I thought you were different
But you blend right in
I thought you cared enough
To let me in
But here I stand corrected
Why can't I win?
Now I'm stuck here dreaming
Of what might've been.

I'm trying.
But do you even notice?
I'm dying.
But would you even care?
I'm lost.
But you won't ever find me.
I'm breaking.
And I long for your repair.

I'm fading.
Did you ever even see me?
I'm screaming.
But I know you'll never hear.
I'm falling.                
Are you ever gonna catch me?  
I'm gone.                                
But you never saw me there.

She plays all day
Galloping across the sun
Enjoying its golden beams
And its warm embrace
And when the sun must rest
She leaps across the stars
And lays upon the moon
Gazing at the black abyss
Where stars look like glitter
Sprinkled across the sky
Shimmering and twinkling
What a beautiful sight
Then the moon's glow fades
And the stars disappear
She is taken back into reality
And real life takes its place
Where her dream once belonged

*riley papile

i have stopped
screaming
into empty rooms
because
it is  
the same as
screaming
into full rooms
of people who
have said they were listening

I love you
The way your eyes meet mine.
Their vibrant blue
With patches of green.
They remind me of the earth.
And sometimes
I think that if you look at me
You will give me the world
In one simple glance.

I hate you
The way your eyes meet mine.
The way you look at me.
It is not sincere.
Not loving like it should be.
How can I know
If you will give me the world.
Or turn around
And give it to someone else.

my thoughts were clear until i wrote them
and then they werent again

It's stupid
How I barely even knew you
Yet I trusted you with my heart.
I so carelessly left it
Lying in your open palms.
So vulnerable.
So helpless.
Susceptible to the heartbreak
I knew you would cause.
So weak and powerless
Against you.
But...
     Somehow...
          I never wanted to take it back.

I'm reaching
Trying hopelessly
To make this work.

If only you
Could take the time
To try to help me.

I'm tumbling
Crumbling
But you'll never notice.

I'm aching
Breaking
And it only lifts you higher.

How on earth
Could I have thought
You loved me back?

I'm a fool
For loving you
But the truth is...

I
    Still
         Do