Why can't you tell me you love me?

Why is it so hard to just say it?
You say you feel it.
You don't have to say it.
But I want to hear it.

You say you don't want to be forward.
Please, take the jump.
Into my arms, you will fall.

You don't want to say it all the time.
You don't want it to lose its shine.
**** that! I want you to give me some peace of mind.

You don't want to say it first.
Fine, let me take that step.
Let that burden be lifted.

I love you like fish love the sea.
Without you, I can't breathe.
I will stare down the sun, I will go to the moon.
Just to hear you say, you love me too.

Does it ever really go away? That feeling? You know which one I’m talking about. How many times a day do you look back? Why can’t you stop looking back? Do you still think about them? What made your heart go cold? How many years has it been since someone saw the light in your eyes? Do you ever think about that? Who damaged you so bad that you can’t let anyone in anymore? Do you still think about them too? How often does your heart ache? Tell me, what caused that emptiness that you can’t seem to get out. Do you even want to get it out? Tell me why you don’t feel like yourself without your sadness. Where do your memories go? The ones you’ve forgotten. Do you appreciate people enough? One day they’ll be gone. When was the last time you felt genuine love?

I am a fool for you
and my heart
has no inclination
to follow the rules,
it just bulldozes forward
toward you
leaves me spinning
in its trail and
spitting up dust.
Like a moth to flame
your magnetic being
pulls me closer
than I trust myself to be.