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Zuzanna Jan 2018
I've been thinking a lot these days
         I've been thinking about a button
                  In my head
That would stop all the thinking
Until there is nothing
But the silent hum of the night

Because the more I think
The closer I am to the truth
That sends bullets through my head
         That sends daggers to my heart

If only the pain left with the sound
    Of noisy cars passing by
          I press the button
                                     I press it - now

                      
                     The noise stops -

Immediately

Suddenly

Brutally








                                   But for how long?
Tfw when you just wanna forget ur whole life lolololol
Vianna Jan 2018
Personally, when I write something there's around five thoughts buzzing around in my head- sometimes more. They can be relevant or not.
We're always thinking of something, weather it be song lyrics stuck in your head, or you're thinking of someone, you're always thinking.
It bothers me. Because I have a habit of overthinking, and scaring myself into no sleep. then overthinking again, because of sleep deprivation.
Sleep is an anathema to me, because it can go two ways; I sleep for a good seven hours, and have an okay day, or I sleep for three hours, and feel like death itself in the morning.
I had a thought at the beginning of this and it turned into something completely different lol
Anonymous Jan 2018
This is all so pointless
I’ve lost all interest
In experiencing life
All I feel is strife

I’ve lost so many I'm feeling down again
Now i'm falling off the deep end
Falling into nothing but pain and sorrow
Not wanting to wake up tomorrow

I have but one I care for
Among all the violence and gore
She stands out like a bright light
Blinding me until I lose my sight

In all the broken things I seen
Like that feeling you get when you are clean
It feels so obscene
But I can’t help but gleem

She overwhelms my darkness
She makes me ignorant with bliss
She brings me up when I feel down
She holds me and doesn't make a sound

Because sometimes the best advice
Is to just to listen not entice
Anonymous Jan 2018
You will change
All this may seem strange
Losing people you thought loved you
But deep down inside you know it isn't true

You will learn lessons the hard way
There isn't a good way for say
But, maybe you will survive this
After all life is just a hit and miss

Some give up and take the easy way out
Others just get mad and scream and shout
Some like to pretend that nothing is wrong
Some may pretend to be strong

But everyone wears some sort of mask
Like they have some hidden task
That speaking out is forbidden
So they keep it all hidden

Overtime people will see through the cracks
See the colors you are seeping are black
Maybe no one will understand you
Not everything they will say is true

But one thing you can count on
And this is no con
There are people who care about you
Here is a clue

I’ve written poems to help you
I spoke out my deepest thoughts tis’ true
Others have taken entire careers to help you
Because there are many who want to help you

you just have to remove that mask and seek aid
Open the flood gates and cascade
Reach the light at the end of the tunnel
Anonymous Jan 2018
People are going to leave you alone
It’s just a part of becoming grown
Throughout life you lose things you love
Like you are drowning, struggling to keep your head above

But life is only as bad as one has had.
Someone only knows how they've been sad
They know how low it can be for them
How bad it been and how grim

Because it can only be as bad as what they have had happen
Some people have more problems that are over lappen
Some have it worse but not everyone has it equal
But it's life and we have it coequal
Anonymous Jan 2018
I feel my chest hurt like it’s going to cave in
I feel my heart start beating fast again
I can’t breathe
I can’t conceive

A single thought on my mind
Like it's on repeat and it grinds
What if she leaves me again
What if she cheats on me again

What if my mother passes
What if my whole life crashes
What if, what if, what if
I’m tired of “What if”

But i can’t control my thoughts
They have me in chains like i was bought
I am haunted by worries
If anxiety were stone I have an entire quarry

I do everything I can to not think about things
But when a worry crosses my mind it does with a bang
Like an explosion, you can’t just ignore it
Can’t just do nothing and just sit

So it eats me alive
Until i’m just a shadow of my former self
a Dec 2017
my heart
is so shattered
so broken
that when it tries to break once more
there is nothing left
to be broken
13lueCLOUD Dec 2017
The door creaks, my ears pique
They have come again
Those unruly, sinister men
Grieving, I sigh to myself

A day of peace, come nevermore;
Those unwanted guests arrive,
Demanding for attention
I struggle not to please

To the corner, I curl
This here is my comfort––
My own heat warming,
Myself in my embrace

Pestering fools! Naugthy and child-like
Whispering, screaming, telling me loudly
Words this chest aches to hear
And soon, I tear to the thoughts

Downpour comes,
Soon becomes heavy rain
To the heavens I look,
Do the gods grieve for me too?
A poem narrating the persona's everyday struggle with uncontrolled overthinking, comparing it to unwated guests.
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