In this cruel  world, it is difficult to trust anyone. As  a mere I have  no choice,but to keep things to thyself. I wish I could just be myself with any being  but I am aware ;it is a foolish thought. I feel  alone  currently . However, I know there  is a reason for the mountain I must cimb. I have faith my world view will change overtime but it is hard to look past the present.
Thank you God for it all.

It’s been enough years now,
Enough years for me to let you go from my mind.
Yet each time a sad song plays,
Your memory returns, and tears fill my eyes.

Was it really that difficult for you to love me?
Am I just a fool to still hold onto the memories?
Everyone says you didn’t deserve me anyway,
But all I feel is I was the one who didn’t deserve to be loved.

The brown eyes I fell in love with,
They’ll never change.
I searched for that warmth in others' eyes,
But left them cold and estranged.

I tried to find what you once gave,
But only left them torn,
Passing on the heartbreak you left me,
In eyes just like yours, forlorn.

Not yet,
Thy laugh, still a melody to my ears,
Thy voice, still a gentle wind I breathe,
Thy compliment, still my favourite poem,
Thy face, still a moonlight on the ocean in my eyes;

How can I?
Thy existence were like;
Pouring a cup of espresso,
Filled the emptiness of the cup
With the warmth, the taste and flavours.

Please
forget me
the late
forever
never
mine.

you didn't come to my funeral
now you ask if i want to dance

you want to reach out
but i've already sunken
you're wrong if you see me glow
the light isn't for you

i've followed you before
climb to you, swim to you
but you can't see me try
you didn't try to

i don't blame you
but don't blame me

Too much emotion
Too much time
For uninterested people
Too much feelings
Too much love
For an ungrateful person
The past will not come back
And you cannot force one's love
Is it about time,
To let go of the past?
How about this time,
We choose a different path?