think your worst thought

and throw it deep in the pines
to get caught on the vines

then go there at night
when the light of a bone
colored moon makes shadows
rattle and bite

and hold that thought

tight.

r ~ 9/11/14

Unbroken
the surface
in morning light

lone hawk
pauses in flight

alight on a pale blue sky.

r ~ 9/13/14

I forgot what it's like
To love someone so deeply
Until I met you.

It wasn't like this
'Til the very second you pronounce your name
Like a perfectly blooming flower on the spring's sky.

I realized too
In that moment of seconds
That love isn't the cleverest thing I should ever feel
In my messed up mind.

I forgot
That the last time I fell for someone
I cried myself to sleep and try so hard to be beautiful
Until he didn't like me at all.

And I hate to know
That you will probably
Do that to me too.

I'm a house of cards you built
One blow from caving in
I'm a single scrap of paper
One rip to tear my skin

I'm a fragile piece of glass
One slip and I am shattered
I'm a jar that's filled with paint
One drop and I am splattered

It's your decision it's your choice
Will you preserve my fragile heart?
It's your decision it's your choice
Or will you tear my hope apart?
It's your decision it's your choice
What will you choose, you have a voice

Although I can be strong
I'm not when I'm in your arms
One blink and you'll be gone
Don't know how I'll go on
Without you

How will I know
If my heart's made of glass
Until you go
And break it

These poems that you write
Their words exaggerate.
They notice every detail
They all collaborate.
They turn a fine reality
To this stirring nightmare.
The thoughts in your head
They become your puppeteer.
It's your own fault, Riley.
Why, darling can't you see?
You chose to play this game.
Can't back down and cannot flee.
You caused this endless mess
You chose to start this race.
Your words; your competition
And they're picking up the pace.
Leaping, running, crawling
You're shrinking with each step.
These words are your creation
But they're beating you instead.
They suffocate your hope
They drown your self belief
They choke your happiness
And they won't give you relief
Its as if this fine reality
Has taken a new shape
Has snatched you from your life
Now you're trapped with no escape.
You havent noticed until now
But your world of hopes and dreams,
Good thoughts and happy humming;
You are tearing at the seams.
Your words; your competition
This race is almost won.
Your words; your competition
Now the competition's done.

The emptiness of my chest
The coldness of your breath
The briskness of your touch
The shortness of this death
You've taken everything
My thoughts and hopes and dreams
Youve locked them in your vault
And thrown away the keys
You've sent me out alone
To sail this endless sea
You've left me here to float
But the water captured me
I'm sinking to the bottom
Helpless and confused
You told me that you loved me
You said I was your muse
I'm nothing to you now
I see right through your lies
The kind words that you told me
Were simply your disguise
I fell into your trap
Your web of lies and games
There's no escaping now
I'm caught and there I'll stay
But even though im drowning
I somehow start to breathe
Ensconced in angry water
But my rib cage somehow heaves
And even though I'm stuck
In this mess that you have made
I am just barely breathing
Alive but so betrayed