lightning
And feel the rain as it pounds onto my skin
But the gutteral growl of thunder
The instinct imparted from the crackling sky does die
And my ears listen to the sound of the beginning
My greatest fear
Silence
When there was nothing at all
And nothing again
In the end

You are the weather of my soul
The way a humid ninety-degree day invites the rain
And my fingers are song birds flying
Trying to reach the nest
A place to call home
My songbird fingers
Your skin
I can feel your pain
Still
I can't hear your voice
Silence is my greatest fear

Oh, my jaded love
My sunshine day
My storm
Encompassing me
My flood
Silence is my greatest fear
So talk to me!
Even if what is said
Is nothing I want to hear
You are nothing more than everything
The weather of my soul
My love
And even if its raining stinging drops of violent pain
Where you are
I want to hear it

I remember when it was a mountain
I hadn't climbed
But I ascended
And I was noone
And I had nothing
Only

And it was too much
Always forever
Right now
When I lost my name
And fully became
And felt

And I'm everywhere in time and space
Space is just a feeling
A way to be in a different place
With everything and nothing
And what you'll be
You are

Time is my expression

We look to the west together
To the wide open skies of blue forever
We sigh as one
With the moon rising at the speed of a breath
And the night is full when the moon is new
We sigh as one
In unison
In the throes of barefooted passion
Where there is no painted dream I'd rather be
We smile a sun
A forest carpet of flowers and scent
The rhythm of a drum and a heartbeat
You are here with me

The ocean is not deep
Its not a beating heart
In your chest as you sleep
As you dream

The ocean is not peace
Its hammerhead sharks
That want to eat
As I swim

But its a river in my mouth
A river of life
The transitory nature of water
You can't step in the same river twice

The ocean in not deep
A game of inches and trenches
A rock on the sea floor
And islands

The ocean is not love
It is continual struggle
Swordfish and coral reef
Beauty and disbelief

But its a river in my mouth
Flowing down hill
The path of least resistance
Reaches your heart

The ocean is not deep
A rock in a current
Soaked and worn by bitter tides
And big fish

The ocean is not truth
A rock has always been wet
Lustful for a starfish
A sea horse rides away

The ocean is not deep
There is not an ocean
Prolific Pacific or tragic Atlantic
I can't walk across

Still its a river in my mouth
You on a shore
Cupping your hands
And drinking

Drink
My love
Drink until your drunk
Drink the river in my mouth

I always believed
Not in Bigfoot
Not fuzzy footage that's revealed as fake
Not traipsing footprints in the hillside
I always believed
Not in megalodon
As though I could believe in all sincerity
A forty foot shark roams the ocean unnoticed
I always believed
Not in ancient aliens
Living under oceans since the beginning
Atlantis sinks and the Bermuda triangles curse
I always believed
In you
God how I hope
What I believe is truth

I first would have to say
That im sure no one will listen
So im sure the first thing that I say
Won't matter
I first would have to say
That you are right
And have always been right
And this reality is a testament
To this

Be so stubborn

Because nothing can be perfect
But the antipode is life that we all know
And we all love it
Our comfort with it

Be so stubborn

Because all we know is all we're told
You know it all
You can't be wrong
You can't

Be so stubborn

According to the gospel
As the lord and savior traversed the holy land
Preaching the word and showing the light
Speaking with god and devil alike
Speaking love to mankind
It is said
He would find the sick
The suffering of infirmity
He would lay his hands to their skin
And heal them
He would heal them
According to the gospel

My days are long
And I have bruises that don't show on my flesh
Impracticalities that should cause mental maladies
That would help me find the self destruction I fear
And that I fear awaits me
I'm tired when I wake up
And dead through the day
But I feel alive
Every time I put my words to the page
I feel a sage
Whose wisdom is generational
I feel hope

I may be sick
Maybe
I may be a lost and tortured soul unfit to exist
In this existence
Maybe
I may feel pain
I may
And the only disease I know is the brutality of life
Maybe

Poetry heals me
It is the hands in the desert
On the ***** in the cave
It is the words as rain to feed the seed
It is the sprout of a flower
And the bloom
It is my reason
And my religion

It is my gospel

And when the angels sing
If no one else can hear but I can
I'll know of peace
In a world of disarray

The greatest irony of humanity
Is that we fight wars
For peace

Seed in stony soil blooms my soul;
Pulchritudinous passionate paeony

I find joy in my sorrow
Just that I can feel
Anything
At all
At least
I find pleasure in pain

I laugh at my demons
I shout into silence
I cry for my angels
I drown into flames
I shine into darkness

I burn with emotion

I find peace in suffering
Just another test
Everything
At most
I find I overcome

I speak to my ghost
I lean into shadows
I touch without hands
I drown into air
I shine into darkness

I burn with emotion

Magnificent castles
Impenetrable
Fortified as a heart
Who let's not an enemy in
Castle walls
Unscalable
Protection from the world
And all of its pain

The lonely king
Wants nothing more than a queen
To love him
As he honors her
As he showers her with gifts of a kingdom
And as she speaks

These kings defense
Boundaries
Armies and treaties
Sentries in the night on guard
Shields and armor
Impenetrable
Blades and arrows
To strike invaders down

The lonely king
Needs nothing more than a queen
A beautiful love
A glorious empire
As he's ruling by divine right
He puts God on her side

Somewhere on this open ocean
Is an island
Where you can hear the song of the sirens
Crash into the rocks and never return

And forty-two sailors could not deny
Forty-two could not escape
The song so sweet
They have to hear it

But somewhere in time
Brave Ulysses
Was tied to the mast of his ship
And his naked ears were tortured

And forty-two sailors could not deny
This bittersweet temptation
They know it will destroy them
With a smile on their faces

I've forgotten how she feels under my hands
The way glorious music came forth as my fingers touched her neck
I held her in my lap and every note was right
She spoke to me so beautifully

The shape of her body
The way my voice danced around her
A song I had to sing
And I was happy

I haven't felt her in forever
But I still listen
Maybe such dulcet notes alive
Still strive to grace my life

Maybe life is not a game
But I play
And I'll play

I've forget the way frets make me lose all worry
I can hold her in such a way that makes a meaningful chord
Finding balance in her scales
And knowing harmony

The shape of her body
The sound of love and loss
A song I have to sing
And I'll know peace

Maybe life is just music
But I play
And I'll play

really nothing much to say...
except the tree!
I know how the roots take hold,
but we forget the soul,
so when these foul winds blow again
our hands and our hearts in-twain,
and if it's gonna fall down on me
I would rather it fall more like a leaf,
I percieve the plants in pain,
in some sort of way we even spoke.

so much sorrow in the willow
down beside the river's edge,
late at night
you can even hear her cry,
oh my lonesome weary always weeping broken willow,
you should know
you're beautiful.
you're forever

well just the other day
me and this ****
dandelion, I recall
yellow flowers, three feet tall
he was pleading I would spare him from his doom
I never guessed unwanted guest were death obessed,
consumed and stressed by paranaioa never resting
a given life unwanted test
I asked,"what would you do if you were me?"
and he said

I crawled into bed with death last night
I let her dark fingers wander my naked flesh
She whispered in my ear as she held my bones
                                                           ­              I let her have me
I touched her lower back last night
I let death climb on top of me and cry in pleasure
She moaned aloud and said my name with love
                                                            ­            I let her have me
I reveled in her cold embrace last night
I let her fall asleep heavy in my arms and my dreams
She became my tomb, my grave, my other side
                                                            ­            I let her have me
                                                              ­          All of me
She took my breath away
I rode her into the abyss

I could never write a poem as beautiful as you are to me
Nothing man-made
Nothing in nature
Nothing can ever be

And if the universe should have an end
Maybe I'll find you there
I'm too numb to feel this pain
I'm too young to feel this hopeless

So I sit with my back to the wall and my head in my hands
Knowing about nightfall
Thunderstorms
And black holes
I could never write a happy ending

I am not your friend
I am the enemy
Of the end
That you embrace
With open arms
And open palms
With a name drawn
Onto clouds
And carved
Into skin

Its should be as natural as breathing
But, its as painful as bleeding
No suture for these open wounds
No future
To fate we're bound

I am all you have
I am the answer
To the riddles past
Raven and writing desk
Oedipus answered man
Its all I am
With a name and a face
And eyes that can see
Eyes that blink
And a hungry sphinx

It should be as open as the sky
But, its a dark and dysmal cave
Our hearts become arrows
In truth of the scarab
We shoot wide and narrow

The end of which we seek
Will not be peace
Fall on me now
Or follow me not

I want nothing more
Sea floors where we find the remnants of ancient merchants
Sunken while simply searching for profit
Soul entwined in sand and phosphorus
Body becoming whole with the glimpse of tomorrow
The marrow of my bones dwindling as light becomes food for my soul
I want nothing more that this
That I set my youthful mind on a distant star
And even time that ends will not keep me from reaching
Wine corks opened by delicate hands
Fingers that touch softly making me feel more
The warmth of my skin
The sound of my love in your beating heart
I want nothing more!
Nothing at all
Not a fistful of money and a palace to sleep in
Private jets and private islands
Where the air sings my name as I glide through her
And the sand on the beach wants me to lay beside her
I want nothing more
Than to be as beautiful as I am to you now
In my prime years of life, young, and eager hearted
Your visceral experience that taught me to dream
My dreams that spoke through the fog standing heavy in your soul
Your soul as a place my beauty alone reaches
I want
As simply said as the forgotten memories
The dead languages and foreign customs
The consumed today as garbage tomorrow
The son of the sun only rising knowing he will set
And be a glorious evening before all manner of darkness falls
I want only
That the beauty displayed by my face
In it's fresh form and grace
Is not
Could not
Would never be!
As beautiful to you
As my soul grown old
I want
That you will think me
As beautiful in my twilight
As I was
When I was young
That with each passing day
You love me more

I want

My queen is made of flesh and bone
She walks through dreams in our nightmarish home
My queen has heart
My queen has soul
My queen has pain
She has my love

I could never dream
Without her
Just a lonely king
An empty empire

My queen could be anywhere lost in this world
But still carry me with her
My queen has skin
My queen has feet
My queen has hands
She touches me

Her truth much more
Than a thought to me
She's my home
My reality

My queen cries
And I cry with her
Still when she smiles
I know

I won't worry with the sunrise
I've spent nights carving my name into rocks
One for the moon
Two for you
Three for the stars that still find a way to sing
After all these years
My ever-loving reminder
To trust my fate
And keep my faith

Haven't my feet traveled the lands?
Raging. bold, and confindent
Though winterland
Steel and bone and cold
She dances like Aurora Borealis
As I trod on
Steadfast, determined
Through heat scorched deserts
I find you in the sands

I play with you
Beautiful thing
Beautiful dawn that I rise
Sweet honeysuckle on the vine
The flower, held in my hand close to my chest
The seed
The tree, the plant, the vine, the fruit
All significant
You are
And I know I told you I believe that you are water
You are water to me
However you arrive
In storms or gentle rain
You become rivers to me
Where I go to quench my thirst
To quell my fire
Subdue this spirit, soothe this pain
Love this soul
Bring me to the ocean

You as a layman
May never experience this
And it is most likely
You won't
But
If you ever catch on fire
Remember the three rules I speak of now
1.stop
          Don't panic, realize your situation, and that you can be okay though calm, concerted effort, don't run! Running only creates oxygen to fuel the flame
2.drop
         Fall to the floor, even the very act of being on the floor smothers whatever part of you that is burning that hits the floor. And it is necessary to be on the floor to achieve the most important lesson being taught within my words
3.telephone
          Now that you are on the floor, pull out your telephone. Strike a pose, and take a selfie. Because for gods sake you are on fire, and you know that it can go viral. And really, dying by burning to death is worth it if you are able to entertain someone in doing so. Instagram will go crazy over you

And I suppose step four would be after you have a picture you like, then  roll to put the fire out. But most people never make it this far.

I was told as a child
There are no places left to explore
They've all been discovered before

Well there's outer space
The ocean
And the human mind

Probably enough in those places
We've never seen before

I am a ****** up poet
A starving artist
A punk rock Elvis
Sometimes you just gotta go all out
Because your the king
Man
And you just can't help it

Van Gogh died poor
And alone
In a field that was his last expression
He died by his own hand
And it wasn't even raining
When it should have been

I don't even see myself when I look in a mirror
And you don't see what I see when you look at me
You see a smiling lover
Enjoying life though all the struggle
I live life as Pagliacci
A ****** up poet

I put on a great show
And I weep during intermission

I stare in your direction
I know your out there
Somewhere
Waiting for me

You've never really lived
If you haven't ever stared off into the distance

Theres note of you in every song I sing
A voice of you in every word I speak
A truth of you in every place I seek
A drop of you in all the times I bleed

I stare across space
I know I see you
Somehow
Waiting for me

If youve never stared off into the distance
Your life is a shame

I sit
Under a very old tree
In a new world
I've had my grapes
Turned into wine
I've had my fill
I sit
In the shaded grove
Of the persimmon tree
And I eat
The fruit of the gods
Zeus's wheat

I awoke
During the middle of my own heart transplant surgery
I did not feel fear
Only amazement
A body alive
Without blood being pumped
A man alive without a heart

My old heart
Just wasnt working like it should anymore
It's been through too much pain
It has been broken too many times
Too many hopes
Weighing too heavily

I awoke
I saw my old battered heart on a table to my left
And my new heart
In some unnamed doctors hands
I felt to my chest
And it was an empty cavity

I wasn't afraid
I knew my love should be as dead as the dreams I used to have
But its still alive
It still has another chance
I was still alive
When I awoke

I always hear
You never listen
And this life is just an illusion
This life is just a dream
Everybody's sleeping
And I would die to wake up

Someday you will die and something some how's going to steal your carbon

In a sand box
In a paradox
An egocentric predicament
When matter matters not
All I am is thought
And feelings

Some day you will die and someone's or something's will steal your carbon

So I turn on the radio
And turn it up
And let the music speak to me
Its just a band
No one understands
When I do

Some day something will die and
Somehow you'll figure out how
Often you will die somehow and
Something going to steal your carbon

I fell once
Straight through the ground
I cratered the world with my impact
Past caves of darkness littered with gemstones
My hands could never hold
I was falling
Falling so hard that my body was breaking
And my mind was finding only new pits of despair
Down forever into the realms where demons claim to own
My home a firey tomb
And so I fell
What I thought to be eternal descent
My inertia to lead me to the depths of hell
And I thought I would stay there
Maybe forever
But still I fell
And kept falling onwards
My plummet of such immense proportion
That I fell straight through the world
To come out on the other side

And I was alright

No glasses
No rings
No tattoos
Just my skin
The skin god gave me
And if you know how to look

You'll see divine art

No glasses
I can see clearly
My contacts
Are the souls I reach
The love I give
And receive

No rings
My hands are strong
They hold the frets
And make a song
A song that god gave me
I have to sing

No tattoos
Because the scars are my art
And scars on my heart
Tell a story
About a life I used to live
And the time I died

There was always blood in poetry
But blood without a heartbeat
Is seeing something die

There were always stars in the sky
But if no one can speak their meaning
Its only endless night

I am a heartbeat
The meaning in the stars
I am the heartbeat in the meaning of the stars

See it,
          seize it
Deal
With the consequences
Later.  

Right Now
For happiness

Why wait until tomorrow?

A heartbeat in darkness
I know the way the rain can fall
And empty spaces
I know empty spaces

I know nothing at all
Go leap your bar
Go fill your jar
I know the silence

I could never steal the heat of the sun
To give you warmth
I could never cut the night apart
And bring you light

My feet are only carriage
And destinations never reached
And there is beauty in a soul
I never show you

Hasn't heaven crushed us under
Such joyful sounds can't get me high
Can't give me life
I know not anymore

I know you now
I know you know

There is not enough beauty in the world

And adding to it
Only takes it away
Dont take it away

I live on shorelines
You live in horizons
There is not enough beauty in the world

Tonight might last forever if we let it

Or tomorrow sun may rise

With my destruction
Once the boral terracotta
Sinks below the the rising sea

My roots have known
Long before the leaves
There is no sun left for me

And blonde is the only color I see
Not these black and starving nights
Not these screaming banshees white

Halfway inbetween
Cantilever bridge
When I want to turn back

My eyes have known
Only a little of the light
The morning brings

When I'm cured of my disease
I no longer need to fight
And blonde is the only color

Seeking shelter from the ills of the world
Ancient kings built temples
Wind over water
Here is a refuge

And if its our will to further the work
If we can listen to the spirit
We can cross great rivers
We can be correct

Wind over water
The wind drives the water
The wind moves above the water
This is dispersion

It brings us to our ancestral temple
We hear voices from kings of old
Chanting sacrifice
The supreme being

This is dispersion

I want to kiss your wind
The real you existing before the beginning
Before the body begins
And the beauty is your soul
Not your infinite eyes
Not your silken skin

I've seen your waterfall
I've heard you as a river flowing off an edge
Before any ocean
And no hands can hold such depth
Not the rising tides
Nor the raging waves

Your voice is a delicate breeze
On a newly formed planet
Your heart is a star being born
Your dreams are a star being formed
You were words before sound
You were love alive in tiny atoms
You are music
You are a major scale

I want to kiss your notes
The composition of a cosmic truth
Your stars are instruments
Playing melodious tunes
A glorious truth
A song from heaven

My dreams
Are in your head
The way it feels to know you felt me
The way it feels

My hope
Is in your life
The way it feels under your breath
The way it feels

I cant live
Until your hands are finding me
I can't be
Until you find a way

My love
Lives in your blood
The way it feels to be inside you
The way it feels

My heart
Is in your hands
The way it feels to take a beating
The way it feels

I can't live
Until your fingers touching me
I can't live
Until you find a way

Your head
Its all I ever want
Your beauty all for me

Hey Jim, You got that bottle of Jack?
Hit that jukebox
I'm trying to listen to some drinking music
What's your choice?
Muddy Waters or Howlin' Wolf
Some good old time blues
How's Patty been?
She's a doll
I don't know how she putsu up with you
Yeah Jim?
Half a handles gone
I guess I'm starting to feel alright
Should we get another bottle?
You know me Jim
I'm tryna drink all night

Still, Jim, listen to me
You need to get off that ****
You know its no good
It won't make you happy
Trust me I know
Jim, I just want you live a long life
Your my drinking buddy, Jim
Not just a good time friend
So pour out another shot
Nah, pour out two
**** it, hand me the bottle
And let me turn it up
You and me Jim
Getting drunk tonight

I'm sure the stars creation
Held only a little of the feeling
We have
The stars no longer fleeting
We gave the stars their meaning
Here and now
Is everytime
And anytime is only what we make

And should those stars not shine tonight
Should they ever collide
Would they fall into black holes
Or simply collapse
We are
And all time is now

I'll be waiting for you
At the ends of time
And the edges of the universe

It once was darkness
Once was light
Its all your thoughts
Its always right
Its all gone wrong
In all ways right

And would those stars all shine tonight
Should they bring us light
Would a galaxy surround them
The stars that gave life
Give us music
And the song that plays forever

All time is now

I'll be waiting for you

Some kind of monster
With a beautiful soul

The only light he sees
Harbor shadows of pitchforks
And unruly mobs chanting

"Leave
Now,
We Don't Want Your Love"

And his days spent in solitude
Without a home
A place he can be
A place to belong

Some kind of monster
With a loving heart

But the appearance of a beast
Fanged and horned and rotten
With heavy breathing and gnarled fingers

"Leave
Now,
We don't want your love"

Some kind of monster
That's beautiful yet terrifying and ugly
And unable to control

Some kind of monster
With a beautiful soul

Who couldn't tell you
The last time
He smiled

She was a rose
Beautiful
Delicate but not without thorns
I am a feather
As an ornament
Falling ever so slowly from the heavens

And our love was porcelain
And the world a wrecking ball

Eggs, rabbits
Gifts in the night
C'mon

I'm looking for a little adventure
I find my god
In ***
My personal resurrection

******* like rabbits
I want to dip my eggs
In a young woman's mouth
And dye them the color of lust

I'll spend time with you in the night
As a welcomed visitor
I am the easter bunny

And you like the gifts I bring

Cover up the moon and the stars
A hurtful veil over my widening sky
A vengeful malicious intent
A never reason

It should be raining

Listen to the murmur in the crowd
The way the thunder grows louder
And the skies grow dimmer
As we await the storm

Cover up the sun
The clouds grow gray in anger
And the atmosphere becomes thick
And the land becomes dark

It should be raining

A ****** shroud
All that dream are disavowed
The thunder claps grow loud
The clouds are angry

Because they never could be the sun

It should be raining........