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Lani Foronda Jun 2014
It's not that I can't do it.
It's more of a "I-don't-want-to" type of situation.
I don't want to commit
Or make promises that I know I can't keep.
That just wouldn't be fair,
& I wouldn't dare hurt you again.
I'm much too scared to take that chance.

But believe me,
I wish I could-
I want to more than anything.
If I had the opportunity,
I would tell you everything
And show you all that I've had to hide.
All the closed doors
Sealed up windows
Would be yours to open up.
I would hold your hand
Proud and tight
Because I'd want the world to see that I'm yours.
There would be no secrets
No more blurred lines.
Just you and me
Like you've always wanted.

But I know that as much as I want for this to happen,
I won't let it.
October07,2013
Spoiler: It happened, and I couldn't have been more blessed to have someone like him.
Lani Foronda Jun 2014
it feels more bitter than sweet
when i close my eyes and remember
those autumn months.
we became like the leaves,
falling down as the wind shook us.
and oh, how we fell.
we fell in love
while falling apart.
December02,2013
imadeitallup Jun 2014
She was more pure of heart than she let on.
More beautiful than she believed.
The sun itself would be envious
of the light in her eyes.
She was a lady of many hats,
all of which she wore elegantly.
But there was an emptiness within her
that's gravitational pull was so intense,
not even the heaviest of hearts were safe.
She, with the smirk of a fox.
She speaks my thoughts out loud,
she faces my worst fears,
she wanders like I do...
"Run away with me", her eyes scream.
Her mouth whispers "If only".
Simultaneously giving and taking hope.
It was a tear in the universe,
a glitch in time, a crack in faith.
This was not supposed to be.
Not now.
For her the wedding bells toll.
For I the silence of singularity.
I watched her eyes start to shimmer,
and flood with confirmation.
She caught herself, and smiled.
"We will meet again...someday." She shouted,
as she disappeared into the crowd.
It was time for the father, bride dance.
As she walked away...I thought,
"I am quite possibly watching part of my soul walk away."
"Of course, I would meet someone who is perfect for me on my wedding day" She said. xxxx
Lani Foronda Jun 2014
I am not yours
Nor can I ever be.
I am bound to this world
This earth
This terrain
While you-  
You are walking across the universe
On steps that I will never graze upon.

I envy the faces you pass-
People who don't even know your name
Yet are privileged to be in your presence
While I am here, clinging to the mere indentation of you on my bed.

I don't understand the logic behind this.
I know you.
I have seen you wake up in the early morning,
A sketch of hazy eyes and soft edges.
I have seen you thrash in the middle of the night,
Delirious and fevered from the demons in your head.
I've held your calloused hands
And mapped out your scars
To the constellations of the dark dark sky.
I knew all of that
And yet
I still could not be yours.
March 31 - April 01, 2014

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