The words burst forth like a broken dam,
Overwhelming, overflowing, unstoppable, they amass.
For so long they were restrained,
Restricted, constricted, told to remain.
But now they flow, unbound, unchained,
And I am at the mercy of their reign.

The power of feelings, the weight of their might,
Caught in the undertow, pulled into the fight.
Drowning, yet somehow I can finally breathe,
As if the words have stitched a wound beneath.
I feel more like me, freer than before,
The world sharper, clearer, an open door.

Hope glimmers softly, like dawn’s gentle light,
Breaking through the end of a long, gloomy night.

I secretly want a big family
One that gathers at the dinner table
Each night
Night caps
Children I can truly know
A partner I can life my life with
The way we want to
Birthdays parties
Friends and family celebrating
Not becaue we have to
Because we want to celebrate each other
Celebrate the love in each of us

I have this overwhelming feeling of not figuring something out in this short time we call life.
It's omniscient feeling of a overwhelming discovery of nature, physics, celestial bodies of life.
Living now, wondering of worry makes it feel a lost cause:
Time to let in...Let Go.....And Let Be What Will Be!!!!!

Loving you slowly tore me apart,
A price I paid with an open heart.
The day I met you, I thought I’d be whole,
I thought you were perfect, the key to my soul.
I thought you’d bring peace, a love so deep,
But I was wrong, neither you nor I could keep.
Neither were you perfect, nor was I ever free,
Still, I loved you, though it swallowed me.

I gave my all, hoping you’d feel the same,
But you stayed distant, as I played the game.
I kept reaching out, but you pulled away,
And slowly, love slipped into disarray.

Even as your touch left me in pain,
I stayed, lost in the weight of your name.
Tears fell, hiding the hurt I knew,
For all my pain began with you.