I have this feeling of losing again, I failed again this time
I think I'm fading from nowhere, I think I should stop living this life
Why does everything in me is so imperfect? Why they can't love me in that way?
Why do people can't see the real me? Why do this world is so unfair?

I tried everything just to be seen, tried everything to be cared
Tried to be good to have your attention, tried everything to befriend
I tried to be the best in everything so that you could be proud
I even tried to sacrifice my life so I could felt I was loved

I am weak, still I am lost, and still I haven't found my path
I like to draw but I don't have the hands to paint that beautiful life
I love to sing but still don't have the voice that everyone would love to hear
I like to write an endless poem but no one would care 'bout this dream

As I'm writing these words, I can't help but to cry
I know this time God is angry with me 'cause 'til now I was blinded by my eyes
I know He has been telling me so many times that I should stand and stay strong
There are so many beautiful things that can't be seen and it's alright for me to go wrong

These rhyming words in every line are my life, my heart, my soul
Every ending, it's significant feeling will always be a part of my whole
The endless print of my undying words will always be here to stay
All will be enough just to feel He cared that is my constant pray

As I am writing in this part, I suddenly realized
That I should stop crying myself, I should now dry my eyes
For there will always be tomorrow to restart a brand new day
To continue all that I've stopped believing in, to continue to walk with His way

I have sent all my worries, lifted it all above the sky
You won't ever see me crying again, my soul will never die
I know God will always be here, I know He wanted me to go back
To where my life has used to be, I got to feel my existence back.

If I could just sing, maybe I am someone a lot way better
If I could just sing, maybe I could feel I am halfway further
If I could just sing, maybe You can hear me and heed my cry
If I could just sing, maybe there is no reason to let my dreams die

If I could just sing, my life would be something a place like home
If I could just sing, I can believe that in anything I am capable
If I could just sing, maybe there is a great chance of becoming whole
If I could just sing, maybe I can be prouder and I can do more

If I could just sing, maybe I can have a lot of friends
If I could just sing, maybe they can remember me and no one will forget
If I could just sing, maybe they will be giving me a chance to try
If I could just sing, maybe I don't have to hide and to tell a lie

If I could just sing, maybe everyone will be grateful that they have me
If I could just sing, maybe I can be someone who I wanted to be
If I could just sing, maybe I can touch one’s simple life
If I could just sing, maybe I can feel I am important, I can feel that I'm alive

Maybe there’ll be no reason for me to cover
Maybe there'll be no reason for me to feel under
Maybe I can feel that I do certainly belong
Maybe I can make myself firm and make myself strong

If I could , I will wish this what God has given me
I will trade all my poems for the chance that this could be part of me
I won't hesitate to lose all my words and I won't save any of it
'Cause words will always be useless unless you put a music in it

I tried my best to memorize every tone in every note
I tried everything just to sound good but I can't in every song
And I realized sometimes you have to stop to save yourself from bleeding
For you to live now in reality and to stop yourself from pretending

I envy those who can sing and those voices that truly fly
I envy those who can flawlessly hit that high
Sorry but I'm giving up now and letting now this live into dream
Maybe I can be one of them, if I could just sing.

Dear my love, we've come a long way with our lives together
We've shared almost everything, rainy days and summer
Can't compare to anything all the moments that we have
And it's worth treasuring all the memories with you my love

I started to look over the year we are together
How we made it and making it last till forever
How we were to each other and what we are now
How we change for the better as we make eternal a vow

A song will never be enough to sing how happy and greatful I am
A line from a movie will never give life to days that we shared
And I just can't get a love quotes from someone and dedicate it to thee
For the words will never verbalize the exact feelings you've given me

You will always be the reason of my smile in everyday
Of how I keep on going and striving for better in every way
Of what I decided and what I chose it's always because of you
I won't do any way of hurting the heart of my unending truth

I am sorry for I haven't given you the best
Sed tu iure optimo dare spondes
As long there is tomorrow I'll wake up knowing how I love you
You are intrinsic to me, and my heart always beats for you

Always remember that I have found love in you, and I'll always will
Even if the sun refuse to shine for tomorrow, I'll be loving you still
Like a rainbow in Niagara it has no ending
May we filled our lives with colors of faithful feelings

I may not be the best boyfriend, may not be the best in this world
But I will do anything to make 'forever' not just a word
I promise you again that I won't let go and always hold your hand
May we always find and fall in love to each other, foreverly yours, **Gian

I was shattered, I was hurt, in my mind I know I'm not alone
And there You are my Lord keeping me safe in Your home
Eyes are looking at me, pointing at me, killing me
People judged me, punished me, they took away my means of serving Thee

But God help me to understand, give me Your peace
May I still live in Your image as I go at night to sleep
Help me not to have thoughts of harm to others
And save me from the fire that put this life to wither

Help me to sing of Your hope amidst the storm
Between lightning and thunder, in the mist I can still see Your form
That I will not be blinded by brightness of all material lights
That I can be brave for any madness, I can stand and I can fight

May I still speak of Your justice as I continue to walk in life
To withstand those I thought who dwells in You but I was wrong, it's just a lie
To believe they still have goodness and it will be worth the wait
To feel Your love for eternity and with Your love alone they'll change

May I pronounce Thy faith with full certainty
No room for questions, no space for enmity
Through hesitations, all the pain, all animosity shall wane
All anguish shall diminish, only Your truth and love will be gained

As they continue to push me over and counting me out
Don't let me fall far under, don't let me filled with doubt
Teach me to turn all uncertainties to beautiful path that leads to You
Teach me how to rip kindness in every cruelness that I've been through

I was shattered, I was hurt, in my mind I will never be alone
Here I am my Lord, I know You'll be taking me back home
I will continue to live, to praise, to serve You and You alone
Let me be the way of Your Words, the rock of Your mighty throne.