Sometimes it takes the sky to open my eyes
To what's shone, coming and wrong,
To what's bright, rich and right
Sometimes in the emptiness of the night
when I lie awake to your choir of snores,
I chase the Devils of idyllic futures and more,
I hear me in them, in laments of glory, such songs,
and watch the warm creep by from feelings thought ever gone,
it ends,
yet when I truly wake to the scarlet rise
through the smog and maze on the horizon
I realize that in the center of concrete bushes,
as the wind of doubt whoosh whooshes,
I'm standing awake in the circle of change and growth
And I've waded through the black sludge of failures malicious moat,
and now I see me
as the dirt's swill stills
and I look upon my face
for the first time without distaste
and know that between this mud
and the roaring horizons blaze
stands a champion here present,
self made.

There's a dark shadow lurking behind the curtain.
That's gonna haunt us for life & that's certain.

When the bright light of HOPE will be long gone,
That dark shadow of DESPAIR will pounce upon.

Pounce upon us mustering all of its power.
To knock us down with each passing hour.

But one thing inside you will never let you fall.
Your determination which will help you to stand tall.

Stand tall against this dark shadow and throw it out of your way.
The bright light of hope will shine again the next day.

Surrender if you can't do
or
render if you want to
there is no place
for a defeatist, a flaccid mace.

Cry if you feel so
or
try if you can take the blow
no one remembers the grey
the ashes are forgotten in the tray...

Lie if you feel insecure
or
die in the quest to procure
the wind gratifies the soul
who walks against it with a hunger for galore

Defy if you can't take the heat
else
Comply if you expected the beat
don't sulk and forfeit the game
stand steady and take all the blame

Unite if you dare to share
else
Divide if you can't be fair
The trophies just shine for a while
Later, they gather dust in the exile

Believe if it invades your sleep
else
Relieve if it's beyond your keep
Don't make promises, you cannot tend
Don't demean the hopes, you cannot transcend

Walk the road for the sake of the journey
And
Talk if your words quench their yearnings
There is no pride in yelling the sermons to the mass
the words will finally bounce back and hit you at last....

What would I be without "the fear" of losing you
this fear is the fuel that keeps me alive.
this fear rejuvenates my love for you every morning.

The reason for this fear?
the incomprehensible doubt in my mind
"What did I do so great to deserve you?"
Is it that "you are with me at your will."
And someday like the wind changes
you will change your mind
and seek for a better and bright on your side
and then I am determined once again
"That day shall not come, not on my watch."
"I am gonna be your MAN for all of your seasons."
This is when "the fear" hits hard again
and I am ready to go all the distances
just to be with you in every lane...

in the stillest moments of the night,
when the only company i have
are broken pencils and broken thoughts
and the only light in my vision
is my laptop, the blankness
taunting me,
i have an indescribable urge
to prove myself.

my soul, that space in my chest,
tells me to fight.
fight what? where? i ask,
wisps of my hair twining
between my tired fingers.

(my fingers are tired; of writing, of
those moments when
you can't envision your future
so you assume it's dead.)

that space in my chest replies,
quiet and determined:
fight the voices
in your ear,
telling you each and every way
you'll amount to nothing.
fight them, and win
simply because
you can.
fight expectations
prove those who
told you each and every way
you'll amount to nothing
wrong.
come out on top.
laugh in their faces.
prove you can fight. prove you can last.

prove you can win.

I bet you thought that you finally had me out now.
I don't mean to be a mystery.
Cuz even half the time I question myself and even who I've become.
I hope you're not trying to find some love in me.
Cuz all you'll see is a heart emptied.
Though I said its a waste of time.
You still try to find a new way to prove me wrong.

Because you think I have something to hide.
You really think Im holding myself back.
And yet you tried to project yourself on me.
I projected myself right back.
Yet somehow you haven't given me up.
Hate to admit, I like that fire in you.
But it's too late. I have already made up my mind.
And theres no going back now.

Now its set in stone.
And your on your own.
You tried to move yourself in my heart only to realize it is not your home.

Why you look so **** defeated now?
Had a plan and I guess it didn't work out?
Ain't no reason to feel defeated now.
You won't give up without a doubt.
And so you may be curious.
How exactly do i know this?
Well sorry but I've seen your kind before.
The ones always pursuing.
For the ones immune to wooing.
Sorry but I've read this book before.

And yet you think I have something to hide.
You really think Im holding myself back.
And yet you tried to project yourself on me.
I projected myself right back.
Yet somehow you haven't given me up.
Hate to admit, I like that fire in you.
But it's too late. I have already made up my mind.
And theres no going back now.

Now its set in stone.
And your on your own.
You tried to move yourself in my heart only to realize it is not your home.
Now its set in stone.
And we've crossed the line.
It hurts to see how hard you tried only to realize that you lost at the line.

Yet this hurts me, more than it hurts you.
But I'd be lying, if I said I love you.
I hate to see you lose, i hate to watch you lose
Yet this hurts me, more than it hurts you.
But I'd be lying, if I said I love you.
You keep trying so hard, to win my emptied heart.

Now its set in stone.
And your on your own.
You tried to move yourself in my heart only to realize it is not your home.
Now its set in stone.
And we've crossed the line.
It hurts to see how hard you tried only to realize that you lost at the line.

Seven day in June


Until the wheels falls off,
Until we lose the lot,
Until the angels tears drop,
I will be here in your arms.


I am a heart, in a galaxy of stars,
How pretty they are;
I have no car!


Until the air is no longer, free to breathe,
Until the land is overcome, by the sea,
Until they find all the cures, to every disease,
I will be here in your arms.


Surrounded by friends with lies,
With no sight of blue skies,
All we have left to look forward to is eternal nights.
What is it, that we do have?
Take it all back,
Have it all back.
These feelings that I have,
Take them all back.


Until I see the light,
Until I no longer believe,
You and I are worth the fight;
Until the very end of time!
Let me have been without your love forever,
If our love, is truly dying.


If age is all that is left of my life
And all I have left to do, is to write another rhyme,
Then I will write…and I will write
And I will try to do right, until there are no longer stars in the sky.


I will try,
For you.
Until the very end,
Of the very last line.
I will try…
For you.


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