i broke today.
i watched my bones shatter on the ground
and fall into a million pieces onto the floor.
as i stared at my breaking body,
i came to a realization.

the pieces that were one so beautifully sculpted
were deformed and
unfamiliar.
a distorted picture of who i once was.

i cried for the person who resonated
darkness in me,
staring
standing
still.

i will conquer and fix myself
someday
but for now
im okay with not being okay

I love you, steadfastly
Like the moon misses the sun
Reflective and from a distance.

Wondering I wish
When our paths cross again
Who are you, I don't know you anymore

Perhaps, I never did
You move paths I cannot fathom
But never did I wrong your damaged heart

I never burnt as bright
And out of control
I know myself far better now

You are separate and beautiful
Let your joy guide your actions
From afar

If ever it gets too heavy
Find me
I will lift you up again

I looked the devil in the eyes
He said I'll never fly.
My soul is his paid in full
I'll surely never die.
Stuck on hellven forever
No tears I have to cry.
I'm lost of words I'm lost of time
This little lite of mine.
Was never mine my soul is dying
I swore and wasted time.
I pray to god to save me please
But it's a waste of time.
I looked the devil in the eyes
He said "you'll never fly!"
Stuck on hellven forever
Ill surely never die.

Invisibility cloaks all around
When the scene comes, sirens
Screaming across the streets
Because of you, we never find

Why is it simple to push away?
Like you did in the 50's
Like you tolerated strikes
Why should it be alike now?

.....


Mourn for their lives
When it didn't matter
To you
You'll pay the price
Sooner or later

You left before I arrived
So I lay awake at night
Missing a man
I've never met