one night
my words
brought you to me
so i will spit stanzas
under the stars
hoping
to draw you in
once again

s.s

lay me on your tongue like acid tabs
light me like a **** or dab
breathe me in like *** smoke
snort me up like lines of coke
taste me like a ******
shoot me up like ******
sip me like spiked tea
trip on me like lsd
use me
continuously  
like your drug of choice
and i will make you feel
otherworldly

s.s

you can never get it back

whether it be when you're stumbling home after a night at the bar
and a masked figure pulls you in
taking advantage of your intoxication

or it be when you're young
so young you barely remember anything
but you remember the way
that family friend slipped their hands on you
with you being unaware of what was happening

whether it be when you surrender your trust to your lover
but they push it too far
ignoring your cries to stop
and just using you for their pleasure

or it be in any situation
anywhere
and someone invades you
in a way that will leaves marks on your body for days
but scars on your mind for eternity

no matter what it be
when you have your innocence stolen
you can never get it back

s.s

we are not living
we are surviving
everyday

facing new problems
and overcoming obstacles
or hitting all time lows
and crumbling to rock bottom

we are all
just surviving
for just as long
as we can

s.s

i want to dangle my toes
off the edge of life
just to see
what lies below

i want to take it
just far enough
to see what is beyond breathing
and return with knowledge
no one else has obtained

i want the stars to tell me secrets
so i can walk upon this planet
with little pieces of the universe
tucked away in my mind

i want to know what no one else knows
and to be prepared
to jump head first
into what comes after us

s.s

i can't seem to differentiate
reality
from the memories
i keep playing in my head

so forgive me
for still being in love with you

i can't seem to tell the difference
between what you were
and what you have become

s.s

the walls were talking
vibrating back
everything i had pushed away
vicious sound waves
forcing their way in
to rattle my eardrums

now bloods dripping from my knuckles
and drying on the bricks
and i'm not sure what happened
but the pounding sensation
of blood rushing to the wound
fills my ears
drowning out everything else

s.s