If only I could have known you for 2 seconds,
I would have spent both of them kissing you.

3 of my friends said this month,
That they can't take anymore of life,
And they are considering having no more.
Just an end to everything,
To stop thinking as they are.

I haven't slept properly in 3 weeks,
Only an hour here and there,
And as usual,
My long lasting battle of impending heartbreak,
Always at the back of my head,
Which never seems to ease.

It has taken it's toll,
I am hurting but my friends can never know,
5 times today I stopped for a second,
My eyes were close to giving in,
But I know the moment I do,
I know I won't stop.
So I am trying to hold it in.

But I realise for my 3 friends,
I am the person that is always around,
I need to be...
I will always take the burden for them,
Any day and any time,
But today was tough.

There's a thought that haunts me
In the mornings
When the sun peeks through the curtains
And it blinds me
And the coffee is burnt
So I take a morning dose of
Smoke to mute my taste buds

It haunts me at work
Where my smile is as fake
As the honey tone of my voice
But they'll believe it
And buy two for two fifty anyway
Because I've asked them oh so
Nicely

It plagues me in the evening
When I've settled down with a brush
In my hand
Painting abstract strokes with
No road map
No idea where they're going
Just a current of blending colors
And lines

It strikes me at night
When I'm closing my eyes
And willing myself to sleep
Though the sheep don't run home
Because the path is drenched
In regret

That thought
Which haunts me

And itches at me

And runs laps through my mind

Is that I've never felt peace
In someone's arms

Never felt so fulfilled
To touch someone

Never had words powerful
Enough to describe it

The thought that harrows me
In all the hours I know
Is that I've never known
Love