He is long gone but I am here, right here where He left at the same place where we first meet where our love grew where we look at each other from far corner where He stole my number from record room because He was too scared to talk to me where we always walk pass each other like none of us exist where I envy His intelligence and He love my attitude where He told me that He love me when the first time He lay His eyes on me where I fight Him over little things and He say sorry for my mistakes where I wait for little glimpse of His presence where He protect me from bad people where I can rely on Him with my eyes close where I woo perfection of His athletic body and He make fun of my flimsy existence where we make promises where He leave me because people talk about us because people will talk **** about me because we have no future together because we belong to different worlds because our religions were different but I am still standing there waiting for Him where we first fall for each other
Endless waiting for the Love of my life and I can wait forever
Here we are yet again, Nights that never seem to end. I'm laying there wide awake. Still wondering about what mistake, I made.
Part of me wishes you'd return my texts. Another wants to meet your face with my fists. The struggle between whats right and wrong is so real. I'm not sure what exactly I'm supposed to feel.
Anxiety, Depression and Emotional Distress. Has all left me in such a mess. I just want to know... ..where did I go wrong?
This is rather short. Past week or so I've gotten little sleep. Thoughts of my ex still plague me before I try and sleep and I only end up getting a handful of hours of sleep at best each night, most times I'm lucky to get two hours. I just need to figure out how to get over this *******. Is it Anxiety? Depression? PTSD? I'm not sure anymore to be honest. I just want it all to end.