soph - Hello Poetry

soph Aug 2018

Fire

My eyes first saw you
And my heart wanted more
Fierce blue eyes
Striking tattoos
Adorned in funky jewelry
I was drawn to your flame
When I heard your laugh
Saw your smile
Felt your confidence
There was a spark
Through the small talk and funny stories
I sat and listened and stared and admired
Our minds are alike
Our passions align
You radiate warmth and peace
This one little moment will soon be forgotten
Yet I’ll cherish the time
I can sit by the fire

you know when you’re out of town and you let yourself have a baby crush on someone you’ll probably interact with once and never see again? yeah that

#fire #crush #love

soph Aug 2018

Home

As a girl in the movies once said
“There’s no place like home”
Home
More than a house
More than the place you eat and sleep
More than where you grow up
Home is a feeling
A blanket of peace over your shoulders
A sunny smile naturally coming to your face
No stress or worry
Serenity
As I travel far from my residence
I see the mountain peaks
Feel the cool air
Away from stress
Away from the wretched heat
Something inside me says
“I am home”

every time I come to asheville, I know this is where I truly belong

#home #love #mountains #asheville

soph Aug 2018

Broken

I look back on our friendship
The broken pieces smashed on the floor
Through the toxic words
Through the bad memories
I realize I still miss you
I miss our sister-like bond
I miss the way we talked and laughed
I miss being part of your family
And you being part of mine
I know what we had is done and over with
But sometimes
I like to gather the broken pieces
Toss the poisoned ones to the side
And rearrange it into something good
Look back on the good times
Reminisce
I wish I could bring that back
But then I look to the poisoned pieces
All sitting in a pile menacingly
And it all comes back
Your cutting words
Your overbearing attitude
The way you made me feel sick
This was broken for a reason
You are gone for a reason
I’ll have to keep it that way
To protect myself
From the brokenness

oh look another poem about one of the most traumatic experiences of my life!! this is about the same person I wrote about awhile ago in a poem called Friend. it’s been almost a full year since our friendship abruptly ended and I’m still dwelling on it too often because I haven’t fully let go WOOHOO I’ve just been going through the social media of her and her family because I’m an emo mess that doesn’t know how to properly cope

#ex #friend #toxic #broken #friendship

soph Aug 2018

Inspiration

I sit down to write
Create beautiful prose
It’s been so long
Yet my mind goes blank
Where is my heart?
Where is my brain?
Where are my words?
There’s no passionate emotion to draw from
No inspiration
I wish my tears could fuel pieces of art
But I don’t even cry
I wish my pain could catalyze my creativity
But that pain is so repressed
This lack of feeling suits me well most times
My personality is made of jokes
My heart is bulletproof
But in poetry
There’s no inspiration

I haven’t felt like writing lately and I realized it’s because I don’t have feelings!! that’s lit

#feelings #thoughts #writing #block #heartless

soph Jul 2018

Empty

Walking into the room where you once resided
There’s an eeriness of seeing your pictures
Your knick knacks
Your clothing
But not you
Our laughter echoes as we try on your fun jewelry
You shine through our smiles as we reminisce
We sift through your belongings
Combing through the years of memories
Feeling your presence in this empty room
Walking through the hallways of this place you knew and loved
You were a celebrity here
Every nurse and patient would smile and say hello
Now we share a solemn smile as we pass by
We see your closest friends together at lunch
Though there seems to be an empty chair
We know you’re there
Always sharing in the good company of others
So many felt your love
So many felt your joy
Now moving through this place
There’s an emptiness
But we know you’re there

3/1/25 - 7/16/18

#death #loss #thoughts #empty #love

soph Jul 2018

Angel

You weren’t a mother or a grandmother
You were sent to Earth
As a guardian angel
For me
For my mother
For my grandmother
For so many
You made the world so much brighter
Leaving flecks of angel dust on everything you touched
From the playing cards you picked up frequently
To the chocolate milkshakes you got me after lunch
No one was a stranger to you
Everyone was drawn to you
Through your smile
Your clothes
Your angelic personality
I could listen to your stories over and over again
And I did
The time you dyed your hair pink
The time you sat next to the cutest guys in your class
They never got old
I can still hear your charming laugh
Feel your love
You were an angel on earth
And now you have gained your wings

to my great aunt, margaret virginia fagen
3/1/25 - 7/16/18

#death #loss #angel #love

soph Jul 2018

Glass II

Still stuck behind the glass wall
There’s no use in getting out
No use in communicating
The people on the other side have given up, too
I slump down to the floor in a state of defeat
Resting my head on my knees
Suddenly
I feel a knocking on the glass
Slowly
I turned my head
A smile grew on my face
Someone like me!
Someone that understands!
I could tell in his eyes
He was behind a glass wall, too
“Do you feel my heart saying hi?”
A bond formed
From nothing else
But our life behind those glass walls
I reached through the glass
And took his hand
I’m no longer alone

I attempted a continuation (ooooooh) of a poem I wrote called Glass around a month ago

the best conclusion I can give without really giving away the intended meaning of the metaphor is that it’s really good to find someone that can relate to you :’)

#glass #sequel #continuation #reflection #thoughts