for he is the monster
i cannot leave my cave wall
i shall be chewed up alive
for his teeth are fatal

butterflies stuck inside nets
neither you nor I
capable to carve out a passageway

I am so sorry
for causing you pain again
promise
I did not intend to spill burning coffee
across your tender skin
like I have done over this page

I would spread oil
between your aching joints
aiding you to walk again
as the truth trembles on the edge of my tongue
threatening to flutter away

as bright as the moonlit stars between us
they're never bright enough for me
my lips screamed empty words
as they pressed cold against yours

sharp blades
cut thin ice
I am wrapped in a cocoon
showered in unconditional light

pitch black, led by street lights
I'm interlacing my soul
across the rink of memories
deathly blades below my childish toes

make one false move
and I drown
between the cracking waters
as my mother is pulling me out
blanketing warmth distances me
from the paralysing thought of the world

nothing but a rental
my body, I'm left empty-handed
windows shattered, broken doors
violent breeze pushes forth
I am abandoned

my lips swollen
all the way down to my throath
I'm frozen
not allowed  to sing another note

tender galaxies
stretch across my delicate skin
stars bursting, they're screaming in pain
creating infinite life, where shadows remain

my body parts
were embellishment stones
inside a crooked pavement
your feet landed on

I'm finally changing
the sheets
from the bed you slept in.
smelly dirtfilled rags

it took me a long time
to change those sheets you slept in
even dust and dirt
felt warm like home

I don't try to wash them
wouldn't remove the stains
I wrap a torch in linen
and light up my flame

you poured me a glass of water
I drowned with broken lungs
you gave me a herb to swallow
I passed out, overdosed
I gave you a bowl of sunshine
in return for your mistakes
I end up empty handed
and the cycle begins again