A declaration of benevolence
For a boy deprived of affection
Who is urged to bare his heart.
"I don't care"
Are just words verbalised in a manner
Seemingly self-convincing;
A facade of strength
When it's clear he's in pieces,
In despair, falling apart,
Trying as hard as he can to seem okay.
Mesmerising eyes express it all.
Occasionally one must hold their tongue
For holding your tongue is easily done
When one must deny feelings
Out of fear of challenging rejection.
Because both are apprehensive
In the face of emotion.
And she tries fervently to destroy walls
So resolutely built
With a motive of keeping out those with fabricated feelings,
While he didn't have to try very hard
To vaporise barricades of hers.
But how can it be demonstrated
That her sole intention
Is to show him devotion?

It's midnight and
I'm awake and
I miss you.

It's been a week since we've touched
and I don't know how much longer I can go on
because I'm addicted to you
and your love.

Oh God, I miss you.
I miss you so much.

Everything ends
That thought is so strange to me
That one day
I'll just be another sad face
In a sea of people rushing by you
That I won't have a meaning
Attached to my name
I'll just be another sad girl
But I'll never forget you
I'll never forget how you:
Sent tingles down my spine
And made my hands sweaty
With just a touch.
I'll remember how it seemed
Our lips were cut
From the same mold.
I'll remember how fussy you are
About the smallest things
That I don't give a **** about
All I care about is you
And your golden eyes.
I love you.
And I won't forget you.
But you'll forget me.
You'll forget how hard
I made you laugh
How happy you were
When you were with me
And the way it felt
When my hips
Were flushed against yours.
In reckless abandon of sanity.
But that's not all.
You'll forget this town
And everyone in it.
You'll leave.
But I'll still be crying
Over memories
I'm to scared to let go of.
Because that would mean
I would be letting go of you.

I want to evaporate
Disappear into the great
Black obysss.
Into the night sky
So clear and sure
Twinkling and sparkling
Moon dust in my hair
I dance with death,
He spins me and twirls me.
He's my puppet master
He's dangling my life
By a silken shimmering silver thread.
He kisses my neck,
And my chapped parted lips
Forever screaming silent pleas
Someone, anyone,
Save me from the nothing
I've slowly become.
I'm done with dancing,
I've grown to tired to keep going,
Take me with death.
I'm done with dancing.
My heart aches and yearns,
For a past that will never return.
A life I can never have,
A family I've lost,
Somewhere in this journey.
I'm done with dancing.
My mind bleeds
Forever asking me why do stay.
It'd be so easy. To just slip away.
To forget the reasons why,
I should never pull the trigger.
And be selfish. And just do it.
I'm done with dancing.
My soul is screaming and careening.
I don't know who I am anymore.
I've lost my way and myself.
I'm tortured by demons
Ever present. Ever there.
Whispering in my ear,
They tell me what to do.
I'm done with dancing.
I shake the moon dust from my hair.
It'll melt in hell anyway.

Its blank
Its wet
Its a little morbid
And a lot alone
Its weak
Its frail
Its blind
Its a little torn
Its halfway dead
Its my heart

Eventually,when every blood vessel is popping.

I'll be thinking of you